Friday, January 31, 2003

haven't been blogging.. as in.. really blogging.. too.. tired to blog. tired of life. of everything. oh.. and i had a tiff with mom yesterday.. maybe "tiff" would be too weak a word. hmm.. fight?.. not really.. she was doing all the yelling. let's say it was a "let me oppress you" session. *snort* i shall not go into detail here.. mostly coz i can't exactly remember what was said. but it somewhat ended with mom saying," so you don't need that much money right?.. then 2 bucks a day for you should be enough." and i got irritated so my ultra big mouth retorted," don't give any then." *cough* so she took all my cash. *wince* and i'm not getting any money from her. for a few months at least. *pout* she took -everything-. *shrug* oh well. its only money. dad was not in the least sympathetic. *pout* he said i should learn when to keep quiet so i don't get into THAT much trouble. i haven't complained abt mom for a long while now. not coz there is nothing to complain abt. i still resent her. them. just that i promised dad i wouldn't like, say bad stuff abt her online anymore. and dad is nice, so i shall keep my promise. just coz dad is nice doesn't mean i don't resent him either. but i owe him at least this much. and since i wasn't complaining abt mom in any way in this para, i have kept my promise. *shrug*

anyway, i kinda got to know this guy called .. erm.. edwin. yeah. edwin. from the jap studies class. he was in my discussion group so we kinda talked and the conversation was really interesting.. *laugh* we realized we were taking 3 modules together. yet we've never seen each other around. *cough* then i found out he was from NJC too.. *laugh* and he lives around my area as well.. by the end of lunch that day, we were like," man... and i've not seen ya around despite all that?.."

i'm going to DIE for my 'reason and persuasion" essay. it due like NEXT week, according to my (often unreliable) memory. it says," under what circumstances would you prosecute ( spelling?) a family member/ close relative?" *cough* and if ya just give examples, you'll end up with a lousy essay. so i need a general principle to support the whole thing. WHAT general principle?.. it's really easy. if they do something wrong, just sue. what's so difficult?. *cough* right, and that -one- sentence alone is gonna get me a 1500 word essay. *rolls eyes* i'm screwed. or i could write the other (equally screwed) topic. which is," find something terribly wrong with Socrates' arguement in any case and refute. state what should be done to rectify the problem, if the arguement is savable." so what?... me?.. a brainless little dimwit, supposed to rectify the oh-so-great Socrates' arguement?!.. *wince* Most of the time, i don't even get what he is driving at. i'm -SO- screwed. lianne. *whine* think u could somehow, by a miracle, find your cousin nick?.. i think u mentioned he took something like that before. but then again, it's according to my really unreliable memory.

love, life & friends-

01 what is the first thing you notice about someone?: hair. height.

02 when's the last time you cried?: 2 days ago. i'm a cry addict i think.

03 what do you want to be when you grow up?: uh.. erm.. rich. does that count?..( i'm speaking at the pt when i'm truely broke mind you)

04 do you sleep with stuffed animals?: *laugh* they usually end up on the floor in the morning.. so i've given up.

05 how far have you gotten?: gotten?.. in what?.. life?. not v far apparently.

06 do you like someone right now?: *cough* yeah. i like all my friends what. *grin*

07 do they know?: definitely.

08 do you have a best friend?: yep.

within the last 24 hours, have you...

01 had a serious talk?: eh.. not within the last YEAR i think..

02 hugged someone?: yes

03 gotten along well with your parents?: *cough* never.

04 fought with a friend?: nope

do you like to...

01 give hugs? yes!

02 give back rubs?: rather receive em

03 take walks in the rain?: not really.. not anymore. but its a nice thing to do when i get depressed.

04 you ever have that falling dream?: often enough *shudder*

05 what is on the walls of your room?: BSB, 911 posters. and some other assorted notes saying what i have to do and when. of course, it's never followed..

06 when you chew gum, what kind?: sigh.. the wonders of gum.. *mutter*

07 do you use chap stick?: not really..

who do you want to

01. kill? mom. a few idiots in charge of NUS.

02. shag? *cough* *blush*

03. slap? mom.

04. hear from? erm.. nick?.. haven't heard from him for.. erm.. li?.. how many years?.. i lost count

05. get really wasted with? *blink* i don't know really.

06. tickle? Melvin. *grin* he squeals like a girl.. and squirms like one too.. *laugh* *poke*

07. look like? myself

08. be like? ... i have no idea

09. avoid? parentals.

favourite

01. food? potatoes and chocolate and cheese.

02. drink? tea. fresh fruit juice

03. color? blue. baby blue.

04. album? hybrid theory - linkin park

05. shoes? don't have fave shoes .. my fave shoes are currently still sitting in metro.. the elle ones that cost abt 80++ bucks.

06. site? *frown* none really.

