*cough* I attempted to start studying for Wednesday's paper.. I finished ONE chapter out of nine if that's any consolation. I mean, SURE it's just the introduction, but I have to warm up to such things, ya know. *flutters eyelashes* Anyway, jenny is out partying today so I didnt have anyone to study with me.. *sniff* but know what, she deserves a break :) That dear friend has been working pretty hard *laugh* compared to how much work she has done during term time, this is like WOAH! jen is studying?.. *laugh* *prod jen* *cough* well, same for me. I have been slacking as much as jen, the only difference now is that i still can't dig up enough energy to study for my papers.

lemme see.. went out for.. erm.. what's the term you use when the meal is kinda between lunch and dinner? It's not exactly tea,.. it was a MEAL. not tea. erm.. Dunch? Linner? *laugh* i don't know! But you get the drift. Anyway, was with lianne at holland village. Went to nydc, had a fab sandwich and dessert. Which, wasn't that great. Hell no desserts seem to taste nice anymore. Esp after having that boney cake at nydc. I didn't order that coz i just had it last week, ya know.. BAH. should've ordered that. Anyways, erm. happy birthday li.. her birthday is tomorrow *grin*
Oh, and we saw this couple walk into nydc.. the sight of the girl caused me to bite my lip by accident. she was in ALL shades of bloody pink! her top was pink, her very low-hanging mini was PINK. her UMBRELLA was PINK. her BAG was PINK. I just choked and msged Lianne (who was sitting right across me) - "PINK ATTACK! thank god her shoes are not pink.." had to do that. i was sure if I had spoken, it would be loud and that PINK creature would hear me. That's not the end of it.. As they talked while waiting for the meal, he was holding her hands across the table. I thought nothing of it in spite of them gazing into each other's eyes.. it was when the food came that it got bad. first, they were blowing freaking kisses across the damn table. the girl blows one, then the guy returns and it just went on and on, until she decided to feed the guy *disgusted snort* i just wanted to throw up. I told Lianne (after we left NYDC) that if i ever lost my mind and behaved like that in public, kindly do the people around me a favour and shoot me.

you know.. I just realized today that you can spend 2 years dating a guy.. yet, at the end of the day, when you think about it, you hardly know the guy at all. *ponder* maybe it's just me, ya know. Lianne and I were talking about Melvin, rather, I was talking about Melvin ( he's basically included in any conversation i make, its -SO- sad).. anyway. yeah. somewhere along the lines, i realized that i don't really know him at all. If you asked me a question like, " what's his favourite.. icecream flavour?" or " what's his.. favourite dessert?" or "what's his favourite hangout?" any of those questions would earn you a "shit. i don't know. ask HIM."

It just happens that things btwn us ain't going on that smoothly recently.. it's not that we've been fighting or anything. just.. certain things that have been brought up. About money. Abt religion. Abt his studies. and so on. it's like, reality hits hard, you know. like WHAM! makes me think about where exactly this relationship is going.. provided the ship doesnt sink. *snort* sorry, that was corny. Anyway.. yeah. *big sigh* so what are the chances of us actually getting married? ( yes yes, i know that is like YEARS down the road but that IS the whole idea of GETTING with a person, ain't it?) the answer to that.. i have no answer. Say if we really got married, he can't get a maid ( I can't do housework, have attempted but burnt my uniforms. I can't cook, i can't even fry an egg.).. he says he just won't be able to afford it *sniff* Then what?! Am I supposed to clean the windows and stuff? And who the hell is gonna cook?.. We can eat out, sure, but i'm willing to bet his mom will object. In fact, once she was kinda hinting that I should learn how to cook. All that conversation about her sister-in-laws not being able to cook but they learnt from her mom. *shudder* Me. cook. I'll prolly burn the kitchen down first. and religion. Melvin will be going back to church one day ( so he says). i avoid church like it is some contagious disease man. he sent me a song today. nice tune. nice acoustics.. then I listened to the lyrics and I gagged. church infected. sorry ppl. no way else to put it. And his studies. *sigh* I have nothing to say. Nothing at all. I don't wanna talk abt that particular topic here. *growl*

*sigh* heavy day.. too much thinking. think I shall go do something that doesn't require brain power now.

*bounce* i installed msn plus! and I LOVE it! *bounce* and currently getting everyone i know to install it too! yay!!

erm.. today's paper was.. horrid. could only write half a page per question.. and its supposed to be a 10 marks essay.. but i think it'll be alrite coz its only a pass/fail..

have lots to do. will blog at another time.. see ya *wave*

*sniff* well, i was telling jenny abt a very "DUH" conversation i had with melvin yesterday.. she suggested that i blog abt it.. err.. so here goes nothing... wait.. i must give u guys the background first. kay.. last week I was studying with Melvin at this library when a strand of hair fell.. I'm not entirely sure why i did what i did., but i passed him that strand of hair. basically i went "nah!" and gave it to him. And i don't know why, but he just chucked it in his pencil box. alrite. so that was LAST week. now, i can tell u what happened yesterday.

I was at Melvin's place and we were supposed to study. Erm.. we were supposed to start after lunch but we got sleepy. erm. we kinda slept through studying time... anyway i practically kicked Melvin off the bed, so we could get some studying done.
Melvin was seaching for this pen and he couldn't find it, i think.. so he poured everything out from his pencil box. then he pulled this strand of hair from the mess of stationery. and this is how the conversation went :
Melvin: know whose hair this is?
Me: erm.. mine?
Melvin: Where did it come from?
Me: my head? *confused blink*

i mean, which was more stupid?.. the question or the answer. He said my answer was stupid.. i think his question was. i mean, he DID ask me where that hair came from despite me telling him it was mine. i merely answered his silly question. *wrinkles nose* so it's not my fault that the answer sounded silly. what was i supposed to say?.. "the library?" now THAT would be freaky. i'm imagining hairy books.

hmm.. *cough* i was bored so i went to
quizilla and did a few tests.. *frown* it says i have the perfect boyfriend *looks at test result pasted below* *snort* erm. sorry. *laugh* no comment. for the sake of my own health, i absolutely REFUSE to say anything for i will end up either offending Lianne or Melvin. NO comment. And i can see a few of u smirking at the results of the 2nd test.. the one abt the rose. I'm supposed to have a "strong moral code".. ROFL.. moral codes are.. subjected to changes. *flutters eyelashes* don't you think so? rofl..

Perfect Boyfriend,
Your boyfriend is someone who doesn't talk that
much. But he does care alot about you. He thinks
that you are the most important to him no matter how unreasonable
you are. Even though you think that he's not
good enough for you,he's a good guy and really nice to you. He
loves to tease you sometimes! you have the perfect
boyfriend! Please vote!:p


What kind of boyfriend will you have!? (4 Galz only!)
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Your soul is bound to the White Rose: The
Pure.

"I've been waiting in the dark for a long
time, shining my beacon of hope through the
shadow. If you see me, don't you hide your
eyes from me."

The White Rose is associated with purity, honor,
and chastity. It is governed by the goddess
Artemis and its sign is The Cross, or Agape.

As a White Rose, you are a person of your word.
You may have a strong moral code, but
regardless of your virtue, you always stay true
to yourself. To you, love is the most pure of
emotional forms and it's just a matter of
waiting for it to bless you. Some people may
say you are too idealistic, but it's only
because you don't want to mess things up.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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i'm supposed to be studying for the next paper. I can't.. concentrate. don't know what is wrong. I just want to stone. where is melvin.. where is lianne.. where is everyone?... I need ppl around me.. why am i alone?...

just came back from my cell bio exam. summarized by one word," horrible". Nearly got knocked down by a bike this morn. The poor guy stopped just in time. We kinda just stared at each other and I was feeling sorry for giving him such a shock.. ( i WAS jay walking) so i apologized and crossed the road. NOW i'm thinking, " why the hell didnt i DIE in that near-accident?.. then maybe at least I wouldn't have needed to take that damn paper..."

You are a lipid. You know whom you like and whom
you hate, and you like hanging out with people
who think like you do. People who disagree with
you annoy you to no end. You either love
Abercrombie and Fitch or you despise it, but
there's no middle ground. You're polar.


Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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i'm screwed. i'm so screwed. damn chem. i'm dead.

*moan* this is soooo stupid. I have an exam paper tomorrow afternoon. And what did i just do?.. drink. so much so that i keep on making typos.. URGH. I had to type the word "tomorrow" like.. 4 times.. at least i'm not drunk. so that's alrite.. *grin*

the sad thing is, i didn't PLAN on drinking.. had dinner at the vietnamese place with alphonsus and Jenny.. then we went to NYDC for dessert.. then I mentioned something abt vodka. Alphonsus immediately perked up.. *laugh* so we went to drink a lil. He finished off a whole jug of beer (minus a glass.. I stole some from him)... they were having a happy hour special.. and we had free chicken wings.. which was really nice *beaM* His face was like RED,... think monkey's ass.. lol.. Alphonsus is SUCH a nice guy *grin* many thanks to jenny for intro-ing. AS it is.. I only had ONE drink. called "zombie".. it was very sweet. v nice.. the name very misleading.. *laugh* erm.. i'm SLEEPY.. think i shall go fall on thebed.. nitez..

had another tedious study session.. Jenny just left about half an hour ago.. This time we managed to do 2 exam papers.. took us like 6 hours though. NOT pretty. But at least we managed to dig out stuff which we don't know. AM going to bug Ms Teh again on friday ( the day before the damn paper no doubt) But at least we managed to do some more stuff. right?

