Exam starts in 3 days. i'm not even midway thru studying. should I apologize for disappearing from this blog for awhile? I think not. BAH. You get what i mean.

*does corny Terminator impersonation* I'll be back.

Listening to:Nothing.

The LAST PERSON

Who/Whom

x. Slept in your Bed : Myself?
x. Saw you cry : *shrug*
x. You last shared drinks with : Jeremy
x. You went to movies with : Jeremy
x. You went to the mall with : Jeremy
x. Yelled at you : I can't remember.. prolly Mom.
x. Sent you an e-mail : Lianne. I dont get much mail.


HAVE YOU EVER

x. Said "I Love You" and meant it : Yup
x. Gotten in fight with ur pet : No..
x. Been to California : Nope. like Jen, i'm looking for someone who would pay
x. Been to China : Nope.
x. Been to Canada : Nope.. dang i'm starting to feel really isolated here.
x. Danced naked : *blink*
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day : Not the next day exactly.. but yeah you get what i mean.
x. Wished you were the opposite sex: *shudder* eeww.
x. Had an imaginary friend : *denial* She was not someone I conjured up mind you! just happens I'm the only one who can see her!
x. Do you have a crush on someone? : Did. well.. do.. if you count that hunk from the office.. *drool*
x. What book are you reading now : Chemistry text book. someone shoot me please.
x. Worst feeling in the world : Being alone, imo
x. Future son's name : Son? what son? eww. kids.
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : Nono! my puppy! mine!
x. What's under your bed : Mmm.. the floor. of that i am certain.
x. Siblings : Younger brother. who's wwwaaaayyyy taller than I am right now so i can't beat him up like i used to..
x. Location : School.
x. College plans : To get teh damn degree and get out. that's the gist of it.
x. Piercings/tattoos : ears? no tattoos.. no.. pain *squirm*

EXTRA STUFF

x. Do you do drugs : Strictly medicinal
x. Do you drink : DUH
x. Who are your best friends : Jen, Li, Eugene.
x. What clothes do you sleep in : T shirts and stuff. man. stupid question.
x. Where do you want to get married : do i even WANT to... i mean, hey.. i don't mind the honeymoon tho..
x. Who do you really hate : Beats me. I could hate alot of ppl, trust me. but REALLY hate.. no one. not even mom.
x. Are you for world peace : Oh puh-lease. Hasn't everyone learnt that it's just NOT possible?

STUFF

x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with : Mmm i guess :)
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did : Isn't always over that?..
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after : I'm not too sure. Eugene says he's noticed a trend.. I beg to differ.
x. Want someone you don't have right now : Mmm not really..
x. Are you lonely right now : Always. somehow or other.
x. Song that's stuck in your head : Lalalalalalalalal elmo song!
x. do you want to get married : We'll see.
x. do you want kids : If i ever want to challenge my already fraying sanity.. yeah.

FAVORITE

x. Room in house : Kitchen. Lol.. chocolate~
x. Type(s) of music : Just about anything really.. not Jazz. so not jazz tho.
x. Band(s) : Maroon 5, Linkin park, Atomic kitten, Black eyed peas, Simple plan, Matchbox20 blah blah blah
x. Color : blue, pink, black, white, deep reds
x. Perfume or cologne : Elizabeth arden's true love ( nothing can beat it), Drakkar Nore thingy.. can't remember how you spell the word..
x. Brand : Body shop, Levi's, Elizabeth Arden blah blah
x. Season : Fall?

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...

x. Cried : I'm a damn tap. yeah i cried.
x. Bought something : Mmm.. food? Oh yes. and funky single lined paper.
x. Gotten sick : Nose. blocked. ewww.
x. Missed someone : *shrug*
x. Hugged someone : *shrug*

If i EVER attempt to consume a LARGE spinelli's coffee again. EVER. Please just take the drink and dump it in the nearest bin.

I had ONE. one MISERABLE large cup of cookie spin during lunch. it's now 3am and i'm still AWAKE. not for long, i should think. considering I just took one of those weird pills which put me to sleep like that *snaps fingers* not a sleeping pill mind you. a flu tab. coz i've actually got a blocked nose to boot. *curses*

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"What dessert are you"


cupcake
You are a cupcake! Innocent and sweet more than every one else. Everyone loves someone like you!

Oh yuck. cupcake. *shudder*

Listening to:Sing - travis

I'm gonna fail. i'm gonna fail.

