Listening to: Hold Me Now - Wayne Wonder
damn. it took me more than 3 tries to type the "listening to" statement. Just came back from an outing with Jen, Tim and Shawn ( whom i met for the 1st time ).. pity Marcus didnt come.. we had lotsa fun laughing at Tim *beams* I had THREE bottles of hoegaarden. and I Luuuuurrrve hoegaarden now. *pause* well. actually i had 2.5.. coz tim shared the last one with me. Jen and I shared a bowl of noodles.. and we couldnt finish it so shawn volunteered to finish it for us. Tim finished one bowl ALL by himself.. *giggles at Tim* Good boy!
And know what.. i was woozy by the time i finished one miserable bottle of hoegaarden. and by the time i finished 3... well.. it wasn't THAT bad ( can't type straight ).. as in i wasnt drunk or anything. i just peed alot. and poor tim had to keep getting out of his seat so i could go pee.
Anyway. we played card games with Jen's huge cards.. talked about school alot. coz tim and shawn were both freshies *laugh* and they wanted to know which modules to take and which to avoid.
*yawn* sleepy.
Shawn's nice. except he kept saying i looked like and reminded him of his 13 year old niece *wrinkles nose* he said it like.. what,... 3 times? or 4? "you know.. you remind me alot of my niece.. you look just like her! and your demeanor.. so like her!" *mutters* right.
Then we all talked alot of rubbish. Jen and I kept laughing at the way Tim said the word "put" *nudges Jen* "do you want to put? or can i put?" *bursts into uncontrollable laughter* you dont get it? nevermind. private joke.
and tim's "glup" *laugh* AND his chocolate MOUSE! *giggles* I LOVE going out with tim. everytime jen and I head out with him, there're bound to be "make-fun-of-tim" sessions. *innocence* not MY fault he always says the weirdest stuff.'
I tried calling Melvin but he didnt answer.. think he fell asleep.. *hugs melvin* it's okaaayyy...
oh OH.. and after we left the pub, jen and shawn went home. i mean. not together. they went to their OWN homes. I didnt really see the point tho.. coz shawn and tim kinda live in the same area.. if tim was gonna take a cab.. the 2 could share.. but ah well.. shawn wanted to take a bus. so that's his call. Anyway. Jen and shawn went back and Tim and I walked to 7-11 to get chocolates coz he wanted some. ( i had to go with him.. he was supposed to send me home!)
Anyway.. he bought chocs.. and on the way to the bus-stop, we saw... SWENSENS. and being the devil's son, he was like "Oooo icecream.. Cath.. chocolate icecream.. nice.. cold.. sweet.. dont you want some?" i said no.. we walked past the doors.. for about like 100 metres... before i stopped and looked at him. then we turned and walked into swensens. I sobered up abit with the ice-cream *sparkle* we had the topless 5.. shared it coz i didnt want ALL that calories.. esp not after shawn's announcement that a beer had as many calories as a cha kuey tiao.
We talked alot. about our respective love lives. it was.. interesting :) there was something about how sometimes.. expectations are created unknowningly.. and uneccesarily. and etc etc.
Then we ended up taking a bus back to my place coz the bus came while we were waiting for a cab. I was telling him I could come back alone and he could just take the bus back to the hostel, but he insisted. Ah well.. i've no reason to object then *beams* So he walked me to my door. and he went back.
So... not only am I high from alcohol, i'm on sugar high as well. wodnernul. wondeul. w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l. yeah. like i said i'm not typing very straight and each sentence took me at least twice to complete. but yes i'm sober. esp after all that ice-cream.
*prances around* thanks tim!
/* EDIT - to look at the pics we took, head to jen's page. Link on the stop right hand corner of the page. click it yourself. */
Friday, March 11, 2005
Listening to: Heaven - Nu Flavour
Something tells me I really need to update my songs.. anyone has any good mp3s to send my way?
I managed to stay awake during physio lecture today, which was good. Then i fell asleep for protein, which is bad. ah well. I dont know.. i leaned back, closed my eyes for 2 seconds to figure out what Prof Chung was saying about 2,4-dinitrochlorobenzene.. then next thing i knew, Joanne was nudging me and the lecture was over. It would have been less embarassing if the class had 200 students instead of 25.
