Listening to: Jie Shou - Liang Jing Ru

I saw an old lady selling charity tickets outside Raffles City today. *pause*
Everyone I saw walked past her.. some made sure they walked far away from where she was standing. For some reason, I walked up to her and stopped there, waiting for her to ask me to buy whatever she was selling (which she did, of course) I wasn't even interested in listening to her sales pitch. I remember thinking "Charity ticket things don't cost that much.." as I walked up to her. She didnt even get to say 3 sentences when I interrupted and asked her how much it was. "5 dollars," she said. I didn't have change, so I gave her a ten. She asked if I would like to get 2 of them.. to which I apologized, and said I had rent to pay today (speaking of which.. i forgot.. much pay tomorrow). And we started talking, I guess. She asked where I was from (assumed I was a foreigner - coz i had rent to pay) Then she shook my hand and told me her name (Lilian) and that she was from Penang. After which she started heaping praises on me which made me really uncomfortable. There was a.. genuine feel about that lady. She was.. very nice. I was just smiling politely and cringing inwardly for she had a "God bless" injected into every 2 sentences or so. But other than that, she really was alrite for an old lady selling charity tickets. Then again, assuming she isn't a cheat, anyone who willingly stands there to raise money for some charity, can't be that bad. Plus she was a retiree.. and.. well.. bah. at that moment, I had the word "softie" in neon lights and capital letters flashing above my head. I think if I hadn't been in a rush, she would have suggested we go grab coffee or something *shudders a lil*
But really, she was.. nice. and for some reason, I was surprised. Coz it's hard to meet someone and feel the damn "sincerity" oozing out from their pores, if ya get what i mean.

ah well.

Getting off the shuttle to the hospital, this old couple walked in front of me. It took me awhile, but I recognized them. I had seen them before last week. And it was the same thing.. they walked holding hands. The lady said something to her husband and he laughed. And.. it was all very sweet. There was something youthful about them, even though they were obviously in their 70s. A certain.. happiness. Contentment. about themshelves. about their life. Of course, I wouldnt know for sure. But it was .. a passing feeling of bliss, watching them. Thinking that when I hit that age, if I do, it would be wonderful to still have the other half with ya. To laugh at something he says. To walk together holding hands.

(of course, on hindsight, they were either a) visiting a patient or b)have doc appointments themshelves.. so things ain't THAT rosy.)

But they seemed.. content.
I wonder if I ever will be.

Geez, what's with all the old ppl today.