*yawn* am in school.. listening to lecture webcast.. coz i missed the first 3 lectures of philo(-sophy).. my gem. right now the lecturer is talking rubbish.. general info and all, man.. i -could- just fast forward and skip it, but i decided not too.. something impt may pop up. as i'm listening only it's alrite for me to type at the same time.. :) it's a one hour forty five min lecture.. so i may as well just type while i listen. and since its a recorded webcast, i could just repeat the parts where i think i missed.

had weird dreams last nite. i slept for an adequate 7 hours... but i'm still tired.. coz of all the dreams. it was a dream within a dream within a dream thing. urgh. the first dream was weird coz i was at lianne's place and for some reason i realised i was in a dream. and i asked her," i'm in a dream ain't i?.." and she went," yup. do u wanna get out?".. and i went " uh huh.. i'm gonna have to wake up to meet mel.. if i carry on sleeping i'll be late.. this is so weird.. i'm actually concious abt being asleep.." then we started devising all ways to wake me up. she tried to surprise me by throwing poor lucky at me.. her reasoning was to shock me awake. i suggested i should jump out the window coz i usually wake up as i hit the ground.. one of those falling dreams.." and it just went on. In the end i just walked out the door.. she waved bye of course.

then the next one, i dreamt i woke up, and proceeded to dress to meet mel.. *cough* went out in this rather.. weird outfit.. mom didn't even flip. so immediately, i went," i'm STILL in a dream?.." and it went on and on until i finaly woke up.. all bleary and not sure if i was still in a dream or i've really woken up.

*sigh* i miss my dear.. it doesn't help that i'm listening to sappy songs and that i cry at the slightest thing. *sniff*

and its weird.. i'm listening to chinese songs. yesterday i was just telling ruby that i absolutely hated chinese boybands like F4 and 5566// and now i'm listening to 5566.. *mutter* this particular song is quite nice actually..

*cough* i went to check the origins of the name "Catherine".. *cough* check this out..This girl's name is used in English and French. Its source is Aikaterine, a Greek name meaning "Pure." However, not all experts agree. Some say that the name means "innocent" and it originates from anglo-saxon *cough* right.. i can just hear all of you breaking out in hysterical laughter... *looks annoyed* It's not MY fault.. isabella gave me that name when i was in pri 4 or 5.. and it stuck. its weird coz i don't even LIKE isabella,.. we weren't even that close. but yeah, the name stuck. she could've done worse i suppose *grin*

lemme check the meanings for a few more names.. *smirk* of my various friends of course. unfortch, names like lianne can't be found in their database.. *sulk* nor chee kwang. nevermind, i can do jenny and irene and melvin and ruby. *grin* this will take awhile. their system is so clogged up it takes a long time to search.
Jenny - This girl's name is used in German and English. Its source is Gwenhwyfar, a Welsh name meaning "Pure and yielding, whitewave." In British legend, Gwenhwyfar (the Welsh source of this name) was identified with King Arthur's tragic queen.
Caught as she was between her devotion to her husband and her illicit love for the saintly Sir Lancelot, her predicament is succinctly expressed in the meaning of her name.
Irene - This girl's name is used in German, Dutch, English, Italian, French and Spanish. Its source is Eirene, a Greek name meaning "Peace." This was the name of the Greek goddess of peace. Until the 20th century, it was commonly pronounced in three syllables (i-REE-nee).This was changed through the combined popularity of a series of two-syllable influences: dancer Irene Castle (1893-1969), a popular musical comedy called Irene, and Goodnight, Irene, a plaintive folk ballad by Leadbelly (Huddie Ledbetter, 1888-1949).Multiple Tony Award-winning actress Irene Worth (born Hattie Adams in 1916) is a notable preserver of the three-syllable pronunciation.
Melvin - This girl's and boy's name is used in Dutch and English. Its source is Malvina, a female Gaelic name meaning "Smooth brow." The name Melvin ranked 3068th in popularity for females of all ages in a sample of the 1990 US Census. This name is usually reserved for boys. In part, it could owe its position on the US Census popularity list to incorrectly filled-out census forms. ( *snicker* no wonder... *blink* i'm no saying anything melvin. really.. *smirk*)
Ruby - This girl's name is used in Dutch and English. It is based on the common English word.In the late 19th century, it was fashionable in English-speaking countries to name girls after precious objects. Ruby joined names like Beryl, Pearl and Crystal in its climb to popularity. Source Language:Latin. Meaning:The red gemstone.

*sigh* *yawn* tired.. maybe the rest of ya could find the meaning of your names.. just search online.. its not difficult.. i just happened to find this interesting one thats all.