I've been spending too much time on chemistry.. Am falling behind for other subjects.. think I shall attempt my cell bio tomorrow. I'm meeting Melvin tomorrow. And have come to realize that the only thing i can study when i'm with him is Cell bio. Don't know why. It's weird. I can only do chemistry with jenny. Not only coz we are taking the same module. But I can't seem to study any other subject when i'm out with jenny. It's WEIRD.

right now my brain feels numb.. even as i type.. My fingers seem to be moving of their own accord.. its truely weird. Oh.. lol.. did i mention i abandoned jenny at the bus-stop? It's not very nice of me.. true. I had no choice tho. *laugh* i was.. terrified! see.. i am absolutely terrified of flying insects. I don't like insects in general. but its the FLYING ones that make me literally run in the opposite direction.. There happened to be a few big flying things at the bus-stop.. i made myself stay.. for like 5 or 10 minutes.. then this big black buzzing thing flew reaaally close.. at that pt, i kinda.. well.. fled. lol.. but i DID call jenny to make sure she actually reached home in one piece..

*rubs eyes* Jenny came over and we studied. From three to.. well.. nine thirty. The session was long.. yes.. but I can't say that I've actually managed to learn anything.. sad.. *sigh* right now i'm just too tired to really post.. so erm.. another day then..

Oh yes.. a million thanks to tim.. He has been msging me everyday to give encouragement *grin* And he's been there to talk whenever i need to. *holds drink up in salute* thanks tim. For understanding what I need at this pt in time.

that flu medication is scary. I fell asleep after posting yesterday and i didn't get out of bed till like 6pm.. Had those dream-within-a-dream-within-a-dream shit yesterday again. I keep on waking up, then feeling SO tired and groggy that i conk out again.. almost comatose If u ask me. I finally decided I enough of those dreams and told myself to roll off the bed so i can REALLY wake up. U have no idea how many times i "rolled off the bed" before I left the bed for REAL. and after i woke up for real, i lay on the floor for a few minutes to confirm that i've returned to reality. then i practically crawled up using the bed for support.. then i fell back onto the bed and well.. woke up again at 6.

*mutter* it's SO not my day. I woke sneezing. Took that to be a bad sign and went to take flu tablets. So that's the end of my attempts to study today..how can I study when I'm sneezing every three seconds and I'm buried under a mountain of tissues? Then I decided to fix myself a cup of tea. THAT was an adventure in itself. I opened the tin of tea leaves only to find small crawly things from the Insecta family all over my precious leaves.. or was it Insecta class? whatever. anyway, I kinda held onto the tea tin, shocked and for some weird reason, i tried to count the number of tiny critters there. I lost count at 10. At this point I would like to add ( in my defense) that it was early morning and my brain wasn't funtioning at its usual capacity (- though I reckon even if my brain WAS functioning at its full capacity, things will still be the same). It was really really bad timing that a sneeze decided to come and visit. Before my flu-tablet-induced-mind could react, I sneezed and dropped the tin, spilling the leaves and the insects all over the floor. Then the first thought I had was to kill the insects. I looked at the kettle of hot water and went, "kill them!!" so I poured water over the floor. *wince* okay.. That wasn't very smart, I admit. But I WAS panicking. And I figured not all of them would drown so I went hunting for an insect.. erm.. killing thing. What do you call those?.. oh right, Insecticides. I doused the kitchen with insecticide before I was satisfied that, with exception of myself, every single living thing in there was sufficiently dead.

As it is, I'm too sick to clean up *halo suddenly blinks above head* so I'll treat an ice cream to whoever cleans up the mess. Bah. I'm gonna go try to sleep. Hopefully when I wake up, there will a nice steaming cup of tea waiting for me ( NOT made from the insecticide-treated tea leaves though).

I had my last lecture of the semester this morning. It was.. well.. *cough* lets say I would never forget that lecture.. Prof Teo came in and said that he would only lecture for an hour. And that he was not feeling well because of the flu. So we went through the lecture as usual. And I was actually writing stuff down for once. It IS the last lecture after all. Then he said he was really tired and said something about there being only a few slides left. Then I looked up only to see Prof Teo collapse against the table. His head just went forward and landed on the monitor screen thing. I think everyone just froze there for a second or two before people started rushing to him to help him lie down.. you know...first aid and all. Then a few people started calling for an ambulance..and the security personnel was alerted too.. He regained consiousness in a few minutes though. And after laying on the floor for awhile, he was feeling well enough to stand up once more. He just stood up, took the mike and said, " Good luck for your exams" man.. for a second I thought he was nuts enough to want to continue the lecture for the last few slides. The whole lecture hall of students just cheered. *shrug*

and there I was thinking about all the calls for ambulances.. I mean, NUH is just next door.. I heard at least 2 students say they've called for an ambulance.. then the security guard called too.. *laugh* guess they would have to call again to say there was no need after all.

You are *NOT* funny, you think you are, but you are
not. You are the person who sits next to
somebody on a long bus or plane rides telling
anectdotes and stories that are interesting
only to you. People find ways to avoid being
trapped with you while you tell stories and
jokes, and you don't even notice. Stop trying
to be funny, you just aren't. Not everyone can
be the comedian. Not everyone can be the clown.
You are neither. Your humor isn't happening.
Move on.


How funny are you?
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Uh-oh - you are "Stop blowing holes in my
ship!" You're a little bit edgy,
honestly, and it's getting in the way of your
natural charm. We understand that life can be
hard, but take a deep breath and have a drink.
Relax.


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I'm sure it's no big surprise to you that your
romance is The Princess Bride. A heartwarming
tale of "Twue Wuve" that has giants,
Spainards and swashbuckling. You really do
think that love can overcome anything. You may
be a touch naive but your heart is certainly in
the right place. You've probably got one of
those relationships where proper nouns have
been replaced with "Snookums" and
"Pookie Pie". Eww. Beware a cuteness
overload.


What Romance Movie Best Represents Your Love Life?
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tried to get started on the cabbage soup diet.. erm.. tried. see.. i was fine abt the cabbage soup.. erm.. *looks guiltily at half eaten chocolate bar*

It must be the exams that are getting to me.. for some reason.. I just don't feel like doing anything.. Even games don't capture my attention like they used to. I don't even FEEL like playing. And for those who know me, its NOT normal. Then again, I don't feel like studying either. I just want to lie down.. yet i'm afraid of falling asleep.. coz of my nightmares. Coz each time i try to wake up, it is a struggle. because each time i think i've woken up, i'm in another dream. and i struggle.. literally struggle to wake up. and when i finally DO return to reality, I'm so drained by my struggles I fall back into slumber, and the cycle repeats itself. It's scary.. it's scary because in my dreams, I will either have my eyes glued shut and i'll be struggling to open them.. or i'll be trying to move coz i'm stuck in a really uncomfortable position.. the worse.. is not being able to breathe.

i fell asleep while studying today. and i woke up drenched in pesperation. It's been happening each time i sleep. every time, i wake up drained.. i don't want to sleep. i'm afraid of my nightmares. i'm afraid i'll be stuck in one nightmare after another, unable to wake up for real. i'm afraid.

*sigh* I blame this on fongky.. *grins at fong* all her fault. Actually.. what she said in her blog makes sense,.. what are we all working for anyway? For a damn piece of paper. Yet its importance can't be emphasized upon enough. It's my ticket to the working world.. well.. not only MY ticket considering the number of undergrads there are.. anyhow. it's sad ain't it? It's a material world out there and you guys know it. Soon, degrees won't be worth a thing. Even now, look at the unemployment rate of degree holders. It's horrendous! I wonder why the focus is on the umemployment rate of degree holders.. what about the diploma holders? Are they better off so there is no need for the focus? or maybe it's like what Lianne complains about half the time," The government doesn't care about the poly people." beats me. and i'm getting sick of the topic. It scares me.. knowing I'll have to work one day and that I don't have a job guranteed.

I tried to study for chemistry today. It took alot of phone calls and encouragement from people around.. but i managed to polish off 4 chapters. yay! *laugh* Tim promised me a dinner if i pass well enough. Not sure what the "well enough" bit really means.. prolly around a 3.0 average. *grin* well, even if i can't get 3.0, I'll whine for a treat coz i passed. If I fail.. well,.. i can always.. *snicker* whine for consolation ice-cream. *laugh* Poor Tim. He really has NO idea what he's gotten himself into.

and eugene owes me ice-cream too. yay!

bah. I'm waiting for exams to be over.. then maybe I'll go shopping for a swimsuit. Need to burn calories. I'm getting.. well.. *sniff* tubby. or as my stick-boy melvin ( aka dickhead chong) puts it," Choo-bi". *laugh* oh dear. He IS gonna scream at me for putting his nicknames up like that. Well, his camp mates call him dickhead chong. I call him stick-boy, which is a compliment. I could have went with "toothpick-kid"... *cough* nevermind.

