I got my wish to look at the ocean. *smile* There wasnt really much peace considering the crowd. And there wasn't anyone to cuddle with. But I was lost for a few minutes.. just looking out. Then we looked at the kites up in the sky.. lots of people flying kites. and we talked about stuff.. mostly about nothing important. Spent one whole hour there. looking out at the ocean. talking. pondering. Then he said something which truely surprised me. Seems like.. he knows me better than I thought he did.

I bumped into someone from secondary school. Whom i've never really talked to.. some junior prefect. She saw me and she was like, "Were you from New town? prefect right?" and i immediately went,"oh my.. " .. For once someone recognized me out of school..

After it got too warm at the beach, we headed to Cine to watch this french show called err.. "the choir". Is a fantastic show! highly recommended. Lead boy's voice was.. *shudders in delight* and there's this lil one called pipetos or something. and he SOooooo adorable, in that lil boy way. Go catch it if ya have the time.

And erm. thanks eugene. Been a wonderful night *beams*

Immuno test was horrible, to say the least. Its going to be one of those "i'll pass but everyone will get 90%" kind of test. I heard some guy only left one question blank. and he only shaded the answers of which he was sure of *snort* So he'll only get 99 out of the hundred questions correct. *gags* What is wrong with all these people? At least I can confidently say I'm normal. I left like 40% blank.

*sigh* I feel like.. I feel like heading to the beach. or the jetty. with a few bottles of vokda cocktails in hand. I want to feel the sea breeze.. without the heat of the day. I want to go alone. or with someone who knows that he has to keep quiet. yeah a guy. makes cuddling more convenient. I dont want to listen to someone chatter away, so he has to be real quiet. I need that feeling again. The peace.. the feeling that its just him. just me. just the open sea. Then i want to fall asleep in his arms...wake up.. and watch as the sun rises.

*reality check* chances are i'll be bled dry by the mosquitoes, be real cranky coz i'm itching from the insect bites and the guy's arm would fall off due to the cut in blood supply to his arm. *snort*

*Sigh* then why does it feel that the beach is what i need right now?

I'm mighty pissed at this point. And it seems like the only dickhead who can piss me off this often is one of melvin's housemates called preetam. For some reason, he insists on heading onto skype and stuff whenever he knows melvin and are talking on it. I mean if they were on cable, i wouldnt care. Thing is, there are 4 ppl sharing a lousy 256k adsl.. and having both on skype at once gets really laggy. I can only hear melvin about 6 or 7 seconds after he speaks. and its not like melvin hasnt spoken to him about this. He didnt do it once. nor twice. countless times.. he's either d/ling or talking to skype. while i do know that he has to speak to his family.. must it really coincide with my talktime with melvin? I swear he does this on purpose. its like, ya know someone will be online. and getting online to talk will not only lag his conversation, but lags yours as well, and you do it anyway.. well, that's why i say he's a dickhead. and melvin and I always fight over this particular moron. simply coz melvin is too "nice" to do anything about it. If only he had put me on skype with preetam. i swear i will yell preetam's ears off. that dickhead.

Which brings me to the pt, Melvin seems to like being trampled all over by his housemate. I've asked time and again. why isnt he doing anything about it? and he can't come up with a good reason. If talking doesnt work, he should just rap that moron on the head. real hard. but Nooooo... he wants to bear with it. *mutters under breath* and all melvin tells me is " get your temper in check". well. I dont see why we have to resort to using msn to talk just coz you have an inconsiderate housemate. I'll talk to you when i "get my temper in check" then. And before i do, I shall not bother calling you or talking to you. after all. you dont want to be on the receiving end of all the abuse now do you?

That doesnt mean I didnt spend the whole damn day wishing you were here. I hate this. I really do.

*burps* excuse me *beams* Had a very.. Mmmm.. satisfying day.

Let's see.. I went for a buffet lunch. Had abalone salad, budhha jump over the wall ( which i didnt think was very impressive), the most wonderful steamed carrot cake, spring rolls and all the deep fried stuff, Yam paste, Sesame paste, Ice cream - strawberry, chocolate, cookies and cream, yam, vanilla and one more flavor which i can't recall at the moment ( yes, i had all six of them. ), ginseng chicken soup, sharksfin dumplings ( which i didnt think was fantastic ), all the dim sum stuff, the regular vegs and whatever dishes they have, prawn salad, tofu salad etc etc etc. and yes, that was lunch alone.