Went with Eugene to munchie monkeys last night.. It's nice there. Big projection screen with Mtv.. nice comfy sofa sets.. lighting not too bright.. I love the tiramisu.. Mmm.. yeah. Had a pretty good time with Eugene there. He was telling me about Shark tale. and yeah.. Pity I won't be catching the show. Nice to know the whole story though. Eugene was very good at telling the story ;) I was looking at the menu when my eyes fell upon the 'drink' list. and i was like thinking "Ooooo they have beer.. in a school cafe.. " Then at that point, Eugene said "cat, no alcohol. " drats. *laugh* i'll keep the rest of my thoughts to myself now.

Oh dangit. I have to go. else i'll prolly reach the library late afternoon or something.

Listening to:the guy next to me talking on the phone.

I simply do not understand it. I slept well last night. yet I'm feeling more drained than I was yesterday. *sigh* Currently in the comp lab.. another hour before the start of immuno lab. I really should be studying instead of coming here to waste that hour. But I'm way too tired :(

The day started off badly. As usual, the bus went off just as I was across the road. To my surprise, another one came soon enough. I didn't get up that bus. Not because it was too packed ( as in,... the norm) but because it was at that point that I realized i had forgotten ( of all things) to bring my file. I wanted to just forget about the file and copy notes all the way, but I couldnt coz there was a report I had to hand in today *sigh* so I cursed and swore all the way home, muttering uncomplimentary phrases about myself all the way. So. right. FILE. I got that, left the house.. and guess what? I left my BAG this time. trudged back to get the stupid bag wondering if the class would be over by the time i actually GET to school. SO right. got both of the stuff and left ONCE more to the bus-stop. Of course, i HAD to start wondering if i had forgotten to lock the door. U-turned and walked back to check. If there was someone waiting at that bus-stop all this time.. you can imagine what he/she would be observing. Girl walks to bus-stop. bus comes. She walks off suddenly, muttering to herself. Then she appears again, at the bridge. Turns and walks off. And appears at the bridge once more, turning back again at midpoint. *sigh* not a good day i can tell you. By the time i got to class, i was half an hour late for a 60min tutorial.

Oh, and jen I got the chem quiz one for you. we did equally bad. kinda like a "we could have failed the stupid thing". Meet up with me. so i can pass it to you.

Headed to the Co-op before i came to the comp lab. Wanted to buy a blue pen coz i was out of ball-point pens. Ended up with 2 bars of chocolate, 2 packs of soupy snax, a highlighter and a black gel pen. And err.. no blue ball point. Which prolly means I have to make another trip down before i head to immuno lab.

Got to talk to Finn ( kevin) the other day. Well, the other.. MORNING. specifically about 1am.. ( kindly refer to previous post). It was.. well.. cool, i guess. Coz he doesnt log onto msn much. I would say it was the 2nd time i actually saw him on. and he wasnt even using his own. He was on lyndon's msn. Was mildly surprised when I saw lyndon's name pop up coz we don't really talk anymore. Then i found out it was Finn over at lyndon's place. *grin* Finn's cool.

Many Many thanks to Shimin who solved the 2 questions I had to hand in today.

And probably eternal gratefulness to Jeremy who has been doing my C-programming homework for me. Let's just hope I dont fail the stupid final eh? *grin*

1. Collapse in bed at 2am, utterly exhausted.

2. Body refuses to cooperate. Toss and turn. Fail to sleep.

3. Switch on the comp at 4am to watch webcast lectures in hope of falling asleep ( like one normally does, in class. )

4. Finally tired enough to head back to bed at 6am.

5. Fall asleep.

6. Got woken up by **insert choice of foul words** at 6.45.. 7am.

7.Toss and turn in bed. Too bright. Fail to sleep.

8. Currently almost 8am. Leaving the house in 90minutes.

9. Disturb at your own risk.

Listening to: Starry Starry Night - Josh Groban

Just got home from the Vienna Boys' Choir concert.

Weellll the concert was alrite. What can I say.. it's a world renowned choir. I expected no less. They did surprise the audience by singing 'chan mali chan' for the encore.. Did a good job with it tho. But then again, that song has been butchered by most primary and secondary schools.. so anything would sound good by comparison. I'm not sounding very coherent aint i? Having problem typing in fact.. Must be the chardonnay. After the concert ( took me 6 times to type this correctly.), uncle sam and I went for dinner. i had chardonnay with my fish. i'm not drunk. no one gets drunk on one miserable glass of wine. but err.. I can't seem to type straight. Uncle sam had that.. thingy.. what's it called? That red one. can't remember. I'm sleepy. But his face was close to mm.. maroon.. after that glass. I asked him if he was gonna fail that breathalyzer or whatever thing.. oh bum. I really shouldnt be posting right now. Cant think straight. I have a headache. been bugging me since the.. err.. what's that break called?.. Inter..mission? intermediate? well.. since midway thru the concert. *Whine* I can't think/type straight! need sleep. yeah. good idea. I'll go sleep.

