*sigh* couldn't concentrate at work today.. *pout* was too worried about work.. how am i to concentrate on my work when melvin is being cut up in the op room?.. *sigh* he called me alot of times today.. lol.. before he was wheeled in of course.. i haven't heard from him since his last call at noon telling me that he was going in soon.. i spent the entire afternoon wishing i was there with him. well, i suppose i could have taken the day off, but his mom was going to be there and well, she IS his mom and naturally she will have to be there on the day of his op.. so yeah, i didnt go. couldnt go. because they would only allow one visitor per session. and i heard that they have grown really strict abt visiting hours, so i can't spend the whole day there like the last time.. *sigh* dont like this at all.

plus there is the itty little fact that he will be really free while on his mc. and guys which are too free, well, do stupid stuff. *cough* i -know-. well, *shrug* if he starts picking girls up online, i shall dump him. whether he is in pain with stitches in him or not. simple. just hope i have the strength to go thru with it. god knows how many times i've got really mad/disappointed and wanted to leave but failed... lol.. screw that. Lianne knows... doesnt mean she's god...Ooo nevermind if ya dont get it... today was the last day at work tho.. lol.. coz i had this weird notion that school started next week.. i only found out 2 days ago that it started on the 11th.. *sheepish grin*

*sigh* i really dont understand how i can come home from work all tired. i mean, i do nothing but sit on my big fat butt the whole day, yet i manage to get off work exhausted. If this affects every one of the working class, it's no wonder my parents come back from work looking a lil dead, so to speak. like, i dont wanna do anything at the end of the day but to sit in front of the comp to play games, or to sleep.

speaking of parents, it's prolly high time i gave them a call. maybe. i dont know. i dont wanna call to get yelled at. i miss my dad tho. and my brother. wonder how his acne is *smirk*

Melvin is going in for another op.. like last year, he went to do his left lung. on friday he is gonna do his right. *cough* all the best to his.. recovery. and i hope he doesnt emerge from the hospital a morphine addict *laugh* *sulk* visiting is gonna be tough, considering they only allow a visitor a day or something like that. shall have to coordinate with his mom then. speaking of which, he was supposed to gimme his mom's hp number. *sigh* i forgot to remind him.

urgh. i have FOUR paper cuts today. i absolutely LOATHE filing. they have stuff from last december that's not filed for goodness sake. lianne and i were wondering if the money is worth our sanity, considering that all that filing and data entry is brain numbing. she thinks of the gucci shades she wants and she grinds her teeth and move on. i simply do -NOT- think and pass the hours in the offiice, albeit slowly but it passes nonetheless.