OOooo *bounces* I've got tickets for the one night only performance by the Vienna Boys' choir! *bubbles over with excitement* AND i just -may- get tickets to watch "Mama Mia".. ya know, that ABBA musical thing. It looks good. Then again, I may be getting tickets for the comedy directed by Hung. or Heng. Or somebody like that. Adrian Heng. I think. anyway, show's called "Visit of the tai tai".. that one looks good too. so.. maybe.. just maybe.

Right now, it just feels as though I may throw up anytime. Coz i had err... more to eat for dinner. plus strawberries and mooncakes for dessert. *burps* excuse me.

This is the most inaccurate test i've ever taken. Got the link from jen's blog.
Relationship quiz
eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 3/10
Giver: 10/10

You are a XSIG--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Teddy Bear.

Hee! I just want to give you a big squeeze. You are tender, honest, generous and fair. You are an excellent kisser and a sensitive, communicative lover, and you know it. You would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings or overstep his/her boundaries. You have beautiful eyes.(*snorts* beautiful eyes?.. puh-lease)

Most people take your laid-back attitude, blazing wit ( i do not have blazing wit) and subtle sexiness and stick you in "friend." But some see your extreme hotness for what it is and latch on. This means you have a few members of your target sex in the bank at all times -- I call this "money in the sex bank" -- but you're too sensitive and thoughtful to exploit them. More than once.(well, true. i normally exploit ppl only once.)

You are so rational (melvin would beg to differ) and deliberate in an argument that it can frustrate and exhaust your partner. Your fights can take forever (tell me about it), but you press on with them until they are completely resolved and both you and your partner are satisfied. If your partner is weak of will, s/he may just give in -- be wary of this!(woah mel.. is that a hint for you to not give in too much?) An emotional or passive-aggressive outburst later will hurt and horrify you.

It is *critically important* that you are able to respect your partner. The moment you lose respect for him/her, you lose everything.

When you make friends, you make them for life -- you can go without speaking to a friend for years and pick up right where you left off.( that's a blatant lie. I've nvr been able to do this even tho i've tried) You are completely faithful, both physically and emotionally. You are the second best (to XPIG) parent of any type.

If you are male, you have a huge shlong. Just saying.

Of the 103073 people who have taken this quiz, 8.2 % are this type.

I woke up at 7.30 this morning.. *growl* Why wasnt i informed that the 9am lab was cancelled? I even went there EARLY to photocopy a few things.. only to find the lab empty. I even had to ask the lab tech to make sure.. she was like "oh.. no we dont have lab today. it's next week." great. so i msged meishan to tell her there was no lab. and i gave jen a call as well.. Apparently, meishan was in the canteen rushing the pre-lab assignment *snicker* and well, Jen was in a cab on the way to school. Anyway, i joined Meishan for breakfast and we spent a good hour bitching about the various modules we're taking.

Which leaves me in a lil rut. I'm supposed to have tutorial NEXT friday morning at 9am. Not sure if that is postphoned to the week after or... now i have clashing lab and tutorial slots. AGAIN. *mutters under breath*

Anyway, i finished my plant developmental lab report *bounce* spent like 6 or 7 hours on the dreaded thing. at least its done, yes? Sooo.. now the only thing i have left to do, is to study for the immuno test next saturday *mumble* which can be a problem. I borrowed yewzhen's notes.. *looks at her notes* well.. she.. uh.. really packed the page full of info, i must say. *looks at my notes* I wonder how come my notes are so.. clean. *cough* nevermind.

'Dodgeball' was mmm... nice *grin* Ben Stiller was fantastic. Jeremy was laughing very loudly. *laugh* but yeah.. good show, all in all. Nice guys vs brainless, weird villians.. usual plot. but was good. better than 'harold and kumar' at any rate.

The following conversation took place this afternoon:
Me: Ooooo I haven't taken pictures in one of those booth things in a long time! lets go take one!
Jeremy: Uhhh now? *looks a lil scared*
Me: yep! now.. come on..
Jeremy: Now?! *prepares to run off* But i always look fat in pictures!
Me: *whines* no you won't.. we can look fat together.
Jeremy: *takes a step back and looks positively panicked*
Me: *whines* Pllleeeeeaaaaaasssseee? *tugs on Jer's sleeves*
Jeremy: *mumbles and shuffles into the shop*

MUahahahaha.

i'll keep it for blackmail if need be *evil gleam in eyes*

Well, i finally got to catch 'harold and kumar go to white castle' this afternoon. it was.. lame to say the least. easy on the brain. just laugh at how stupid a show can get. it was lame. I did laugh. All in all a horrible show, but for some weird and unexplainable reason, i enjoyed it.

