Saturday, June 05, 2004

I wish i could dig up enough energy to do things.. just been.. ~bleh.. you knoe.. that ~bleh feeling. like you dont feel like doing anything.. talk to anyone.. I havent even been logging into DAOC much. nor have i been reading any of your blogs. I apologize.

I'm mighty bored.. havent been doing anything much except watch movies. Caught shrek2, which was fantastic, and that harry potter show, which was.. alright. Ron remains my fave char. *giggle* Wonder what will be the next show i'll catch.

I wish I could talk to you guys the way I did before. I dont think this.. feeling will be permanant. this.. feeling of isolation. There's so much to say, yet.. it doesnt seem to matter. I miss you guys. all of you. lianne and jenny and etc. Should get back to being myself soon. i hope.

Eugene's gone to cambodia for volunteer work apparently. he came to pick me up for lunch on.. erm... ( cant even remember when).. erm.. sunday i think. and he left on.. uh.. monday. don't ask me.. some ppl just like to do volunteer work in some underdeveloped village.

I wish some of you would leave me alone. Dont you understand that when i refuse to answer your calls ( which come once every few weeks), and i only answer them when I forget to take note of who's calling.. dont you understand that it means i dont wish to talk to you. not now. not ever. nor do i appreciate the "so what are you doing now?".. "where are you"... "who are you with"... look DUDE. it NONE of YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS. ANd you seem to have forgotten that i told you last year to stop calling me and leave me alone damnit. not that you read this. but i just wanna yell to all.. YOU are a LOSER. i DONT want to be friends with you. i dont want to talk to you, much less be SEEN with you. AND i regret the day I first met you dude. you are the lamest. biggest. loser. I have ever met on this bloody miserable planet.