Which OS are You?




Which File Extension are You?

It's Tuesday morning (technically speaking). I have yet to do my C programming lab and tutorial. I havent got a clue how to do my chemistry report. AND at the rate of my study speed, i'm gonna fail my damn exams.

AM.so.screwed.

Listening to: Unwell - Matchbox20

Let's see. I have the following due next week.
1) C programming tutorial by wednesday (already half done)
2) C programming lab by wednesday as well ( no idea how/what to do)
3) Animal development report on myoD expression in zebrafish.( half done)
4)Chemistry lab report (by friday)

And what am I doing? Blogging. Pfft. And I have yet to reply Lianne's mail. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow. If I can find the time, that is. Don't even know I can spare the time to watch the concert on the 2nd. *mutters to self*

Today's lab was mildly interesting, maybe because it was gross and morbid. We dealt with drosophila larvae for the first part of lab. We were supposed to stain polytene chromosomes found in the salivary glands of the larvae. So.. the first part, naturally, required us to obtain ( or rather.. FIND ) the salivary glands. Not that easy. I put one of those things under the light microscope, looked at it for 2 seconds, looked up and asked,"Which end is the arse man?" Coz honestly, I couldnt quite tell which end was which. Shuqin ( she was sitting on my right ) said to look for weird short protrusions sticking out. So i took another look, and well, both ends had weird short protrusions. I looked at Shuqin, and she was already poking at her worm. I simply HAD to figure out which end was which. So i asked the tutor ( Leon ), who said," DUH. Look at the direction in which the larvae is moving." Right. Except the larva was happily swimming in circles on my slide. It was clockwise, then anti clockwise. and clockwise again. And I thought perhaps the poor thing didnt know which end was which as well. I managed to figure out which was arse and which was head after a lil while. And it's only because it decided to take a crap. Then I impaled it right in the center with one needle. It squirmed and wriggled around alot, so I stuck another needle near the head. And ripped the worm apart. *evil laugh* It stopped moving after a few sporadic twitches. Then i started to tear it into tiny pieces.. attempting to look for the salivary glands. Couldnt find it. I think it got lost with all the intestines in the way. So? rinse and repeat with a new worm. I got the salivary glands I wanted after the 5th worm.

Then we worked on C elegans. Which are really tiny worms. can't be seen unless under the microscope. Was so worried I'd get some in my hair or something. I mean you can't really SEE a worm that is about 100 to 200 cells big.. What we did was.. transfer some worms on molten agar, wait for the agar to become semi-solid, then dump bleach on them. For some reason or other, bleach induces egg laying. I mean.. Hey, whatever works for them.. *laugh* I didnt get to see the eggs though. The worms I had on my slide refused to lay :( BAH.

Aaanyway... it's time for me to get back to my report. Ta ta!

Listening to: God must hate me - simple plan

I'm not sure if I should apologize for not posting for such a long period of time. I don't think any of you are THAT big a fan of this blog *grin*

I have been pretty busy, of course. With nothing in particular. I was supposed to have been at least midway through my zebrafish report thing.. Mmm.. well.. supposed to. I haven't really started. I DID attempt to though.. typed in "zebrafish in situ hybridization" in google search.. just never got around to clicking on the links the search came up with :p I can't remember what it was that distracted me at that point in time, but I'm hoping I'll actually get started on it by this thursday.

I got to school way early today. Which was something totally unexpected. I DID miss the stupid bus again. It happens every single morning without fail. I would be on the other side of the road, waiting to cross.. and my bus would ALWAYS choose to appear at that time. And I would NEVER catch that bus. Then, it would be long wait at the bus-stop for the next bus.. but guess what, the next bus would be too packed for me to get up. so i wait again. I normally get on the third or fourth bus. There was once I got on the FIFTH bus.. ( And that was when I was in a mad rush for the pharmacology test too. Was 15 minutes late for a 30 minute quiz. you can see how bad the situation is ).. Anyway, i digress. yeah. i missed that bus, as usual. then I got to the bus-stop and Heeeeyyy... an empty bus pulls into the bus-stop. must be my lucky day. *mumble* I got to school 30 mins early for class.