*sigh* no one's taking that reason and persuasion module with me.. *laugh* i spent the whole day just calling ppl and asking if they knew anyone who was taking that mod. anyhow, i attend one lecture today.. the lecturer was.. pretty alrite. *grin* hafta thank fong kuan to accompanying me to the arts fac this afternoon. *grin*

hmmm.. i really should type something proper. all the recent posts are just short, hurried babblings.. well, i don't have time for long babblings.. *sulk* have to catch up with the new gem's notes and everything. plato and socrates.. man, i will take ages to catch up.. with the notes on them of course. anyhow, i found out that tutorial for the gem is on alt weeks.. *wrinkles nose* not TOO bad..

*laugh* anyone attending stats 1232 this sem reading this right now? *laugh* that YY was a real blast today.. *laugh* he tried to explain genetical probability and found that we knew more than he did.. *snicker* can ya imagine?.. the lecturer going," and blah blah.. so, u get this.." then the WHOLE LT of students go,"Noooo....." and then he says," huh?... then?..".. *laugh* he was mighty embarrassed i think.. *snicker* anyway, YY is a lovely lecturer. his corny joke abt his initials was good.. coz he mentioned that a guy has XY for sex chromosomes and a girl has XX.. then he muttered something abt some ppl having XXY and XYY.. then he quipped," that's not the reason why my name is YY hor.." he is GOOD... i've never laughed so much during lectures before..

been listen to bond alot. NO NOT JAMES BOND. bond that quintet?.. quartet?.. dont even know how ppl are in that band. anyway.. their pieces like " Allegretto" and "shine" is really nice. take a listen :)

OHhhhh this is sooo unfair *sulk*.. i managed to get the module " reason and persuasion" yesterday, so i dropped that silly gem that i had. and guess what?.. *sulk* the only available tutorial slots are on fridays.. *sulk* i dont wanna go back to school for just an hour.. *whine* it's not fair.. *sulk* i have to go back there just for an hour.. *sulk* if its on alternate weeks it won't be that bad, but its fucking weekly! *whine* and no one wants to swap with me.. *whine*..

*cough* of course.. erm.. i can just hear some of u go," Cat?.. reason?.. *snicker*.. " *growl*

*sulk* i hate my gem.. i absolutely hate it. there are too many smart ppl in there.. attended the first tutorial today.. i think i pretty much established the impression that i'm a brainless chatterbox. *sulk* alrite. for those who know me, i -AM- a brainless chatterbox.. but *sulk* it didn't seem to matter until they dumped me in a class full of genius geeks. *sulk* its def not the place for me. hell i'm not even sure if uni is the place for me. i'm not exactly the "study" kinda person.. am just there to scrape thru and get a degree and get the hell out.

*bounce* joel is online!!! *bounce bounce bounce*

*flutters eyelashes at melvin* he came on after u went off dear.. no need to get all huffy *laugh*

-RUBY- for goodness sake.. add a tagboard or something.. everytime i wanna leave a comment, i remember i can't coz there is nothing for me to leave on *exasperated sigh* *grin* and stats lecture is good therapy.. nice of the prof to tell corny jokes. oh wait.. is he even a prof?.. *frown* not sure. *mutter* can't get the tutorial slots i want. damnit. looks like i will have to miss some of them so i can do my chem prac. bloody 7 hour prac.. *mutter* and my page refuses to load. *mutter*

*stares at keyboard*.. *stone* it's one of those days.. where i'm dead to the world and everything would make me cry. my brother should know... he got annoyed with me for some reason, kinda raised his voice a lil, and i started bawling. freaked him out. *giggle* you should've seen his face.

An old.. enemy?.. no.. pest.. yes.. an old pest has been trying to gain entry back into my life. i won't have it... *sigh* he needs to grow up. how does jen so aptly describe him?.. think it runs along the lines of lower than pond scum. i hate him. yet i pity him. melvin says i should let bygones be bygones. i'm sorry dear. forgive and forget doesn't happen in this case. its a nice little hate i've nurtured for 2 years. can't expect me to let it go like that. and one more thing. hanging up on me, or cutting me off, has become an annoying habit of yours. i don't think i want to call you for awhile. in case u didn't notice, that's another broken promise. coz u did promise u'll never hang like that again.

*stone* can't trust anyone these days.

*stone* *sniff* i think maybe i should just go back to sleep.. *sigh* can't.. stupid stats lecture.. i have to leave the house in 10 mins

personal note to melvin : ya know, i know i really test your patience.. like regularly. and perhaps what u said is true. i really push the limit at times. but when it comes to the point where you can tell me that you don't know whether i want you to care or to leave me alone.. well.. *shrug* maybe i just went to the wrong person for assurance. personally, there is just this weird ache in my chest right now. i normally wouldn't post such stuff here. but since i won't be talking to ya for awhile, i thought i should get everything out.