*sigh* I end every single day with a headache. Think I shall go.. sleep.. Joel isn't online anyway.. No point waiting for him.. I wish he was online.. he is one of the few people I actually want to talk to online. He has seen me through lots of shit.. ya know. Maybe coz chances of me seeing Joel again is like.. very very low.. so I can just tell him stuff. anything and everything. One thing I can't stand about Joel is that he doesn't seem to have the word "romance" in his vocabulary. But other than that, he's cool :) He's the only guy I know who complains he's fat. but he's cool *sparkle* i wish he was online..

the test was... well,.. horrid. i walked out in half an hour coz i didnt understand a damn question. well.. i saw some familiar terms at least.. so its an improvement eh? *grin* anyhow, i'm banning myself from games till after the exams. as it is, i haven't play gunbound since.. er.. last night *grin* i just printed some chem stuff so i figured i would blog for abit before i go finish up chapter 8 for chem.

am meeting ruby tomorrow for the stats proj. chances are, we'll meet for a few mins only.. lol.. considering that i really have no idea what to do for the proj *sigh* but we'll see.. we'll see..

watched "identity" today. it was cool.. rather cool :) Melvin ( that CHICKEN) was squirming and cowering beside me. CHICKEN. sure i was squirming too.. but hey.. i prolly watched more of the show than he did. *laugh* there was once he was telling me," watch it.. dont keep hiding behind the jacket.." so i did. made myself go thru this whole gruesome bit.. then next thing i know, i hear a muffled voice asking," what did they find? what did they find?" that idiot. told me to watch that scene when he himself was cowering like.. like a damn..whats that term?.. FAG? ~gee.

I msged eugene today and got a v "christian" reply. honestly eugene. dont msg me church-infected phrases. please. and dont quote the bible. please. it just gives me the heebie-jeebies. Poor eugene got yelled at for that "palsm something something states that blah blah" reply. like *gives the sky the middle finger* you get my drift.

*frown* i have a test tomorrow, which i haven't studied for. this is bad. there are like.. err.. 10 or 12 topics and subtopics i think. this is bad. plus another test on tues and the damn stats proj due on tues too. which my grp hasnt started on. i mean, i keep on msging ruby to ask her when the hell she wants to meet up and do the damn thing but i never get a positive reply. i dont even understand the damn question. damnit. *curse*

hmm.. i made myself study a little today.. an accomplishment! yay! lol.. wonder when jen is free for another study session. i would suggest coming saturday but i think she would be busy ;) we were studying on friday. and well, we managed to do a little each. which is not bad.. we sat and studied for 4 hours k.. its pretty cool :)

CONGRATS to Lianne for getting 1560 for her SATS!! Woot! u go girl!

the BIG question is. why do i always get the losers? why is that i have annoying guys who just dont get the hint that i dont wanna talk to losers like them? *growl* this MORON called me 3 times today. and normally, i'm alert enough to recognize the number so i don't answer ( see.. he calls me THAT often.. that i even recognize the damn number.. ).. i dont have his number stored. why shld i? not like i would call him or anything. its been more than a year. he still doesnt get the hint. It was unfortunate that i was distacted today, so much so that i answered all calls without looking at the number. three times. once in school. which i went," err.. busy. talk to u another time." another time on my way to Melvin's place, he said hi and i was like, " i'm out. can i talk to u another time?" and jsut now on my way back? AGAIN. only he asked if i was free to talk. so i said," no. i'm very busy. i have work to do unlike someone who's free enough to call me three times in less than 12 hours." you would think he got the hint. but Noooooo, he went," i'll call u tomorrow then." i just hung up and growled at no one in particular.

so the question is, WHY ME?. at least get me some guys with STANDARD rite? i mean, do i look like a loser to u? why do i GET morons like them? WHY?

great. Yongjia intro-ed a new game to me. just great. lol.. go see.. its free.. and there is a 100mb download involved. but the game's so cute its worth it. Called Gunbound, its one of the cutest games around. Its not the usual game i would play. but it IS cute.. lol.. enuff said. i'm gonna watch the download bar move.

am just so BLEH! today. skipped class again. this time coz the damn printer screwed up and i dont have notes anyway. and coz i'm just in a really bad bad mood. i should get studying. but i cant. i have to get out of here. i'm freaking broke. i need a verbal punching bag.

damn daniel for bothering me so. i'm so pissed at him i would slap him if he was in front of me. Which word in the phrase,"no way" does he not understand?. no daniel. i DONT LIKE you. i DONT WANNA be ur girl. i'm feaking attached and i'm freaking SICK of you. i DONT CARE if u say u love me. just leave me ALONE.

erm.. went to visit melvin last night. Stayed there for a whole half an hour before he got discharged. *mutter* after which his parents came to pick him/us.. up. we went to visit his grandpa.. erm.. then dinner at this.. place near his grandpa's house. his grandpa had one of those really really old houses.. which was really nice.. with a back door and all.. i thought that was really.. well.. cool. Come on.. i've never stayed in a house with a back door before *grin*

anyhow.. *yawn* i'm supposed to study a little bit today.. urgh.. need company. actually, i wanted to go shopping for shoes today.. but no one is free to accompany me *sulk* guess i'll have to wait till the weekend. i mean, melvin is free now that he had mc till what,.. nov. but still. i just met him yesterday.. figured we really shldnt go out THAT much. we tend to drive each other up the wall.

*yawn* bleh. i need to go wash my hair. blog another day.

Melvin's in hospital again. think i will go visit later if he has to stay another night. which means,.. he'll have a chest tube stuck in him *wince*

anyhow, i watched that forbidden city - portrait of an empress on central last night. it was nice *grin* there is this particular song that i love so much.. looking for it now..hope i find it..

hey hey! my tests results weren't as bad as i expected.. i actually passed that horrid lsm2103 one!! like i thought i would only score 2/32..anyway, i passed. barely. but the avg is like 50 - 59% so a pass is actually avg!.. *laugh* then i passed my stats too.. the score was weird.. coz it wasn't upon 40. it was upon 39.. but percentage wise i got abt 70. yay! surprise surprise! and i got a B for the pharm test. but no diff.. coz i'm taking S/U for that module. SO regret it now.. *sigh*

bumped into ck today near the canteen.. *prod ck* he didnt even notice i was standing there.. too busy talking to shimin eh ck? lol.. nah. i was practising how to blend into the background today ( in other words, i was keeping relatively quiet..).. anyhow, i just couldn't stop staring at ck. his skin was.. well.. SMOOTH! and he had a nice rosy blush too. enough to make any girl jealous. really ck. what happened to all the zits? i swear ur skin didnt look baby smooth the last time i saw u. *jealous* share ck. tell me how u got ur skin to behave.

finally went for haircut today.. was sorely tempted to perm it.. *sigh* that would have cost me like.. $150.. *sigh* so i just went for a wash and cut. weeell, my hair is extra clean now. and extra straight due to the blow-dry.. *cough* chances are, it'll get all out of shape by the time i get out bed tomorrow morning. *mutter*

i am having trouble with the printer again.. for some reason, it refuses to print. and whacking it didnt work.. *sigh*

mosquites seem to like me alot. i keep on getting bitten by those damn pests. have 2 on my left arms, 4 on my left leg, a few on the right side.. *sigh* why me?!

am.. decidedly subdued today.. *blink* think i shall go.. sleep now

i'm done with my lsm2104 project!! yay!! after 2 nights of practically NOT sleeping...

its a month to exams. i should be studying. eek. cant find old exam papers. damn it. *mutter* need stats questions!! where am i to get those?!

i miss my brother. In fact i kinda miss the whole family. gah!.. i hate it when i feel this way. no way in hell am i going back. no way!

you would notice my paras and sentences are really really short.. i have no idea why. prolly coz i don't feel up to any describing at all..

i absolutely cant stand that chem lecturer. *scowl* he leans like he has no backbone. u know that there is this table thing where the OHP is and the comp and stuff are.. this table in front of the lecture hall? its not a lecturn.. its a table. anyway. throughout.. *scream* INSECT!! wait wait!! ITS A ROACH!! *runs out of room*

*cheers* ha.. thanks to my roach-slaying hero.. *laugh* who happens to be female.

where was i before that untimely interruption? oh yeah. that dumb-ass spineless lecturer. he absolutely has to lean on the damn table. throughout the lecture, he would have at least ONE elbow on the damn thing as he leans forward and read from the moniter. The sidw view would be one of his butt jutting out. sure he would gesture once in a while, but in less than 10 secs, the elbow will be back on the table and he'll be leaning on the furniture again. doesnt that moron know its damn rude to lecture for 2 hours and be leaning on the table like some spineless nincompoop? *mutter* plus the fact that he obviously doesnt care for the lecturing. his attitude is like," i'm just here to drone on.. it doesnt really matter if u guys get it or not." bloody spineless prick. plus the fact that for the 2nd chem test, we were penalised for a mistake HE made. like he typed in a wrong value, so we used that value he gave. And after the test, it was announced that the wrong value was given.. but we were penalised anyway coz we didnt notice that it was obviously the wrong value. what the f***.. are we supposed to memorize every Ka value coz we cant trust our lecturer to type in the right value? bloody spineless prick.

hmmm.. i got flowers today *sparkle* white roses. my favourite. *beam* happy.. extremely. wonder whats the occasion though. i asked melvin what was so special abt today and he went," you mean u cant remember?!" then i panicked.. lol.. well, apparently he just kinda bought that nice bouquet coz he saw a florist and he just walked in to buy. so sweet of him *grin*

the lsm2104 proj is killing me. i just spent 3 hours on the damn thing and i've done only one tenth. i'm DEAD. it's due on tues. i'm dead.

