9dp3dt - No courage

I didn't think I had people reading my blog.. so to the kind person who left a comment, thank you for the encouragement.

It's 9dp3dt today.

I woke up this morning and lost the courage to pee on a stick. Didn't want to see another BFN.
I think I may wait until my beta on Friday. Have demanded requested for Melvin to take leave on Friday. He was reluctant because this week is crunch week at work. I told him that if he wasn't around when the results come in, and it's bad news, I'd never forgive him.

Yes yes, melodramatic much. But come on.. which is more important, work or supporting your wife in case of potential bad news.. and since this bad news is quite probable, I would be very miffed at him for being at work.

As it is, my aunt (Read: has her own IVF clinic) had ordered strict bed rest since I told her about the embryo transfer. I didn't tell her it's impossible to have strict bed rest with a husband who can't even remember to feed the dog before going to work. Neither is it possible to have strict bed rest when I'm home alone and the husband didn't deem it necessary enough to take leave. Okkaaayy. Lots of resentment, right there.

Symptoms today: Nothing. No symptoms. Nada. I really think my boobs have deflated, though Melvin thinks otherwise. He claims he pays attention to these things >.> No cramps. Nothing. My temp is still on the high side though, at about 37.2 Degree Celsius. High temps are normally a good sign, I think. If the temps dip, I'd know my period is on the way.

My lovely in-laws are out of town. They went on a three week holiday (OH THE ENVY) starting last Friday. Vancouver, then an Alaskan cruise, then they'll spend some time in Anchorage and Sewart. Have I mentioned OH THE ENVY!!

But they so deserve it. They have worked hard their entire lives (and are still working hard) and save for their lovely holidays.

It's quiet in the house when they are not around. My poor dog, Genie, misses my MIL. Last night, Genie slept outside MIL's room and refused to come into our room.

Anyway, their absence also means an absence of meals... We have ordered tingkat for dinner. Trying out E-one catering for 2 weeks. It's convenient, I guess, since the relatively balanced meal is delivered to your doorstep.

I hope the food is good.