Then i spent 3 hours waiting for Prof Teo to be free so I can ask about some stuff. Could have been worse.. at least I had company for 2 of the 3 hours. YJ happened to msg me at about 12.30 to complain about how he couldnt concentrate on studying and that he was in central lib.. and asked where i was. So I told him i was waiting for a prof at science.. he came over and we attempted to study together. *snorts* yeah RIGHT. He managed to do a whole of TWO tutorial questions and I manage to read ONE page of my physio notes. We weren't talking much.. I spent alot of the time staring into space.. and he spent alot of time talking ( I mean, i tried to listen to what he was saying.. really. ).
And i don't mean to be ungrateful for the company. I mean he was nice enough to come down to science to keep me company ( not that i asked him to.. i msged him that i was in science and he took the bus over without letting me know first. ) I know I'm being absolutely mean.. but thru the 2 hours.. it just struck me how.. annoying he could be. how.. i dont know.. sometimes the stuff he says makes me grit my teeth and try not to beat him up. *wrinkles nose* He's alrite half the time.. really. It's just the other half that makes me want to get up, and take a plane to the north pole just so i dont have to be next to him.
The talk with Prof Teo was.. enlightening to say the least. I'm beginning to see how bleak my future truely is. I was ready to just collapse and die while i walked out of his office. I mean, Prof Teo is a VERY nice lecturer. He explains the concepts clearly.. i love his notes.. very comprehensive. at the same time, he can be SO damn direct. If it's bad, don't count on him to mince his words and make you feel better. He's that kind of lecturer. And I honestly idolize him for that.
On the way back.. while waiting for the bus, i called Melvin. And somehow.. everything just seemed a lil better. *sparkle*
On the bus, I was just thinking about stuff. about graduation. it's scary you know. I mean.. I thought the transition from JC to Uni was bad. But at least i knew approximately what I'd be doing.. it was only a matter of whether I really belonged in the Uni.. coz i've never stopped feeling out of place in the establishment.
But now?.. what am I supposed to do with my life now? Is there anything to look forward to? Kevin was saying "yay, now you can get a job, work really hard, pray for a promotion, retire and then die" Is that all there is in life? it's depressing really. It's like.. I feel like.. I'm about to set sail on this tiny raft.. and i have no idea where i'm going.. no idea how to get to the nearest land mass.. i have no map.. no one with me.. and all i see is the damn ocean. and i'm just petrified about the whole job-finding thing. it's way out of my comfort zone.. and i just.. don't want to grow up anymore.. it's too terrible a thing.
Something tells me I really need to update my songs.. anyone has any good mp3s to send my way?
I managed to stay awake during physio lecture today, which was good. Then i fell asleep for protein, which is bad. ah well. I dont know.. i leaned back, closed my eyes for 2 seconds to figure out what Prof Chung was saying about 2,4-dinitrochlorobenzene.. then next thing i knew, Joanne was nudging me and the lecture was over. It would have been less embarassing if the class had 200 students instead of 25.
Then i spent 3 hours waiting for Prof Teo to be free so I can ask about some stuff. Could have been worse.. at least I had company for 2 of the 3 hours. YJ happened to msg me at about 12.30 to complain about how he couldnt concentrate on studying and that he was in central lib.. and asked where i was. So I told him i was waiting for a prof at science.. he came over and we attempted to study together. *snorts* yeah RIGHT. He managed to do a whole of TWO tutorial questions and I manage to read ONE page of my physio notes. We weren't talking much.. I spent alot of the time staring into space.. and he spent alot of time talking ( I mean, i tried to listen to what he was saying.. really. ).
And i don't mean to be ungrateful for the company. I mean he was nice enough to come down to science to keep me company ( not that i asked him to.. i msged him that i was in science and he took the bus over without letting me know first. ) I know I'm being absolutely mean.. but thru the 2 hours.. it just struck me how.. annoying he could be. how.. i dont know.. sometimes the stuff he says makes me grit my teeth and try not to beat him up. *wrinkles nose* He's alrite half the time.. really. It's just the other half that makes me want to get up, and take a plane to the north pole just so i dont have to be next to him.
The talk with Prof Teo was.. enlightening to say the least. I'm beginning to see how bleak my future truely is. I was ready to just collapse and die while i walked out of his office. I mean, Prof Teo is a VERY nice lecturer. He explains the concepts clearly.. i love his notes.. very comprehensive. at the same time, he can be SO damn direct. If it's bad, don't count on him to mince his words and make you feel better. He's that kind of lecturer. And I honestly idolize him for that.
On the way back.. while waiting for the bus, i called Melvin. And somehow.. everything just seemed a lil better. *sparkle*
On the bus, I was just thinking about stuff. about graduation. it's scary you know. I mean.. I thought the transition from JC to Uni was bad. But at least i knew approximately what I'd be doing.. it was only a matter of whether I really belonged in the Uni.. coz i've never stopped feeling out of place in the establishment.