*mutter* YJ msged me at midnight to say his birthday was yesterday. *mutter* so i forgot his birthday. i mean, its been what YEARS since i last needed to remember 9th oct as an "important" day. ANd my brain can only store THAT much, u know. anyhow, i somehow ended up feeling guilty. GUILTY. why the hell would i feel guilty? maybe it was what he said.. maybe coz he remembers mine *wince* i hate it when that happens ya know.. ppl remember mine and i forget theirs.. so i had to call to apologize for forgetting. *wrinkles nose* poor guy's sick on his birthday. *whine* Ooooo... i hate feeling guilty. and he's remembered everything i've more or less forgotten.. Ooo... *sulk* is it my fault i cant remember where he lives.. or that i lost his house phone number? its been years! and if he chooses to remember, its not my problem rite?.. rite?like i said, there are only that many megabytes my brain has. Li help me stop feeling guilty! please?

i'm meeting melvin later.. actually, i'm just kinda waiting for him to call.. dont know.. i'm really really tired.. didnt sleep till like 3 or 4.. and its now.. 8.30.. *collapses on chair* and i have so much to do!.. if only i can convince myself that i really need to do my proj.. like now.. coz its due on tue.. oh dear.. *sigh* i have a bad feeling abt that proj really.. have i mentioned i scored 28% for the last chem test? *cough* sigh.. anyhow, hafta dash. see ya

*yawn* i'm still alive. my brain is dead today. had to drink coffee to stay awake during lecture. i'm going to sleep now. hopefully i wake up in time for aerobics

have i mentioned that i joined friendster? that was after much cajolling by lianne.. *grin* and err.. well.. it was fun for the first few days.. then it got boring. first off, i'm not mailing anyone in friendster. there are guys.. true.. who mail me and request to be added to my "friend's" list. but.. *cough* none of them were.. interesting. so i ended up not replying to anyone. but at least i managed to find some "long lost" contacts.. which will remain lost coz we dont talk to each other anyway. whats the pt of friendster? beats me. sure doesnt work for me. The only "interesting" lost contact i found was Yongjia *wince* aka my ex.. err.. ex-many-times before. he was me first boyfriend. what i think of him now, only ppl like lianne and Jen know *laugh* i'm not gonna say anything here. well, YJ and i have been talking online the past few days .. nothing much.. we just spend an hour or so complaining abt how bored we were. we have absolutely nothing in common except for the fact that we are great whiners.

k.. *sigh* i tried to do the lsm2104 project just now. i was 3/4 thru when i realized that i didnt know how to do the last bit coz i missed it when i left the lab early last.. tuesday (i was sick, remember?) yeah. anyhow, it means i would have to restartthe whole thing. coz i cant stop halfway like that. i'll lose track of which part of the gene sequence i'm doing. bleh. 3 hours of effort went down the drain.

oh. i made jelly today! lol.. wasnt TOO bad.. at least it was edible.

the test yesterday was horrible. only could do 2 out of 32 mcqs. i spent 2 weeks studying for that. i'm not gonna say more. only depresses me.

somehow, i got started on neopets again. *grimace* blame it on Lianne. Melvin disapproves. *snort* like i care if he disapproves me playing neopets. (btw, he DARED me to put the previous sentence up on my blog when i told him i didnt care abt what he thought. *sticks tongue out*

was studying with Lianne and Jen. it was.. err.. fun. well, i managed to finish the stats review paper in one afternoon *pats self on the back* then today Lianne and i went to Harbourfront to study.. i spent like 2 whole hours compiling the formula sheet for tomorrow's stats test. lets hope the damn thing would be of some use. then.. i read thru my pharm notes.. dont think i've learnt anything. at least i know what a H2 receptor antagonist does.. its err... err.. for.. errr.. peptic ulcers. pervents the.. erm.. histamine from activating the acid secreting cells in the stomach. yay!! ( at least, i THINK it does) well, this morning all i knew was paracetamol and aspirin. its an improvement k.

oh right. before i forget. i HAVE to thank melvin for studying with me over the phone last night. he had to endure me reading my notes out to him. the hypertension medication chapter. he was bored to death, but he listened and it worked. i still remember the contents of the notes. mroe or less. its an achievement, so thanks a huge bunch!

and i found tim's cushion. it says "cutie pie" and its nice and furry. i'm tempted to buy it for tim. after all, i promised to buy him a cushion.. its been.. 3 years and that promise has yet to be fulfilled. it was a sale. prolly still will be next week. i AM tempted. JEN!! wanna share tim's pressie? we can buy it first then chuck it somewhere then give him for his birthday next july. its on sale!! like half price.

*groan* now i have a headache on top of the flu. Cant study, cant do anything really.. i went to school to meet ruby.. was sneezing and i proceeded to bury myself under a mountain of tissues while she tried rather unsucessfully to coach me. Then i had to leave my lab halfway coz i really couldnt take it.. then i fell asleep and woke up with a headache and not feeling any better. i tried to read my notes but the pounding in my head defeated me. maybe i'll meet Guozhong tomorrow.. he's like my new-found "person to cling onto" during class. i call him to scream for help all the time now *laugh* *groan* headache. *buries face in pillow*

i have another doctor's appt tomorrow.. not for the hammerworks in my head, but its kinda like follow up for the urography thing. another 50odd bucks to fly out the window. Please ppl. dont ask me out to spend money eh? my doctor's fees are like, skyhigh.

damn, got the flu. i'm sneezing my nose off, i look like rudolph and i feel like spiders have been spinning webs in my head. in other words, i feel like crap. not that i truely know how it feels like being crap, but i may just relate considering the state i'm in. i wish i didnt have to go to school. dont wanna leave the bed. but i have to meet ruby. prolly not a good idea coz i may just pass some cooties to her, but i'm desperate for help in stats.

Thing is, ppl say they lose their appe.. how do u spell that?. appetites? yeah, when they get flu-like syndroms, they dont feel like eating. but when I do, i get extra hungry. since this morn,i've had.. well, 1/4 of the 250g fruit and nut cadbury family bar. i finished half of that big bar last nite. chances are, i'll finish the whole thing before i leave to meet ruby. and i had chocolate milk. and somehow, i managed to find bahkwa. which i polished off too. and i'm having chips as i type here.*sniff* feel SICK.

am going to holland village to study with jenny. have to leave in.. abt half an hour i think. lets hope i get some real studying done.. *sigh*

for some reason, ive fallen in love with David Gates'- "Cant play the songs". its a nice old song that bored the hell out of me when i first listened. but after playing the song a few times, i cant stop playing that damn song. the title should be " cant stop playing the song" instead. *mutter* but its a nice song. v sappy. a lil gush worthy. and something different from the Vienna boys choir. And "the Carpenters" have wriggled their way into my playlist lately. much to the dismay of a few ppl i know *laugh*

I just did my accounts. if i spend less than 200 per month, i can survive thru december. And hopefully by then, another paycheck would come in and i'll be able to last for another few months. I was thinking of going for a perm.. like, waves. since my hair is.. well, not really straight and.. had minimal waves, i figured i may as well help my hair by giving it a proper wave perm. Then i looked at my hair and decided it looked too frail to survive the attempt. *sigh* then i thought maybe i could just go for hair treatment ( so says the girl who is trying to survive on 200 bucks a month), then i heard from Shumin that SHE went for hair treatment. and her hair reverted to its usual hay-like self in 3 days. not that i think she has hay-like hair. i'm only quoting her. if she thinks her hair is hay-like, she obviously hasnt taken a good look at mine. Speaking of which, i prolly should start using the hair mask lianne gave me for my birthday. *sulk* i'm trying to save the good stuff u know. like use when i'm desperate. and i'm feeling pretty desperate. now. *grin* but if i choose to use the hair mask now, i will be late and Jenny wont be pleased.

am not attending any classes today at any rate. too much to study for. *sheepish grin* actually, i was too lazy to get out of bed for my 8am class, then i figured i would not go for class today so i can study got the lsm2103 test which is on thursday. i dragged myself out of bed at abt 10.. msged shimin to say i was staying in. then soon after i got a msg from jenny that she wont be going for class either *bah* so we decided to go study together. Am meeting ruby tomorrow to go thru stats. i desperately need help. so we will have to squeeze in ten chapters tomorrow in.. 1.5 hours. not fifteen. one and a half hours to do ten chapters. i cannot manage stats on my own.. i just need ruby to go thru the lecture notes and explain slide by slide then i will go practice some questions either from the textbook or the review qns prof ali uploaded for us. the review qns are prolly not enough. but i'm pressed for time. which begs the question of : " if i'm so pressed for time, why am i typing so much?" *cough* i should run now. before jen calls and yells.

cant get back to studying.. this is bad.. didnt study yesterday.. or today.. well, i did only half a chapter today in the morn.. but it doesnt really count, ya know. *sigh* gimme motivation damnit!

was out with tim and eugene and jenny just now to watch "28 days". It's a "resident evil" rip off but its alrite. i saw tim covering his eyes so i nudged him, and laughed my head off, then i told jen that tim was a real coward. sure i was covering my eyes too.. but hell, i'm a girl ya know. so if i'm chicken, it's not that bad.. but tim! *laugh* Jen was saying, " Tim, u're a guy, ACT like one." in less than half an hour later, i looked at tim for further entertainment.. and sure enough *smirk* his ears were covered.. *hysterical laughter*

*whine* woozy. i so regret grabbing a drink or 2 on my way back. like melvin was well.. *sulk* anyway, long story. anyway, i stopped somewhere on my way back here to grab a few coz i wasnt in a good mood. not that drinking improves my mood. but its the least painful thing to do compared to a few other options.

my chem test is screwed. its screwed so bad it cant be screwed furthur. i'll be lucky if i pass. i think i shall send hate mail to the professor.

i typed 3 paras only to have the bloody thing freeze and i have to retype.. lets see.. right. i found out yesterday that i have another test on the 4th of oct (same day as teh stats test).. the pharm module. *mutter* there is a pharm test on the 4th. *whine* why me? i went on an all study frenzy this morning. i sat down and studied for abt 4 or 5 hours straight and i only stopped coz i was starting to feel really sick and giddy.. then after that, i lost my momentum and went on a binge.

