My phone went into a coma 2 days ago ( just to let you guys know, in case you try to call or anything)... the batt's full but it refuses to be turned switched on. *wrinkles nose* switch is stuck apparently ( after it attempted suicide by vibrating off a table). I'm waiting for Melvin to find time to bring it to some mobile phone shop for surgery (repairs) and phone medication, if needed.
Mmmm.... Melvin's leaving next wednesday evening. I'm swinging in between feeling numb, bursting out in tears and telling myself "it cant be THAT bad..".. RIght now, i'm just feeling numb. Honestly, it shouldn't be that big a deal. The boyfriend's leaving to study.. for a few years. so what? he'll be back every year or so for a few weeks. for the holidays. it shouldnt be that bad. But oh it is. Considering i'm an emotional leech, that i require constant loving attention ( at least a few hours a day), i need to see him at least once a week, i need to spend hours on the phone, i need the hugs.. the "i love you"s.. the cuddles.. plus the fact that i'm insecure as hell, extremely jealous, suspicious and not exactly very understanding. *nods* it is very bad indeed. Ooo did i mention i needed to feel special as well? All in all i'm very time consuming, as well as patience testing. bad? yes. bad. *nods frantically* can you imagine how bad it'll be when he leaves? and all of you will be at the receiving end of all my rubbish. Muahahahaha. *beam* don't worry, i love ALL of you.
*mumble* and lianne is leaving too.. *cries* *hugs jenny* only jenny is staying.. *clings onto jen and sniffs*
*sigh* i need more friends. but i'm not too good at dealing with strangers.. ya know. Dont say much around people i hardly know. *hugs pillow* At least eugene will be back in a few weeks.. and vyn.. well.. he's always busy anyway. I dont need alot of friends. i need just a few very close friends.. what's the point of having 20 people you hang with but dont know very well when you can have 5 whom you can talk to? quality over quantity baby. *mumble* its late. i'm starting to talk more rubbish than normal. time to head to bed.. night guys.