Lets hope Dodgeball will prove a better show. catching it with Jeremy tomorrow.

Thanks for link Kenneth. Now i know where to get trustworthy movie reviews.

*pause*

brain went dead on me. bah. blog another day.

Melvin wants me to write something nice about him. so here it is: melvin is nice. there. *smirk*

Other than that, i dont really have anything to type. I read the intro lecture notes for immuno today and that was enough to fry my brain cell. so.. Mm.. yeah.

I miss him terribly. even tho i dont say it. or show it much. how do i tell everyone around that waking up is a chore.. and that everytime i see.. couples together it just.. i dont know.. *sniffs* Even tho he tells me everything is gonna be alrite.. *cries* it doesnt feel right when he's so far away! *bursts into tears*

I havent seen him in months. and talking everynight.. just.. isnt enough somehow. *wails* and he wont be back till feb! *bawls* this is all your fault melvin! *grabs a box of tissues*

*blows nose*

its all your fault.. *cries somemore*

Went swimming today. I am now 3 shades darker on my limbs ( as compared to the rest of me ).. *scowl* time to soak in skin lightening lotion. Maybe swimming at noon was not exactly the smartest thing to do.. ah well. as usual, yewzhen did like 10 over laps while i struggled to stay afloat. We talked alot though.. about erm.. hair removing lotions and shavers and wax. plus the usual complaints about the immunology prof. We walked around abit after the swim and she got herself a pair of boots.. *laugh* I nvr knew she was the kind who would like boots..

Anyway. Met melvin's housemate, Mei, at holland v at about 5 coz mel bought me some stuff and she was supposed to pass them to me.. actually we were supposed to meet at 4. she msged to say she would be running late.. so i walked around.. and found this shop having a watch sale! yeah.. saw some -really- nice watches which i was tempted to buy. Didnt get any in the end though.. mainly cause the designs, though nice, weren't.. my kinda thing.

at this point, i figure it would be proper to thank the boyfriend for the mini-baileys ( i'll bring it to one of our lectures maybe, jen *beam* we can have baileys in chem lecture ) and MnMs and Corinthains. Melvin's trying to make me fatter than i already am. *prods tummy and sulks* but yes *beams* thank you dear.

And many thanks to mei as well. For bringing it all the way down. and for enduring a very awkward hour sitting at delifrance. you guys know how i am with ppl i don't know.

Anyway. *sigh* I have stuff to do. so.. blog another time.

Well, i'm in school. with another 2 hours to burn before the Immuno lab starts.. tried to get onto the web-based msn without success.. I suppose i COULD spend the 2 hours reading the lab protocol before going in so i would know what to do later. BAH.. that -was- the original plan. bah.. need someone to have lunch with me. hungry hungry hungry. actually, i havent BEEN anything but hungry lately.. *mumble* shall have to work it off with a swim tomorrow i think. my jeans are getting.. mm.. tight.

Anyway.. *sigh* i better go have a read at the protocol.

Sorry for the 7.30am call, jen. it was an emergency.

*beams happily* the program which jenny helped me write worked *prances around* then again, the one jeremy wrote worked too.. Now i just have to try and understand how they got about doing it.. Prof Nebus said a good way was to throw away the whole thing and try to re-write it.. *snort* yeah right, and what are the chances of me doing that?

Mmmm mmm... next week is term break. Jeremy promised to watch a movie with me. and i'm supposed to catch 'harold and kumar go to white castle' with jenny.. and eugene owes me a day out too.. *perks up* i'll have a fun week no doubt. well, i sure bloody hope so.

I miss Lianne. *pause* Sometimes I wonder why.. coz honestly.. its not like we've been talking or hanging out much for the past 2 years. but yes, i do miss her.

*stares at mug* I.believe.something.landed.in.my.camomile.tea. it's black. it's got wings. and it's swimming in my mug of tea. *stares somemore* *sigh* not my day.

ya know. I have absolutely no idea what to type in today. I feel like blogging, yet at the same time.. there really isnt anything to blog abt.

Was supposed to spend the day reading some of my notes *snort* yeah right. I did read some ( as in one set..).. not as much as I planned. but its a start.