In a span of less then 12 hours, i've eaten one bowl of pasta, FOUR bowls of laksa ( which i kept on going out to buy), one whole box of chocolate covered butter melts.. ( butter cookies really.. but chocolate covered).. One cookie = one serving and each cookie has an estimated 4 grams of fat and i kinda lost count at my tenth cookie. before i knew it, the whole box was empty. and i had.. err.. well, there is a half eaten slice of pizza on the table. i'm trying to tell myself not to finish it. *scream* i blame the 4 bowls on laksa on the fact that i've been having a stupendous craving for the past few days yet i was unable to satisfy it. *whine* what am i to do? i'm bloated.. yet i'm unsatisfied and i still cant help but eat.. *cry* i'm gonna be FAT!

Something in my comp has screwed up. i cant access the ivle. it says invalid password/username/domain. like i log in everyday and there is no problem. why TODAY? i need notes for tomorrow's class damnit. *curse*

Dont think i will be blogging for awhile now.. at least for the next week.. too much stuff.. with projs and lots of tests =( weeeell... *cough* time to go try and understand whats been going on in my chem class.. the test IS on coming monday.. *sigh* see ya guys

stats class starts in an hour... *sigh* and i'm suddenly piled with work. too much. too much.. too much work..

dont feel too good today.. no,.. i'm not sick.. just feeling.. empty. dont know why. at times, i just feel this.. helplessness. this void. this "fuck-it-and-let-me-die" feeling. *sigh* And since i'm not the kind that use vulgarities much.. well.. *sigh* no other words to describe it. fuck it and let me die. *mutter* hmm.. just a thought.. what "it" does the phrase refer to? beats me. like everyone and everything.. *growl* think i shall stay alone for the day. god knows what kind of harm i will cause ppl in this kind of mood.

hey ppl.. check this name analysis place out : Kabalarian philosophy

k.. there is a stats test coming up on 4th oct.. *sigh* its NOT going to be pretty at all.. considering it has made no diff whether i've been attending lectures or not. i mean, the lecturer(ess) is a nice lady, i grant her that. but she cant teach even if her life depended on it. the tutor is even worse. some honors guy who just graduated. Ruby has given up going for stats.. Guozhong is skipping half the lectures and tutorials.. benjamin gave up as of just now. he asked me if i was going for stats tutorial ( which is now), and i said if there was a pt. i mean, i GO for lectures even when i dont learn anything and thats more than enough time wasted. i refer more to last sem's notes than this sem's text and notes. URGH! can anyone tutor me in stats pls? i dont wanna flunk this and bring it over to next sem. ANYONE!

oh.. nearly forgot to post my name analysis up.. here it goes:

Your name of Catherine makes you easy-going and refined, but detracts from your physical vitality. You desire all the finer things in life--lovely clothes, home, furniture, and environment. However, procrastination is your worst enemy, and you find yourself lacking the ambition to make your dreams a reality. People are inclined to take advantage of your sympathetic, tractable nature. You naturally attract people with problems who seek your understanding and advice. You can give good advice although it is unlikely that you would follow it yourself. You would be most successful in situations where you can use your skills in diplomacy in handling people, but where you are not under pressure or required to carry responsibility and make decisions. It is difficult for you to be individual and make your own decisions, for you lack self-confidence.

the whole chunk of words make sense to me. though i cant really agree with the "sympathetic, tractable nature" bit.. and i'm not exactly the most diplomatic person on earth either. comments, anyone?

i finally got to watch the "pirates of the carribean" show. it's way cool! sure orlando bloom aint so hot in the show, but its a good show nonetheless. a pity jeremy couldnt make it.

man. the urography was painful to say the least. they use the IV drop type of needle. the LONG ones. The first time the doctor inserted the needle, he hit bone halfway.. ouch. so he withdrew and tried again at another spot. *whine*and now, there are TWO big bruises on my hand. one where the needle hit bone, the other at some weird spot near the pt of the first injection. i mean, they're really big and.. well, purplish. each bruise spans an avg of 3cm in diameter. really big. i measured it. and the scariest thing is, the bruises seem to be spreading and merging into ONE really big one. *shudder* if my hand gets half covered by the bruise do i get to sue the doctor?.. *ponder* chances are i wont.. coz the doctors who did my urography were really nice.. lol.. i threatened to clobber one.. lol.. well, its kinda like this, i was hanging on to melvin and whining," are u SURe he cant go in with me?.. i need him to hold my hand.." and the doctor said it wouldnt hurt (liar..).. and Mel was cajolling me to go in and i was telling mel, "if it hurts, i'm coming out to clobber you." to which the doctor laughed and agreed wholeheartedly,"yeah.. u can come out and give him a punch later." and i looked at the doctor ( who's called Jeffery btw) and snorted," i'll clobber u first." of course, it turned out Jeffery and that other doctor were really nice so i didnt clobber either of them. *grin*

A BIG THANKS TO JENNY!!

many thanks to Jen for helping me out with my template :) its done! *sparkles* she found me a nice little corner for my archives and some color-involving stuff *grin*

just wanna try this new layout.. erm.. am trying to figure out where to put my archives.. and i havent had time to do my links as yet. so bear with me. i shld get most of the links settled by end of the week, and i HOPE i can find a nice little corner for my archives.. and my counter.

you know how last week i went to school only to find that lab started today? well, i went to school today just to find out that my lab grp starts next week and that today was for the first grp, i was in the 2nd grp. i am NOT amused. 2 weeks in a row! i got my butt to school for nothing for this lab for 2 times now! *mutter* so i sighed and came back here. next class is at 2 anyway. may as well just lie in bed, come on the comp. *mutter* damn lab.

i'm having my xray tomorrow.. *shudder* the PAIN! k.. it's called Intravenous Urography.. see the word "intravenous"? yup. Mel is going with me tomorrow so i can hold his hand and bite into it when they inject. *smirk* *laugh* just kidding. anyhow they expect it to take abt 2 hours in all.. so i will def miss my stats lecture. again. sorry ruby. i pass you ur notes on sat k?

Oh, Eugene and i ended up at "cable car" on sunday. didnt get to watch that show again. *sigh* sorry Eugene. well, the 4.40 show was almost full. no good seats. and the next one was at 6ish.. and i really wanted to be back before 8.. oh well.. sorry Eugene.

i didnt get to watch the "pirates of carribean" show yesterday.. *sulk* Jeremy went at 3.30 to get tix for the 4.55 show but it was sold out and he tried the 6 odd show but it was sold out too.. then the only seats available for the 7 pm show were the front row seats, which i hate. maybe i'll watch it later. maybe. depends on whether Melvin and Jeremy are joining Eugene and I later. coz i promised to watch it with mel and mel promised to watch it with Jer. well, and I, lol.. long story. Jer and Mel and I ended up at the cybercafe at cine playing battlefields 1942.. not bad.. got a lil bored after 1.5 hours tho.

lol.. shazyan was telling me that he had lots of wedding stuff to attend.. a wedding dinner last nite, a church wedding today, and another wedding dinner.. lol.. he was complaining that he wasnt able to see his girlfriend,.. i asked him why he didnt ask her to go with him to the wedding stuff.. he said he just may. *wrinkles nose* i mean, if he misses her, then drag her along. ~gee

now that my DAOC acct has ended, I have a new addiction that comes in the form of a game called
Black and White *grin* you play a god(dess) and you have ppl worshipping you *beam* give it a look. I have a stupid pet who keeps on eating my villagers tho *wrinkles nose* and its black hearted too. think its due to the eating of villagers. i really dont get it.. everytime it eats one of my worshippers, i bash him up. but he doesnt seem to get the pt. stupid pet. its cute tho. i got the cow.. mooo... lol.. *giggles hysterically*

hmm.. and i really oughta be studying for tuesday's test. dont know what to study for.. not that i dont know what chapters are being tested, just that, well, i dont know how to study for the test. so far what they have taught is the usefulness of certain sites e.g swissprot is used for seaching on protein structure etc. what, dont tell me they are gonna ask questions like," what site should u use to search for LP24?"... or something like that?.. ~gee.

hmm.. gonna watch pirates of the Carribean tomorrow. i think. am so -NOT- drinking tomorrow. first, i think my liver has taken enough abuse the last time. second, i'm too broke the drink. unlike jenny, i dont have guys offering to buy drinks for me. the only guy who would is currently penniless. third.. third.. alcohol has too many calories. *sparkle* there. enough reason not to drink tomorrow. rite? *grin*

anyhow, i'm gonna toddle off now. have stuff to do. blog another day.