07. vegetable? lettuce. cabbage. fantastic cabbage soup diet that i can never stick to

08. fruit? apples, dragonfruit, strawberries, blueberries. only like orange when it's juice.

09. berry? check above

10. favorite sport: *faint* do i LOOK like i do sports?..

11. favorite friend(s): Lianne, jenny, irene, ruby, fong kuan, melvin, melvyn, gary, shimin, tim.. ( think that just abt sums up my really restricted social life)

12. favorite friend(s) (online): joel?.. don't know if he counts, but i don't see him anymore, so yeah, i suppose. and david.

13. favorite song(s) of the moment: wo nan guo. ok ok.. it's chinese. sheesh. gimme a break.

14. favorite movie quote: eep... uh.. someday my prince will come?.. *cough* *laugh* no wait.. that's a disney song.

15. favorite scent: waves of white musk. body shop. and polo sport... and Ooooo... burberry's weekend.

right now

01. wearing? tshirt and jeans

02. listening to? nothing much.

03. thinking of? Melvin

04. feeling? REALLY cold

last thing you

01. bought? *ponders* lunch.

02. did? went for my philo tutorial. *wince* not good

03. ate & drank? erm.. let's see.. dinner last nite.. was.. regular rice and stuff

04. read? YIKES. erm.. Plato's republic. part one. *wince*
05. watched on tv? this hokkien opera thing. don't ask. i watched it with gran. it turned out to be a really nice love story. just leave it k?

either/or

01. club or houseparty? house party.

02. tea or coffee? Tea. but then again. i've been taking QUITE abit of coffee.

03. high achiever or easy-going? easy going till your teeth hurt

04. beer or cider? beer.

05. drinks or shots? depending.

06. cats or dogs? both

07. single or taken? taken

08. pen or pencil? pen

09. gloves or mittens? mittens

10. food or candy? food actually.

11. cassette or cd? cd

13. coke or pepsi? coke.. hey.. what happened to number 12 li?

14. hard or mild alcohol? hard

15. matches or a lighter? matches.. half the time, i can't work a damn lighter.

decided to snitch from
Lianne's blog. it's not v interesting. u can stop reading here if ya want.



appearance

01. hair? past shoulders, black.. really messy, think haystack.

02. eyes? black

03. height? uh.. 155?.. *cough* approx.

04. weight? uh.. 45.. i think. i amy have put on weight. but the last time i checked it was 44. so i'm adding one just in case.

05. figure? i'm short, i'm fat. take a guess.

style( apparently, that word is foreign to me)

01. clothing? jeans and T. size of T depending oh how sloppy i feel.

02. music? almost anything.

03. makeup? lip gloss. powder clogs my pores, so i usually leave them alone.

04. bodyart? earholes. no tattoo.. low tolerance of pain. i scream at the the approach of sharp objects.

Tuesday, January 28, 2003

*sigh* its been really boring lately.. nothing much happening.. i'm still having headaches.. *sigh*

ruby, u're blog is looking much better :).. erm.. *cough* and i have nothing to say.. CNY is coming.. everyone is like, so excited.. *rolls eyes* i'm -not- for some reason. cheery festivals like these always make me feel.. bitter.. resenting all the joy around. i dread christmas coz of corny christmas songs all over. and NOW its CNY songs that grate my nerves badly. like ENOUGH already. *looks irritated* like i know its supposed to be some.. i dunno.. festival thing. but i can't like.. enjoy truely. after all, its just another holiday. such days don't hold any meaning for me *shrug* its hard to find meaning.. in life. in the stuff ppl do. whatever. i don't mind the red packets, that's for sure.. but still.. *shrug*

Sunday, January 26, 2003

*cough* ruby, if u're trying to link ah fatt's CNY page, it's not working. i couldn't find a link.. dunno if ya typed it corrrectly.. but just to let ya know

and ppl, enetation is down again. so sorry,.. ck.. u'll just have to not post sarcastic remarks for awhile. *grin*

nothing much.. *yawn* spent the whole day doing nothing.. i DID manage to complete my lab report.. in record time of course. considering its due like 7th feb and i've already completed it.. *cough* and there is a stats test on thurs.. *whine* i'm gonna fail.. need fong kuan to tutor me.. *whine*.. *whine* my legs ache.. spent the whole day walking around centerpoint.. the clothes at robinsons are -SO- ugly.. i saw this REALLY nice denim top at the Levi's shop there.. *whine* mom refuses to get it for me.. but it's nice!! *whine* it makes my waist look incredibly small.. *gush* and i look as if i actually have a figure for a change.. *whine* but mom says she is not going to spend a hundred bucks for me to look like i've got a tiny waist *sulk* it didn't cost a hundred what.. its only like $80 erm... $80++...*sulk* i LIKE that top... *sulk* even if the "small" is slightly too big for me.. it doesn't look THAT bad. *whine* i LIKE THAT TOP! *whine*