Gave Jen her present today ( yeah she finally decided to come for chemistry lecture ) She seemed pleased with it at least. I should have gotten her a golfball. Wonder why I didn't think of that *beams at jen*

Oooo and I got stuck in the lift today.. which was.. erm.. well, i've never been trapped in the lift for such a long time. Was on my way to the comp lab. Took the lift at S15.. only to have it stop somewhere between the 3rd and 4th floor. Was thankful that lights and vent fan were working. This guy was muttering that it was the 2nd time he was stuck in the stupid lift. Another dude was... frantic, to say the least. kept pressing the alarm.. calling ppl here and there.. 2 other girls whipped out their notes and started to study. *rolls eyes* i mean.. PUH-LEASE.. I plopped myself down on the floor.. msged jen and melvin, plugged in my earphones and proceeded to feel bored. We did get out.. after 45 minutes to an hour of waiting. If it was possible to die from boredom, you'd be attending my funeral by now. I can't believe those 2 girls! *snorts*

I protest.. i'm not THAT organized..

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,p>BAH. Princess. How disgusting.

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Listening to:I Hate Everything About You - 3 days grace

What should one do when one cannot deal with the realities of life? Ignore it? Pretend nothing is wrong? Face up to it and fail once more?
Maybe you can come up with a post abt that Jer :)

Caught "sky captain and the world of tomorrow" with Jeremy today. Show was.. alrite.. Isn't the kinda show i would normally catch. But it was alrite. Must apologize to Jer for a rather 'dead' me today. Ooo right, managed to buy Jen's present. Figured I may as well go present hunting today. *beam* I'll pass you the pressies next time i see you.. Dont even know if i'll see you on your Bdae itself.. May be a good idea to pass it to you in advance.

Anyway, the trip to the hospital was, as usual, a waste of time and money. Did another urine test only to find that the blood count per volume of urine has doubled ( as compared to the one taken 2 years ago ).. AND they STILL don't know what's wrong with me. I violently protested to more tests. Kept telling the doctor I felt fine.. Conversation went something like this.
Doc: so is there any pain in your lower back?
Me: no.
Doc: any burning...
me: no. no. no! I dont feel any discomfort. I dont feel any pain. There isnt any apparent kind of symptom of any disease or whatever. And i dont want to do ANY more tests. esp those which involves needles. The blood is just.. there!
Doc: *looks a lil stunned* well.. in that case, we'll give you and open date.. Just come back if any problems surface..

2 years. 2 freaking years and they still cant figure out whats wrong. Jesus.

Listening to: Why does it always rain on me - Travis

I attempted to post something 2 nights ago, only to have it lost in cyber-wilderness. It was a long post too.. *sulks*

Ooo Joel's online. It's been the longest time since I last talked to him. Probably a whole year now. I wonder if any of you actually remember him. My GP tutor from JC year 1. He came to sub for 3 months or so. And he's the coolest ever. Last I heard he had completed his education in Stanford Uni and was back to complete his bond as a national slave (NS). Maybe I'll send him a msg later.

I went off the comp in a fit of fustration.. was irritated.. and mildly miffed.. calmed down somewhat.. no prizes for guessing who ruffled my feathers. But.. on hindsight.. maybe it was a little too.. I don't know. I lose my temper much too easily I guess. I get impatient. Irritated. Paranoid. Suspicious. And a multitude of other emotions that bombard my system. It's like a parasympathetic nervous system overload due to latrotoxin where explosive amounts of acetylcholine is released. The diaphram collapses and death by asphyxiation will result. *reads what I just wrote* Something tells me i've overdone my pharmacology studying today. I really don't know why.. its like.. I dont just feel ONE emotion. Its just one whole MESS. It's either I feel so numb.. so empty.. and so zombified, or everything just floods. It's horrible. It's messy.

Have to make a trip down to NUH tomorrow afternoon.. follow-up appt. Am chugging ice water right now.. will be chugging ice water tomorrow. I dont want them to drag me back time after time coz they keep finding horrifying amounts of blood in my urine ( and they STILL cant figure out what's wrong.) Come on.. its been 2 years already. Am attempting to dilute the rbc/ml of urine somewhat.. *drinks some more*

May be headed to watch a movie with jeremy on tuesday. He'll confirm with me come monday night I think. I think I should try and sleep now.. It's 11.30.. and well.. I don't think it'll be a good idea to be late for tomorrow morning's pharmacology test.

Another one of these weird things. check this out.

http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php ( copy and paste lar. i'm too lazy to make it a link)

You are Orange Koala, who tends to give an impression of being too sensitive and nervous.

But you have thorough insight and can work efficiently.

You are cheerful and very forthright.

Your short temper may cause your advantages to diminish.

When the positive side of you comes out, you will try hard to go beyond the person you do not want to loose against.( have no idea what its trying to say here..)

You are suited to academic and artistic areas, where you can seek your insight.

Your soul never gets old, and you will keep coming up with new ideas.