*grin* looks like i overdid the tests.. lol..

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another hour to my lab.. *mutter* this life science module is starting to annoy me more than usual. they have 2 hour labs every week. i'd rather they have 4 hours labs every fortnight. so at least i can have to day free. but NO, they decide to torture the students and make us come in from 4-6. *mutter*

i thought there was chem lab today, so i came to school in lab gear.. meaning, shirt with sleeve and those ugly shoes that cover ur toes. then they tell me.. no.. the lab is under some sort of renovation and the lab is next week *growl* tuesday is my lab day. i have nothing BUT labs. u know.. i suddenly have nothing to say anymore.. dont know what is wrong with me. i am not looking forward to the X-ray next wed. btu u guys already knoe abt that. i whined to so many ppl.. hmm.. erm.. nope. nothing new. sorry guys. i'm just freezing my arse of here waiting for lab to start. yay. Oooo wait. Vynnie got a room in PGP. *sigh* dont want his key anymore. suddenly i feel that he was only kidding when he said he would gimme the keys. u guys shldnt tell me things u dont mean. i take them QUITE seriously u know. now i'm mildly annoyed that he shld say it in the first place and not mean it. at least i dont think he meant it.

shit. i feel wasted. woozy.

love cable car. the bar or pub or whatever place near center pt. try the angel kiss. it's like "woot!". cant think straight. drank too much. actually. it was only a lil. but everything is so.. light, u know. i fell asleep on the way back. hope melvin survives the cab ride back.

shit. i need to go sleep. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOZy.

hm.. i think i just may start another blog. a more personal one.. found out that a few of my friends have been doing that.. and well, i guess when everyone u know is reading ur blog, u cant really type much abt.. ur feelings, ya know. and it would be kinda cool if i started one and didnt give the address to anyone at all. sure ppl may stumble across but what are the chances of it being u guys? *smirk* but well, it really depends on whether i can get my fat butt up and working. (speaking of which, i just may choose to strangle Melvin the next time he calls me chubby)

Been listening songs from the Vienna boys choir.. not bad.. love the "angus dei".. dont know what they are singing abt really.. but lol.. it sounds nice.

Poor eugene has to stay in camp this weekend :( apparently he was planning to ask me out..( he just called me suddenly last nite to apologize coz he cant come out) *sigh* oh well, too bad then.. the weird thing is.. uh.. i cant remember making plans with him in the first place!.. *laugh* oops.. sorry eugene.. lol.. memory real bad lately.. or did u mention it when i was half asleep?.. lol.. forgive me ~gene i'll buy u a tulip to err.. make up for it k?

aiyah. have to call meng. ask her to bring my notes.. think i better call her now before i forget.. i was supposed to call last sunday... but i forgot.. ~hee.*proceeds to call meng* *laugh* she ask me why i only called now to remind her abt the notes.. at least i remembered to call her k..

went to NUH today.. did a kidney scan.. i was whining to the doctor ( who's young and relatively cute btw).. i was asking him if he was sure that was my kidney.. coz everything looked like a tv screen gone bad.. he said i would have to trust him.. i insisted everything looked the same while he tried unsuccessfully to point my kidneys out to me on the screen. think of those prenatal ultrascan things. yeah. something like that. then he told me they looked normal - as in no cancerous growth. (duh..) then he said they would need to do another urine test. AND an Xray. i was thinking "x-ray.. no pain.. alrite.. " then he said they would need to INJECT some sort of a dye before the x-ray. *faint* *whine* and i would have to go back abt mid sept to do the x-ray. injection.. *whine* i whined to the doctor at any rate. he said it wouldnt hurt and i just looked at him till he relented and said it would hurt a lil bit. i just snorted at that point and muttered something abt not trusting doctors it came to injections and estimations to pain. the trip today costs a freaking 50 bucks.. then i need to go for the x-ray which will cost abt.. another 60 i think. coz the x-ray itself is 40, then 20 odd for consultation what. *mutter* then a (hopefully, if there is nothing wrong) final check up in october..which will cost another 50 i think. URGH! freaking expensive!i need a rich boyfriend. *poke melvin* work harder u. *smirk*

i hate saturdays. NUS is EVIL. SADISTIC. classes on a saturday! MORNING classes on the saturday.. i end at TWO freaking pm today.. its a saturday! how can they do this to me?!

anyway, it's abt another.. 2 hours before the Next class.. so i'm here typing away.. nonsensical stuff coz i'm not really awake yet.. lol..

hmm.. oh,.. erm..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUGENE

lol.. his birth day today .. dont know if he reads my blog. doubt so, but at least i remembered eh?

*Mind a complete blank* *mutter* i will type another day. Brain went on strike. cant think.

*sulk* DAOC is down for tonite.. i wanna play but i cant coz of the new patch.. *sigh* oh well.. too bad then.. and i cant stay up till 11 to play coz i'll prolly be sooo tired by then.. well.. *sigh* i dont know. there IS no pt in staying up just to patch rite?... i mean, i have class tomorrow and even if i DID patch i wouldnt be able to play for long. Am going to stop playing end of the month. have to study anyway.. i'll reactivate the account in December. oh well.. *shudder* i would HATE to think of the size of the patches when i return to the game in december. prolly gonna be like 10mb or something. i mean, 10mb SOUNDS alrite right? *snort* not when u are D/Ling at 2.0kb/s tho. it sucks, i know. dont know what is wrong. when i D/L my notes, the speed is like 30 kb/s, for songs, it varies but it's normally abt 15kb/s. but for that game server.. it's like 2 kb/s *mutter*

turned out Melvin was gonna get me what i wanted for my Bdae,. except that he forgot he promised it was for my Bdae and it was just a coinciedence that he was thinking that exact same thing. *snort* anyway,. he hadnt had time to go get it lately. i told him to forget it.

i'm actually listening to CHinese songs.. lol.. not "singers" like whats-her-name.. Jolin Tsai or something like that. SHe cant sing. her voice.. is ... well.. *cough* not v impressive. and i cant believe Melvin likes one of her songs. *shudder* just as i was beginning to believe he had taste. u want good voices? Listen to Josh groban or Russel Watson or some accapella grp. most Accapella grps are good. i believe that in music, u shld listen to the voice quality, the harmony and stuff like that. that prancing around like a frilly, shiny, painted chicken is the least of things u shld be looking out for. of course, Lyrics and stuff add meaning too. I suppose we all look out for different things when we pick out what kind of songs/artists we like.. and my choices.. well.. *shrug* grps like Tatu, and that stupid grp with that "fast food song" ( u know, that pizza hut-macdonalds etc etc "noise").. those just get on my nerves and i grind my teeth coz my ears hurt. most of the times tho, i just switch radio stations.

*sigh* actually, i had lots of stuff to complain abt.. the school ( the irregular lecture timings of GEK 1509 - sometimes its at ten, sometimes 12.30.. rubbish ).. and the lousy lsm2103 lecturer.. etc etc.. but i'm now too tired to do anything. AND i have a lecture in an hour. wtf.. *mutter* and i'm just mad at melvin. *sniff* actually, i'm too tired to even stay mad. it's not his fault. i'm just throwing tantrums.

and basically, i want to type stuff, but i dont want to.. ya know. *shrug* *whine* i saw my parents on Sunday. erm. lol.. kept on bumping into relatives Yesterday. Of course there was the SHOCK of seeing my parents.. lol.. i went up and said hi. *smirk* then i continued helping meself to the food (buffet at Goodwood park hotel). AT least they didnt yell at me in public or anything. lol.. Mom just raised her eyebrows. determined to ignore me i think. *laugh* i bet aunt helen would be under a fire of questions coz i WAS lunching with her.. and uncle sam and glenn etc.. *shrug* *cough* bet mom thinks i'm staying with her *smirk* well, i WOULDN'T mind staying with aunt helen really.. lol.. but no thanks. i have my reasons. thanks, but no. lol..

watched league of extraordinary gentlemen yesterday :) it was GREAT! lovely. absolutely lovely. *gush* the spy was cute, the immortal was.. charming. too bad he turned out to be the bad guy. and the vampire lady was.. er.. hot *beam* *prattles on non-stop*

watch it.

anyway, i'm dead tired.. bought yoga pants today. looks alrite. i look like.. a sofa, as usual. erm.. i wasn't allowed to have chocolates today *sulk* Melvin says it would all end up here *points to bum* and here.. *points to thigh*. *laugh* i could love that guy for helping me diet. i could. but i wont *smirk* anyhow, it's gaming time *laugh* see ya guys. erm jen, what is ur new Web addy? remember to gimme.

urgh.. hate the first week of school. absolutely.. lets see, on monday, i got the location of my chem module wrong, i went to LT 23 when it was supposed to be in LT 26.. *mutter* then today, i woke up early for my ten o'clock stats class, only to find that it started at noon. not ten. *mutter* then my computer decided that it hates me and poof, a blaster worm appeared. i cant print my notes, i cant go online. i cant do anything. which explains why i'm in the CBLC now, miserable as hell. actually, i'm here coz i got the lecture timings wrong. but still.