But now?.. what am I supposed to do with my life now? Is there anything to look forward to? Kevin was saying "yay, now you can get a job, work really hard, pray for a promotion, retire and then die" Is that all there is in life? it's depressing really. It's like.. I feel like.. I'm about to set sail on this tiny raft.. and i have no idea where i'm going.. no idea how to get to the nearest land mass.. i have no map.. no one with me.. and all i see is the damn ocean. and i'm just petrified about the whole job-finding thing. it's way out of my comfort zone.. and i just.. don't want to grow up anymore.. it's too terrible a thing.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
Listening to: Rewind - Nas
I deleted the last post with the photographs.. it was annoying me for some reason or other... maybe coz the whole thing just seems so fake. It's almost like I'm pretending things are alrite btwn Melvin and I.. *blabbers on* *sighs* ah well. Like I've told him, we're like a totally cracked wall covered in Nippon paint and glaze. *bites lip* you have no idea what i'm talking about do you? it's alrite.. *laugh* he does and that's all that matters.
My old epson printer died on me so i "unwrapped" a lexmark one that had been sitting around in it's box for the past year or so. unopened.. brand new. just.. well.. had a really dusty box. I LOVE the prints it's done.. it's way better than the epson.. BUT it's an ink guzzler AND it's cartridges are 50 bucks each. *ponders* I wonder if i should just spend 9obucks and get a lousy canon/epson one and pay 20bucks for 3 catridges instead. sure would save me alot in the long run.. i mean.. 110 bucks would get me what.. 2 lexmark cartridges? *rolls eyes* But i DO like the lexmark one.. it looks pretty *beams*
If Laichun doesnt reply my mail by tomorrow, i'd be tempted to scream at her. I need her confirmation for calculations before i can proceed with the protein lab report. which is due next tuesday. Sounds like it's a long way from today aint it? NOT when I have a test on wed.. another assignment on thurs.. Projs on fri due and all.
To Jen: Think i should try to find my old self back?.. *sighs* after that conversation we had.. been feeling weird ever since.
To Tim: what do you mean i've been "nerdified"?! *thwarps timothy*
ah well.. can't be helped i guess.. i have to admit and apologize for cutting myself away from you guys.. i really cant afford much time out and stuff.. maybe i'll go for drinks with you lot on friday night k? just MAYBE.. it's on a "IF i can finish my physio readings" basis.
Okay.. the last sentence sounds totally nerdified. Crap. I need a un-makeover thing and find the "non-nerd" self i was.
I deleted the last post with the photographs.. it was annoying me for some reason or other... maybe coz the whole thing just seems so fake. It's almost like I'm pretending things are alrite btwn Melvin and I.. *blabbers on* *sighs* ah well. Like I've told him, we're like a totally cracked wall covered in Nippon paint and glaze. *bites lip* you have no idea what i'm talking about do you? it's alrite.. *laugh* he does and that's all that matters.
My old epson printer died on me so i "unwrapped" a lexmark one that had been sitting around in it's box for the past year or so. unopened.. brand new. just.. well.. had a really dusty box. I LOVE the prints it's done.. it's way better than the epson.. BUT it's an ink guzzler AND it's cartridges are 50 bucks each. *ponders* I wonder if i should just spend 9obucks and get a lousy canon/epson one and pay 20bucks for 3 catridges instead. sure would save me alot in the long run.. i mean.. 110 bucks would get me what.. 2 lexmark cartridges? *rolls eyes* But i DO like the lexmark one.. it looks pretty *beams*
If Laichun doesnt reply my mail by tomorrow, i'd be tempted to scream at her. I need her confirmation for calculations before i can proceed with the protein lab report. which is due next tuesday. Sounds like it's a long way from today aint it? NOT when I have a test on wed.. another assignment on thurs.. Projs on fri due and all.
To Jen: Think i should try to find my old self back?.. *sighs* after that conversation we had.. been feeling weird ever since.
To Tim: what do you mean i've been "nerdified"?! *thwarps timothy*
ah well.. can't be helped i guess.. i have to admit and apologize for cutting myself away from you guys.. i really cant afford much time out and stuff.. maybe i'll go for drinks with you lot on friday night k? just MAYBE.. it's on a "IF i can finish my physio readings" basis.
Okay.. the last sentence sounds totally nerdified. Crap. I need a un-makeover thing and find the "non-nerd" self i was.