The occupations you will be good at are those works where you can use your natural sense of creativity.

You may come up with new and innovative idea while relaxing.

This make you suited to jobs concerning planning events or entertaining.

Areas of arts may also bring good luck.

You are precise with money, and do not spend money easily. ( omg.. ya see that?! )

You will save up rather than use it, and although you don't show, you are sensitive with interests between personal relationships.

You don't buy things impulsively. ( this is getting so inaccurate )

Socially, you are very open person.

You seem to be very sociable person, but really you are extremely cautious, and will not easily tell your true feelings.

Balancing this kind of your bilateral character will be your task.

You can fall in love many times, but once married, you will take charge of the household, and control it efficiently.

Mmm quick blog before I run off to school.

'White chicks' was alrite. It had its funny moments.. yet, well.. it wasnt fantastic or anything. rather, it was a lil disappointing. I had found Jeremy's guffaws more amusing than the show for most *laugh* I like going out with Jeremy *beams happily* I feel sooo.. err.. pampered. *bounce* We talked alot about *smirk* melvin. Well, not about him really. Just his name kept on popping up.. then we would end up talking abt him a little bit each time.

Speaking of melvin. He fell asleep before i got home last night. I had to call him numerous times to wake him up *pouts* Then i kept him up and prattled on about how sweet his cousin was *grin*

*yawns* Man.. i feel like going back to bed.. I mean it doesnt really make a diff whether I go to CZ lab.. not like i get anything done there.. *looks longingly at the bed* ah well.. if i go back to sleep, chances are i'll get nightmares again. or 'day-mares' *snort* Been having them the whole morning. so am particularly drained. *sigh* time to head to school.. its gonna be a looooong day...

Mmmm well, Jeremy called and we postphoned the movie to today. *wrinkles nose* I feel really bad for dragging him out all the time. I mean he seems really busy and all. and he literally has to squeeze time out for me. and its not like he'll ever be done watching movies with me.. coz trust me. there are alot of movies that i want to catch.. the list is never ending. he's supposed to call me when he's done in school.. expected to be about 3pm. I feel like dragging him for a drink. I need alcohol in my system. Bad. Need my vodkas.

I think the current problem btwn mel and i.. is that we simply dont want to tell each other stuff anymore. The following conversation says it all:
me: have you settled the visa thing yet?
melvin: filled in the form.
me: filled in the form. duh. so what?.. have you sent it? ( i mean who cares if you've already filled it in.. you can fill it in and have it sitting on your table for years and it'll still be no use.)
melvin: no
Me: are you gonna take one day to fill it then 2 days to send?.. why cant you do it after lunch.. you're free anyway. are you waiting for your hols to be over?
Melvin: i'm not replying. you assume to know what i'm doing. so assume.

See my point? instead of telling me "oh i'l be doing it at whatever time.. ".. he comes up with rubbish like this. Fine dear. you do your stuff whichever way you like. I'll stop caring.

*yawn* i don't know why i've been so.. tired recently. It seems as tho i wake up more tired than before. Then when night falls, I practically collapse into bed. It's not like I've been doing anything exhausting.. In fact.. I haven't headed to the pool or gym for about 3 weeks now. Mainly coz Yewzhen is too busy to keep me company and i hate going alone :(

Looking forward for the movie with Jeremy tomorrow though. ARGh.. right. i still have one program left to do. I told myself i'll try to do this one without bugging jeremy :(

I can't believe Tim is still playing gunbound.. *laugh* its such an old game! am tempted to join him in it coz I dont have anything to play right now.. though i must say, the thought of playing with locals is a huge turn-off. Most of the "gamers" here are such.. noobs. well, i'm a noob too, but i'm a nice noob. unlike -some- i've seen in GB. *snort*

I don't care.. Melvin you must send me the ragnarok cd in december.. save my sanity. please. *gets a little desperate* I can't head back to daoc for obvious reasons so you have to get me another game k? *flutters eyelashes at melvin*

well, or you could get me sims2 *beam*

I think i'm gonna have to cut down on the frequency of my posts.. simply because there isnt anything much to type. I havent really been doing anything.. go to class.. come home.. read my notes and desperately try to understand whats been going on in class.. give up after 10 minutes or so and sit on front of the comp. it happens everyday.. I wonder when i'll learn not to waste that 10 minutes on trying and come on the comp straight.

Having the CZ test tomorrow. If there really is a god and if he is really as merciful as the bible claims he is, he should end my torture and lemme die in my sleep. Though chances are i'll still be alive and kicking tomorrow, cursing and swearing that god is nothing but a myth.

Man i'm exhausted.