woke up in a really bleak mood today.. so much so that i called melvin to cancel on him. i mean, its not his fault that he can't confirm if he can meet me today. not really anyway.i mean, if he can't confirm, then screw it. i'm not in the mood to wait by the phone for him to call and tell me if he can make it.Nor am i in the mood to wait up for his calls late at night. but it doesn't matter. he hasn't been calling anyway. And i'm sick and tired of calling all the time. maybe i should not call for a week or so.. and see if he has noticed my "absence".plus its apparently more impt for him to go get some weird comp system thing. it's.not.my.problem. i'm def feeling anti-social. been thinking alot abt him.and i. us. maybe i shouldn't think so much. thinking makes me grouchy. coz i'm a pessimist. oh. and i can write whatever i damn well wish about my boyfriend coz he doesn't read the blog anymore. ain't that nice? *flings a pen at the screen* *ponders* of course he's wonderful (generally speaking).. i'm just being childish and unreasonable and demanding.

Lianne tried to send me Theme Hospital via msn yesterday didn't get thru coz transmission was disrupted midway *growl* after an hour or so of waiting too. i need a game. desperately.

i wonder if Lianne is free later.. shall call her *nods* maybe i can meet her after lunch or something. walk around a lil.. *reaches for the phone.. and effecively disconnects from the internet*.. *mutter* dialup. Oooo... *whine* kay.. the bad news is Lianne is not free. Technically speaking. coz she has proj work to do. the good news is, she'll be at home so i could prolly pop over later if i wanted to. *shrug* i dunno.. maybe i'll go over. maybe not. i -am- craving for a game.. was thinking of rotting in a nearby cybercafe for games. the comp i'm currently using has NO games. i'm dying. we'll see *grin* if i need a game more than human company.

i miss my brother. *pout* wonder how lucas is.. *sigh* talked to him recently and he said he started on guitar lessons *beams proudly* and his "O" level results were alright enough for him to get into poly so that's a relief. i miss lucas. *cough* of course if someone had told me 5 years ago that i would one day miss my brother, i would have been utterly disgusted. actually, so would have been Lianne *smirk* right Li? i hated my brother. wonder when did that change.