i cant sleep.. i cant sleep n its all melvin's fault. *sulk* alrite, so i cant totally blame him. girls, lemme ask u all a question. isn't it terribly annoying knowing that something is bugging the guy u care for.. and he refuses to tell you what is wrong? he starts it off by apologizing coz he didn't feel like talking. u call him anyway to realize he sounds.. well.. his tone of voice is just all.. wrong. its all weird. and when u ask what's wrong, he says he doesn't feel like talking about it. see that's when things start to get irritating. coz u KNOW by the tone of his voice that there is something wrong. and the fact that he doesn't wanna talk about it just amplifies the fact that something IS wrong. and it must be a real big deal coz he doesn't wanna talk abt it. so u give in and hang up.. say 10 mins later. then feeling uneasy, u call again to check things are alrite with him. and now he claims there is nothing wrong.. tho his voice still sounds.. wobbly. so u hang up again. and realize u can't sleep coz u're worried abt him. so u call again. this time he just says there is nothing to worry abt and suggests that u go to bed. then u bug him somemore and his lips are still water-tight. and all the while, he's still sounding weird.

right.*sulk*

i dont know.. it brings to mind alot of stuff. other than wondering what the hell is wrong, i wonder why he cant just tell me. and then i wonder if we're really as close as i believe us to be. then i wonder what other stuff he hasn't been telling me. *shrug* says alot for someone who's supposed to be able to tell me everything. i threw a private tantrum just now.. muttering to myself," dont want to tell me?.. fine. dont tell me anything at all. i'm not interested.." then i realized i was just deceiving myself.. after all, i was annoyed coz he wouldnt tell me... so that can't mean i'm not interested. but then again, i was not interested, as in like.. interested interested.. like it was some juicy gossip. i had wanted to know coz i bloody care, and if he chooses to throw that in my face, its his choice.*sulk*