*bounce* lovely lovely day! my nails look niiiice *grin* It's kinda bronzy red. my hair looks a lil neater than before.. *grin* and i have neat eyebrows!

and i have 27bucks left to spend till October *pause*

Bah.. i've no plans for tomorrow.. may as well start on my cz assignment tomorrow.. OH pffft.. it means i have to go to the labs on tue.. Baaaahhhh... to think its my free day. oh well, i'll head there in the morning..

i'm boooored.. there's so much work to do but i'm boooored...

and i wanna go stroll on the treadmill once more.. but i just washed my hair :( don't want to wash it again tonight. maybe tomorrow then. just maybe.

Immunology lab was highly traumatizing. Imagine : Freshly dead white mouse lying in front of you. your job is as follows
- Pinch the abdomen skin and lift. Then inject the some solution ( cant remember what ) into the poor dead mouse, while making sure you dont puncture it's stomach or intestines.
- Give the dead mouse a tummy rub (which i thought was immensely funny, after i left the lab, of course)
- make an incision and proceed to suck out the stuff you just injected ( was trying SO hard but its intestines kept getting stuck in the tip :/ lots of squealing and jumping up and down at this point )
- Crucifix the mouse on this pad. ( very noisy process.. all the noise from me.. heh )
- Proceed to cut open the mouse.
- look an all the innards and remove thymus and spleen.
- throw the carcass away. proceed to do experiments with removed body parts and solution.

absolutely traumatizing.. *shudder*

Maybe Lianne was right. In the end, the only person you can rely on, is yourself. Coz everyone around you changes. You know that weird shit that says 'Change is the only constant?' yeah. I suppose my mistake has always been that I expect ppl to wait for me.. that everything would remain the way it would be. the way it 'should' be. And after having so many ppl come into my life, then walk away without looking back to see if i'm catching up.. i'm just.. sick and tired. Friends forever? -please- Nothing is forever. Forever lasts only a day. It is a fact.. that ppl drift over time. Your other half tells you forever? *rolls eyes* Sure, forever. We'll see who's still around when the sun rises.

I need a good cry. and a shoulder. i'll have a good cry, no doubt. a shoulder? i'd be better off using a pillow.

Don't tell me to trust you. Don't tell me to have faith. All the trust and faith I had given have given me nothing but grief. On a side note, all my tissue culture was contaminated. BOTH fungal and bacterial. AND my orchids died. AND i sneezed into the Brassica tissue implant today.. contaminating everything. All in all, i'm pretty screwed for all the lab sessions so far.

back to the main point.. *sigh* I dont know what my main point is anymore.
Don't think that I can take another empty moment
Don't think that I can fake another hollow smile
It's not enough just to be sorry
Don't think that I could take another talk about it

And suddenly, school work piles. *sigh* i attended my first computing lab today. Let's say it took me a long time to learn this:

/* This program just sends a greeting 'why me?' as output. It has no input */
#include < stdio.h >
main () {
printf ("why me?\n"); }

or something like that. can someone correct me? Prof Nebus had to rescue me numerous times from the computer ( which was furiously beeping away, which in turn caused me to bang on the keyboard RATHER furiously as well ) You would wonder if he was rescuing me from the computer, or rescuing it from my violent 'administrations'..

Anyhow, bleh. first assignment due in 2 weeks. help!

Then of course, I do have a chemistry test tomorrow. AND a chemistry tutorial on friday.. Have been trying to convince myself that doing the tutorial is a good way for revision ( same topics for test, after all ).. well.. I told myself that studying for the test is a good idea ( that happened at 5pm ).. and its now.. 8.40pm? and i haven't started on it. have made a start tho. At least I took my notes out from the file.. and its currently err... staring at me while i type away.

Grats to Yewzhen and Vynnie, who have both passed the first round of interviews at that overseas college thingy! *cheer* Best of luck for the 2nd one mates. Heard from Yewzhen that a powerpoint ppt is required *wrinkles nose* Have fun. Heh. *smirk*

Something's not quite right with Melvin lately. He's suddenly msging me alot.. not that i'm complaining.. hell, i'm pleased. Just.. well.. ah well, nevermind. i'll enjoy it while it lasts eh? *coos at Melvin* *giggles madly*

I bought 2 lipsticks, 2 eyeshadow colors and a cream blush today. And for some reason, I didn't get any skin-care at all ( though i was eyeing that Clinique pore refining set.. it was like what.. 90bucks? ), which was what i had really wanted to buy. *frown* there comes the fact that I don't wear makeup on the daily basis. In fact, I can't remember the last time i wore makeup. I think it was march... yes, and it's now august. which begs the question, why did i buy all that? And know what?.. i really don't have an answer.

*moan* why didn't i just get the Clinique set?.. at least i would use them when i remember to..

Anyway.. Yewzhen and I walked around abit before we took a bus to Clementi central and I spent somemore.. on crap skincare. *whine* Oh.. and i bought sun-screen as well.. promptly used coz we headed to the pool next. At that point, we were asking ourshelves 'why aren't we using the pool in school...' Don't ask me.. for some reason, that didn't occur to either of us until it was too inconvenient to head back to school. Yewzhen swam while i crawled in the water.. She swam for 35 mins non-stop.. I did the same, at a much slower speed. She was laughing at me for the last lap though.. lol.. I kinda moved my arms around abit in the water and moved millimeters at a time. was too tired to even kick. yeah. did that for the entire lap.. it was really.. err.. slow. *grin*

I wonder why i even bother with the sun-screen. *shows everyone the super-obvious tan lines* see?! Sun-screen doesnt help ONE bit.

Think we'll go jogging next tuesday.

Melvin, can you get any mushier? *grins mischeviously* oh no. no... pls dont take it as a dare. *grin*

I jogged! errr.. walked briskly! ... *looks at some raised eyebrows and sulks a lil* oh alrite, I STROLLED on the treadmill for 15 mins. Have to be honest sometimes. *laugh* but it's exercise right? and there's the fact that i managed to make it to the gym in the first place. so.. its an improvement! and.. err.. i deserve that chocolate coated apple which i'm planning to have for dessert after lunch! i do! *tries to convince oneself*

***EDIT*** damnit. we've been friends for 6 or 7 years.. you're the 2nd oldest friend i have ( honor goes to Lianne for being oldest =P ) dont do this to me now.. please dont. It scares me too much. ***/EDIT***