Listening to: Butterfly *laugh* ( *sings* I'm searching for a man, all across japan ) wtf.

I swear I didnt download this.

Anyway. I went to gym with Jen just now.. strolled a lil on the treadmill, played with the stair-climbing thing.. and Jen continued on while i just whined that my socks were wet ( it was raining when we were walking to the gym)

Anyway, Thanks Dear. My dearest, sweetest, most considerate, sensitive Melvin *beams*

( of course i'm saying this coz he got me WoW AND he's paying for subscription)
*flutters eyelashes at Melvin*

Listening to : A Chance with You - Ger

*pause* My exams are over. I should be exhilarated. but i'm not.

Today's paper went VERY well. I could do 98% of the MCQ questions. AND just about all the essay type questions. AND i scored an A for the project.

*cries* WHY?

WHy did i put pass/fail for a module that could have helped me get my merit? WHHhhhhyyyy?

My core modules all sucked. I'd be getting Cs i think. and the ONLY modules that could have helped me are the marketing (which was today) and soci ( which was fairly easy too btw)

WHhhhyyy? *cries*

Normally ppl curse coz they didnt know how to do the paper.. today, with each question i could do, i was going "fuck. gimme a difficult one.. so i can go "thank god i put pass/fail".. but Noooo all the questions were EASY.. *cries*

This could have helped so much.

Listening to: Missing you - Ger

Sometimes.. sometimes it's just easier to put the blame on others for something that is so obviously your own fault.

"I had wanted things to be THIS way.. BUt Nooo.. he wanted it THAT way.. so we ended up doing things HIS way and everything just screwed"

But have you ever realized if you had stood by what you thought was right, all this wouldn't have happened.. and you could very well be saying smugly "I told you so.." instead of "You $*#_!%^% idiot! this is ALL YOUR FAULT!"

So technically speaking, it aint really the other guy's fault, but kinda your own fault as well.. for giving in.

I'm babbling again. forgive me.

Really odd thoughts to be entering my head while studying the advertising process for marketing..

On another note, I wish you would just stop giving excuses and show some results for a change. Almost doesnt cut it. "I'm trying" doesnt cut it either. I'm sorry it has to be this way. *shrug* Such is life.

Listening to: Open Arms - Colin Raye

Lying beside you, here in the dark

Feeling your heart beat with mine

Softly you whisper, you're so sincere

How could our love be so blind

We sailed on together

We drifted apart

And here you are by my side

So now I come to you, with open arms

Nothing to hide, believe what I say

So here I am with open arms

Hoping you'll see what your love means to me

Open arms

Living without you, living alone

This empty house seems so cold

Wanting to hold you, wanting you near

How much I wanted you home

But now that you've come back

Turned night into day

I need you to stay.