i have no idea how to get rid of the virus. Eugene tried to help, didnt work. Lianne gave me this url to go to, but i cant stay on long enough to D/L anything. Daniel recommended a patch, same prob, cant stay online long enough before the stupid comp resets. and my printer is out of color ink. tried to print my notes at Mel's place, only to find HIS printer screwing up too. WONDERFUL. i'm behind on my printing, i'm behind on my games. i'm NOT a happy person. *sulk*

at least aerobics start next week.. at least i wont have to worry TOO much abt getting flabby.. lol.. oh and i've got a doctor's appt later.. *mutter* will prolly cost me abt 100 bucks so i'll be freaking broke. you know, i was supposed to go see a doc like, in march.. but after that came the sars scare so i couldnt go to those clinics and stuff?.. yeah. i think parts of me are breaking down, literally. it's starting to hurt internally.. *wince* and i'm only going coz things are starting to hurt and Melvin's nagging at me. at least i found someone to accompany me later.. not melvin of course. *snort* he wouldnt coz i would never ask him and he would never offer. plus he has to remove his stitches today. *shrug* so i figure he's busy. There are too many of you who think i should move on to another guy.. *mutter* but i like this one, in some weird way or other. so lemme keep him even if it means my heart will be broken in the end.

first day of school

chaos

had only 3 hours of sleep

boring lectures, worse lecturers

need i say more?

*sigh* oh well. whatever it was that i wanted for my birthday today, i didnt get it. i mean, yeah. sure i didnt tell him.. but he kinda promised to buy them for me for my birthday.. guess he forgot. i mean, i cant really blame him can i? i mean, it's been ages ago.. like he told me he would buy them for my birthday like.. beginnnig of the year. can't help but feel disappointed tho. the day was fine other than the lil glitch.. i mean, we had lunch, went to watch "2 fast 2 furious".. not really my kinda show, but there wasn't anything else to watch...

Oooo and i nearly forgot, i bumped into clara today, she was waitressing at Jack's place ( where i had lunch )... *grin*

sigh. back to the present i silently wished for.. *sigh* no.. not a diamond ring. i DID tell him i wanted to have dinner at Lawry's prime ribs for the coming valentine's.. lol... told him to start saving.. dont think he'll remember by then tho.. *sigh* i cant say what i want here.. coz he may read it and.. well, there really is no pt rite? i write it here so he could buy them.. the logic is, " if you dont know, i cant tell ya" lol.. rite li?

*bounce* had dinner with Lianne yesterday at this mexican restaurant at holland v.. the food wasn't bad, the company.. well. *grin* divine.. lol.. it was only after the dinner that i suggested drinks. damn. we should have skipped dinner for drinks i think. i started craving for a nice alcoholic drink rite after dinner. maybe i'll get myself some later. Anyway lianne got me this v v much needed hair treatment *gush* thank you lianne! i love her so much,... lol... she knows just what i need, WHEN i need stuff without me telling her.

Kay, and i met up with eugene on.. tuesday and he gave me this nice little figurine thing from precious tots. v nice. thanks eugene! its got a nice sparkly peridot on it.. *beams* like sparkly stones.

spending the day with melvin. he *rolls eyes* suggested that since it was my birthday, i should spend it in my birthday suit. ha ha. *rolls eyes* wonder if... nah... he's reading. i'll leave my wonderings for phone time with lianne :) no it's nothing to do with the birthday suit idea. It's abt something i want, thats all. a present. not saying what i want here.

anyway, have to go. *beams* having lunch with melvin and i need to chase him out of the house else, we will take forever to leave his place.

by the way, i added new lyrics to the side, its a translation of "un amore per sempre" by josh groban. the title translates to "one love forever".. v nice. you guys should take a listen sometime.

went to visit melvin today.. wasn't too shocked by the tube sticking out of his chest. i wish he would stop trying to show it to me though. it's not a pleasant sight.. lol.. what shocked me was his fragility. *cough* well, he DID look pale, and basically, looked like he was abt to breathe his last any minute now. looks worse than the last time.. he couldnt even stomach anything.. like.. even apple juice,.. he kinda drank a teensy bit, then threw it all up in less than an hour. not pleasant to have someone throw up 3 times in the 2 hours i was there. almost made me want to cradle him in my arms.. -almost-

erm.. made the mistake of not having breakfast.. or lunch for that matter, before i went. in the end, i was all.. giddy and would have collapsed right on the foot of the hospital bed. would have been real embarassing if i did.. thank goodness i sat down fast enough.. and for some reason, i got really sleepy while i was there.. don't know why though.. i was ready to just plop myself on a chair and sleep.. didnt though. it woudl have been unsightly if i did.

bumped into timothy at orchard in the evening.. he was with -that- girl. lol.. i HATE the way he says my name. everyone has a certain way of.. caling me.. the tone and lilt and stuff. but TIM. TIM! he SPITS my name out like something unpleasant. he was standing behind me. the minute he went ," CAt!", i frowned and thought ," only tim spits my name like that.." true enough.... *pout* that guy. bet he does it just to annoy me sometimes.

*sigh* couldn't concentrate at work today.. *pout* was too worried about work.. how am i to concentrate on my work when melvin is being cut up in the op room?.. *sigh* he called me alot of times today.. lol.. before he was wheeled in of course.. i haven't heard from him since his last call at noon telling me that he was going in soon.. i spent the entire afternoon wishing i was there with him. well, i suppose i could have taken the day off, but his mom was going to be there and well, she IS his mom and naturally she will have to be there on the day of his op.. so yeah, i didnt go. couldnt go. because they would only allow one visitor per session. and i heard that they have grown really strict abt visiting hours, so i can't spend the whole day there like the last time.. *sigh* dont like this at all.

plus there is the itty little fact that he will be really free while on his mc. and guys which are too free, well, do stupid stuff. *cough* i -know-. well, *shrug* if he starts picking girls up online, i shall dump him. whether he is in pain with stitches in him or not. simple. just hope i have the strength to go thru with it. god knows how many times i've got really mad/disappointed and wanted to leave but failed... lol.. screw that. Lianne knows... doesnt mean she's god...Ooo nevermind if ya dont get it... today was the last day at work tho.. lol.. coz i had this weird notion that school started next week.. i only found out 2 days ago that it started on the 11th.. *sheepish grin*

*sigh* i really dont understand how i can come home from work all tired. i mean, i do nothing but sit on my big fat butt the whole day, yet i manage to get off work exhausted. If this affects every one of the working class, it's no wonder my parents come back from work looking a lil dead, so to speak. like, i dont wanna do anything at the end of the day but to sit in front of the comp to play games, or to sleep.

speaking of parents, it's prolly high time i gave them a call. maybe. i dont know. i dont wanna call to get yelled at. i miss my dad tho. and my brother. wonder how his acne is *smirk*

Melvin is going in for another op.. like last year, he went to do his left lung. on friday he is gonna do his right. *cough* all the best to his.. recovery. and i hope he doesnt emerge from the hospital a morphine addict *laugh* *sulk* visiting is gonna be tough, considering they only allow a visitor a day or something like that. shall have to coordinate with his mom then. speaking of which, he was supposed to gimme his mom's hp number. *sigh* i forgot to remind him.

urgh. i have FOUR paper cuts today. i absolutely LOATHE filing. they have stuff from last december that's not filed for goodness sake. lianne and i were wondering if the money is worth our sanity, considering that all that filing and data entry is brain numbing. she thinks of the gucci shades she wants and she grinds her teeth and move on. i simply do -NOT- think and pass the hours in the offiice, albeit slowly but it passes nonetheless.

*yawn* so tired.. *pout* and moody.

i went to get my eyebrows done yesterday. it was on an impulse.. never had them plucked before.. it was.. PAINFUL to say the least. but turned out pretty alrite.. i walked around orchard with really weird red patches above my eyes yesterday.. went after work, so at least it was at night.. *laugh* and it was not that bright on the streets, if ya get what i mean.

melvin and i went for sushi yesternite.. wasn't too bad. i mean the sushi. i was so tired i almost fell asleep walking..

i would love to type more, trust me.. but right now, my brain is dead and i can't seem to even type coherent sentences. and i still hate nus. that much is clear.

i HATE nus. they are gonna preallocate modules for the lifescience. and we are gonna be split into 2 grps.. each grp taking diff modules of course. guess what? in both groups, i have modules which will clash with my chemistry module. *mutter* i called the school up and asked if a swap could be arranged for one or 2 modules. this is a fairly accurate repesentation on how the conversation went.

me: i'm having problems with the groups coz in both, there are modules which clash with my chemistry. is there any way i could.. erm.. swap one or 2 modules with a willing other party?

idiot who answered the phone: that is impossible. you will have to drop your chemistry module.

me: but i can't drop it. it's my minor module. i have 6 to complete and that makes one each semester. i can't miss one.

idiot who answered the phone: that is against the rules... you have to drop the chemistry module.

me: you dont seem to understand. i HAVE to take that chem module this semester.

idiot who answered the phone:i told you, that is not possible. the rules state that..