Spent a few hours in this SOC comp lab with Jeremy yesterday while he tried to figure out how to write the programs.. its like he's doing my homework for me. which is bad.. coz i wouldnt know what to do when the exams come. Aaaanyway. he saw Euler's rule or equation thing in the question and he flipped. literally leaned his head against the table and mumbled "i hate math."

He insisted on walking me to the bus stop even though it would mean that he would have to take this long bus route home. I insisted that I was perfectly capable of walking to the bus-stop myself. *shrug* He was more insistant than i was apparently. coz he ended up taking the long bus route home. *laugh* actually it was a "no you dont have to.." , "yes i do".. " no you dont!".. and err "oh well, we're at the bus-stop already." *snicker* It was pretty silly i admit. But he said something about melvin wanting his head if anything should happen to me, or something like that. *looks at melvin* since when did you put him in charge of my safety dear? I'd rather you put him in charge of entertaining me.

I was supposed to head to school today to type out 2 of the progs and to see if they worked.. but i didnt. was too lazy to leave the house. I'll do it on thurs.. considering I end at 2.. speaking of which.. i really should study for the chemistry test. and do the tutorial. oh dear. and its all due on thurs and I'll have no time tomorrow.. GAH.. i'm gonna get started like.. NOW.

go to hell preetam. and stay there. Why should melvin spend my talking time doing things for you? telling melvin 'tell your gf to fuck off'?.. *snort* fuck yourself preetam. damn prick. go rot in hell.

and you, melvin chong. For not standing up for me. i would gladly wave the finger at you. *shrug* i can stand up for myself, since you're not willing to do so for me.

I need someone to take me away..

Who will?

*pause* I think all that Sara Lee chocolate pound cake has caught up with me. I spent last night in NUH.

Started having this really intense pain in my lower abdomen at about 7pm... it lasted all the way till like 10pm.. the clinic i went to refered me to the hospital.. the doctors wanted me to stay for observation.. had a damn needle inserted and was put on a fucking drip. Very annoyed with the drip coz it made me run to the loo to pee like every half an hour.. and i was walking around dragging a metal pole thing with me. stupid drip.

I hate wheelchairs. There was more pain in my back than anywhere else after sitting in it for an hour or 2. in the end i gave up and told them i'd be better off walking.

Of course, the pain wasn't caused by the excess Sara Lee cakes.. and, well.. i'm still alive and kicking. Tho a lil pissed coz I was fucking bored in hospital and there wasn't anyone to accompany me *glares at melvin*.. And very annoyed at my lack of sleep.. stupid drip.

*looks guiltily at empty box of Sara Lee Chocolate Pound Cake*

just this morning, i was telling Fong Kuan that i had polished off half a cake for dinner last night. *cough* well *cringe* I just had lunch.

What's worse?.. ( or better, depending on how you look at it ).. There's a marble pound cake in the fridge too! Aaaand, I have yet to even open it.. maybe i'll have it for dinner tonight. I swear those things are addictive.

*beams* i went to the gym today! AND this time, i strolled on the treadmill for 20 minutes! yewzhen was jogging at the speed of 8.4 i think.. I was strolling at like 5.0.. not sure what the units are.. but those are the numbers shown on the machine.. then we went on those cycling things for 20 mins.. as usual, her speed was like twice mine.. i was whining every minute or so coz my legs were bloody aching.. after 20 minutes of pure torture, we played around with the weight training machines. I'm ashamed to announce that I couldn't lift a thing unless there wasnt ANY weight attached.. you know those machine things whereby you push skyward? you kinda sit.. and there are bars on either side of your shoulders, and you push upwards with your hands? yeah.. those. see, there wasnt any weight attached to it, but try as i might, the thing refused to move *wrinkles nose* I -could- do the one where you pull this bar towards yourself.. i mean, i did it once before i collapsed on the machine... no weight attached too. *sigh* terribly embarassing. Ooooo and we played with this sliding thingy too! you kinda.. err.. slide back and forth. *ponders* nevermind.

After which, I had to rush back, take a quick shower and meet jenny at holland for food *grin*

And for some reason, i'm deliriously pleased coz the weighing machine at the gym showed that my weight was 43.8kg *bounce* of course, considering that i took my weight after all that exercise.. I prolly should add like 1kg for water loss... which means i should be at 44.8.. which means.. I put on 0.3kg *sulk*