I miss him terribly. even tho i dont say it. or show it much. how do i tell everyone around that waking up is a chore.. and that everytime i see.. couples together it just.. i dont know.. *sniffs* Even tho he tells me everything is gonna be alrite.. *cries* it doesnt feel right when he's so far away! *bursts into tears*

I havent seen him in months. and talking everynight.. just.. isnt enough somehow. *wails* and he wont be back till feb! *bawls* this is all your fault melvin! *grabs a box of tissues*

*blows nose*

its all your fault.. *cries somemore*

Went swimming today. I am now 3 shades darker on my limbs ( as compared to the rest of me ).. *scowl* time to soak in skin lightening lotion. Maybe swimming at noon was not exactly the smartest thing to do.. ah well. as usual, yewzhen did like 10 over laps while i struggled to stay afloat. We talked alot though.. about erm.. hair removing lotions and shavers and wax. plus the usual complaints about the immunology prof. We walked around abit after the swim and she got herself a pair of boots.. *laugh* I nvr knew she was the kind who would like boots..

Anyway. Met melvin's housemate, Mei, at holland v at about 5 coz mel bought me some stuff and she was supposed to pass them to me.. actually we were supposed to meet at 4. she msged to say she would be running late.. so i walked around.. and found this shop having a watch sale! yeah.. saw some -really- nice watches which i was tempted to buy. Didnt get any in the end though.. mainly cause the designs, though nice, weren't.. my kinda thing.

at this point, i figure it would be proper to thank the boyfriend for the mini-baileys ( i'll bring it to one of our lectures maybe, jen *beam* we can have baileys in chem lecture ) and MnMs and Corinthains. Melvin's trying to make me fatter than i already am. *prods tummy and sulks* but yes *beams* thank you dear.

And many thanks to mei as well. For bringing it all the way down. and for enduring a very awkward hour sitting at delifrance. you guys know how i am with ppl i don't know.

Anyway. *sigh* I have stuff to do. so.. blog another time.

Well, i'm in school. with another 2 hours to burn before the Immuno lab starts.. tried to get onto the web-based msn without success.. I suppose i COULD spend the 2 hours reading the lab protocol before going in so i would know what to do later. BAH.. that -was- the original plan. bah.. need someone to have lunch with me. hungry hungry hungry. actually, i havent BEEN anything but hungry lately.. *mumble* shall have to work it off with a swim tomorrow i think. my jeans are getting.. mm.. tight.

Anyway.. *sigh* i better go have a read at the protocol.

Sorry for the 7.30am call, jen. it was an emergency.

*beams happily* the program which jenny helped me write worked *prances around* then again, the one jeremy wrote worked too.. Now i just have to try and understand how they got about doing it.. Prof Nebus said a good way was to throw away the whole thing and try to re-write it.. *snort* yeah right, and what are the chances of me doing that?

Mmmm mmm... next week is term break. Jeremy promised to watch a movie with me. and i'm supposed to catch 'harold and kumar go to white castle' with jenny.. and eugene owes me a day out too.. *perks up* i'll have a fun week no doubt. well, i sure bloody hope so.

I miss Lianne. *pause* Sometimes I wonder why.. coz honestly.. its not like we've been talking or hanging out much for the past 2 years. but yes, i do miss her.

*stares at mug* I.believe.something.landed.in.my.camomile.tea. it's black. it's got wings. and it's swimming in my mug of tea. *stares somemore* *sigh* not my day.

ya know. I have absolutely no idea what to type in today. I feel like blogging, yet at the same time.. there really isnt anything to blog abt.

Was supposed to spend the day reading some of my notes *snort* yeah right. I did read some ( as in one set..).. not as much as I planned. but its a start.

Spent a few hours in this SOC comp lab with Jeremy yesterday while he tried to figure out how to write the programs.. its like he's doing my homework for me. which is bad.. coz i wouldnt know what to do when the exams come. Aaaanyway. he saw Euler's rule or equation thing in the question and he flipped. literally leaned his head against the table and mumbled "i hate math."

He insisted on walking me to the bus stop even though it would mean that he would have to take this long bus route home. I insisted that I was perfectly capable of walking to the bus-stop myself. *shrug* He was more insistant than i was apparently. coz he ended up taking the long bus route home. *laugh* actually it was a "no you dont have to.." , "yes i do".. " no you dont!".. and err "oh well, we're at the bus-stop already." *snicker* It was pretty silly i admit. But he said something about melvin wanting his head if anything should happen to me, or something like that. *looks at melvin* since when did you put him in charge of my safety dear? I'd rather you put him in charge of entertaining me.

I was supposed to head to school today to type out 2 of the progs and to see if they worked.. but i didnt. was too lazy to leave the house. I'll do it on thurs.. considering I end at 2.. speaking of which.. i really should study for the chemistry test. and do the tutorial. oh dear. and its all due on thurs and I'll have no time tomorrow.. GAH.. i'm gonna get started like.. NOW.

go to hell preetam. and stay there. Why should melvin spend my talking time doing things for you? telling melvin 'tell your gf to fuck off'?.. *snort* fuck yourself preetam. damn prick. go rot in hell.

and you, melvin chong. For not standing up for me. i would gladly wave the finger at you. *shrug* i can stand up for myself, since you're not willing to do so for me.

I need someone to take me away..

Who will?