Crap.

how nicely one word sums up how i'm feeling right now. but lets not talk abt that.. even if you guys are not sick of me whining about a boyfriend i havent seen in 3 weeks, i'm sick i'm whining. over and over. and i'm sick of my own jealousies. Or however you spell the f***ing word. *curses* its just so weird you know. Melvin didnt hang out with anyone else but jeremy or.. i. when he was here. It sounds a lil sad, but i liked it that way! and now.. *throws tantrum* what melvin, enjoying your lil fan club over there? i'm sure gullible 17 year olds suit your tastes. *growl* i'm being irrational, i know.. but its just so.. WEIRD. when you're hanging out with so many ppl ( which you've nvr done before), and i'm not over there with you! *cries* i hate this! this is all YOUR fault you hear?! *cries* shit. i wanna call eugene. but i just talked to.. there.. erm.. *scream* *cough* sorry. spider on the keyboard. there was a spider. on my keyboard. a small red one. or brown.

what was i saying? *reads post* oh right. i would call eugene except i just talked to him yesterday. *pause* i would call jen. or Li. but i think they're both working. *pause* or busy. *sigh* whatever..*pause* and lyndon's disappeared. havent seen him online in days.

*pause* i think i'll go read. the ghost story was crap. but the history of the house was icky. like the door frame was part of a barn.. where this father shot all his 4 kids and carved their names in the door frame or something.. and then he shot himself. and the bed.. the wood was from.. mm.. i cant remember. i think this place where this lady killed herself after her boyfriend left her. and other bits. which kinda explains why the house is haunted.. *pause* just started on a trashy romance *beam* so far they've fallen in love but have yet to admit to themshelves. its SO unreal. *pause* mmm. need chocolate. blog another day.