me: what.. the rules state that you guys are to make module arrangements for students impossible and to -not- allow us to pick the moduels we want?

idiot who answered the phone: *silence*

me: forget it. who is the person in charge? i want to talk to him. give me his number. please.

well, i got that guy-in-charge's number.. and i'm going to call him tomorrow. if he turns out to as big as an idiot as the one i had to converse with today, or even worse, i'm going yell. and yell. and yell. and i dont care if he's a goddamn proffessor. *fumes* nus. full of idiotic staff. they are just there to collect the pay, not to help the students.

i found another job.. an office one.. nine to five.. for the next 2 weeks.. *cough* started 2 days ago actually.. well.. i'm just there as an office girl.. apparently, there are 2 guys from nus who are working there too.. *shrug* dont know who they are, never seen them around coz they were from another department. i only knew of their existance coz this lady working there told me..the ladies there are real nice.. at least some of them. *laugh* can't really relate though.. considering some of them have daughteres my age or something like that. now that i have a proper, job ( for the next week or so anyway), i realize that i would rather study anytime. *shudder* the work is alrite.. nothing taxing. its the environment. a study-environment is less.. threatening. there are less complications.. compared to an office ya know.. everyone is soo.. *struggles for the right word* polished. fake. i know i would miss school when i grad.. *cough* if i grad. lol.. come on, i didnt even expect to get into uni.. *sigh* my jc pals can testify.

dont know what modules to take coming semester.. my modules clash ( so what's new?) have to call ruby later to find out what she is taking.. maybe i can align in such a way that we take the same mods.. at least i would have a pal i could talk to and ask questions and stuff.. dont seem to relate to most nus ppl..*shrug* i'm not uni material.

*sigh* just came from from the primary class school outing.. at least 10 ppl turned up.. lets see, the girls - lianne, ting ting, Lorraine, siesie and i. actually, tanya and michelle joined us for about 15 mins or so, then they left. they weren't from our class anyway *shrug* wonder why did austen invite them anyway. anyway, the guys include austen, syahzan, paul ( now known as piong ), erm.. darren, weihong.. think thats it. then i left them at abt 4 to meet melvin..

*snort* its not even 6.30 and im' back. why? coz i'm sooo tired. my legs ache and i'm physically exhausted. and coz melvin and i were just walking around.. with nothing to do. and i was not really in the mood to play pool or bowl. so i'm here.. and waiting for melvin to get home so he can help power level my enchantress in daoc ( dark age of camelot). i was quite sure that after i installed the game on thursday, melvin and i would spend considerable less time together and we would end up talking online instead of on the phone. and i stayed up to 3 am just to patch the game on thursday. bloody big file.. more than 30mb and the server was sooo clogged coz everyone else was patching the lastest patch ( which was only 1.4mb) but i had so much to go coz of all the patches i've missed. *mutter*

anyway, it's time for me to go in the game.. erm.. post another day i suppose

for some weird and unknown reason, i can't load my blog up on the comp.. wonder if you ppl have troulble loading it too.. lianne's loads fine.. so does ruby's.. weird that i seem to ahve trouble with my own blog. anyhow, i have to rush off now.. meeting my primary school class mates in an hour's time and i'm not even changed yet.

went out with vynnie to watch "dumb and dumber-er" yesterday. *snort* well, it was either that or T3, which i REALLY do not feel like watching. we played pool.. *smirk* and i won *smirk* he insisted on using the extra big tables and i had to stretch across somewhat, but i won anyway *gloat*

then we played warcraft.. and i got trashed so bad *pout* his hero was a level 7 while mine was a 4 *pout* then we tried CS.. *laugh* i actually managed to kill him a couple of times (lucky shots) lol..

all in all, nothing much has been happening. am looking forward to this sat's primary class reunion tho. somehow, it just sounds like it will be fun. after all, i have not seen some of them for yEARS. around 7 i should think *shudder* feel old...

guess whatever come below reflects my mood for today..

I still remember the world
From the eyes of a child
Slowly those feelings
Were clouded by what I know now

Where has my heart gone
An uneven trade for the real world
I want to go back to
Believing in everything and knowing nothing at all

I still remember the sun
Always warm on my back
Somehow it seems colder now

Where has my heart gone
Trapped in the eyes of a stranger
I want to go back to
Believing in everything

it's "fields of innocence" by evanescence by the way.

*grin* hey ya all :)

irene came back from Australia last week so we went out.. it was pretty alrite.. we just walked around and shopped. the highlight of the week HAS to be yesterday's little outing with shan shan, tim, ck and irene *laugh* we went to play pool and uh.. shan shan was a lil.. frantic coz she was not exactly good at it.. but it turned out well enough. *laugh* for the first game at least. we were girls vs guys and tim basically lost the game when the black ball went in *beam* we gossiped of course. tons and tons of gossip. lol. and shan shan tried to break at the start of this particular game.. you know.. the balls are so nicely put together, and the rest of us told her to break them apart?.. yeah. that break. lets say that out of the 9 balls, only 3 moved.

Oooo.. did i mention i brought irene to the nice turkish place at far east plaza?.. *laugh* it was great looking at her flounder for her ice cream there *beam* for those who have no idea what i'm talking about, go the the turkish restaurant about the "this fashoin" at far east and buy an ice-cream. *smirk*

Ooo.. looks like i have not been posting fro such a looong time *laugh* so sorry ppl. *screws face up* though i don't think there would be any of you who would like.. feel upset coz i have not been posting. and i need to apologize to ppl like ruby and Jen.. well, to everyone whose site i used to visit. *cough* been really busy lately. truely busy. and distracted. so much so that i have not been going to anyone's site for a while.n i WILL go take a look just as soon as i post this, i promise.

i have not been posting not only because i've been busy and distracted, also because nothing has been happening at all. its the hols. sure i go out and stuff.. Ooo yeah.. that reminds me, i went to watch ju-on the other day. you know, that japanese horror movie. *sniff* it sucks. no plot. not that scary. and good horror shows are supposed to leave you freaked out even after the movie. and to think i had no problem taking taking the lift alone after the show. nor was i creeped out by the usual sounds you hear at night. i mean, i've watched various horror movies. like "dark water", it creeped me out so much, i didn't even want to take the lift alone. and stuff like that. that should be what a horror show does. not the usual "creature jumping from behind ya" kind of scare. that's not scary at all. just giving the movie go-ers a shock or 2. horror shows which do not allow the audience to leave the cinema with a lingering sense of unease or fear, are those which fail miserably. *cough* on a more personal note, it didn't help that Vynnie was laughing thru-out the so-called horrow show.

it has been ages since i posted something serious.. *ponders* have i ever even posted something concerning serious topics?.. *giggle* guess not. i came on today, telling myself that i should not babble as usual and that i should put in something proper for once. *sigh* then my mind drew a blank.

i'm addicted to dark age of camelot now.. *laugh* it's all melvin's fault. now i keep on popping over to his place ( when he is not around, of course) just so i can get to play the game. and since i'm not willing to pay twenty over bucks per month just to play a game, i hog his computer *bounce* i had a glorious time yesterday playing.. and he wasn't around so i could play in peace *laugh* This is bad.. i should get myself unaddicted before school starts.. *smirk* as it is, i have plenty of time. i'm currently playing an elven enchantress.. and am having a whale of a time *beams* there are quite a number of friendly people there.. though some just ignore me when they realize i'm a newbie and don't know half the stuff. most are patient enough to spend time just going thru the steps of the game with me. *beams* i'm not asking melvin tho.. he has the tendency to.. get agitated when i don't understand. maybe i'll get the game after all.. just maybe. then i can play during the hols. i doubt it tho. i would want to work for most hols i think.

"finding nemo" was fantastic! the baby turtle was soooo cute *gush* n the way the little squirt went "dude" was soooo adorable *gush* that little turtle has gotta be my fave character in the whole show *gush* Melvin loves that character too *beams* anyway, i was shopping around orchard yesterday.. found some nice clothes from phuture but i was a lil too broke to buy any *sulk* and i didn't think it was a good idea to ask melvin for money when he is broke too. *sulk*

i was supposed to go watch ju-on with yuchen and ck next week i think. it was brought up but not really confirmed. anyway, it fell thru coz vynnie is gonna go with me next .. friday. i had wanted to watch it with melvin but he's not the horror-movie sort of person. n he gets freaked out more easily than i do. *grin* yuchen says that his friend says its a real creepy movie. the kind that leaves your imagination running wild when you take the lift alone after the show. that kind of freakiness beats the usual hollywood shock-style. can't wait to catch the show *bounce*

just added link to eric. i have yet to go take a look at his site myself.. will do so after this post i guess :)

hmm.. i went for another one of my disasterous haircuts today *laugh* it turned out pretty alrite. pretty alrite for a ten buck haircut, that is. *sniff* i've NEVER ten dollar hair cuts. not for as long as i can remember. but it was one of those ten minute things.. ya know.. that chain of " ten bucks for ten minutes"?.. yeah. that one. it's not that bad surprisingly. and it's kind on my wallet. it's all i ask for rite now.

and lianne is right. we're quits ( wrt guys in our lives).. we never seem to like each other's boyfriends for some reason. or dates. or whatever. *laugh* i wonder why. it's been like that since what.. sec school?.. since we were.. at least.. since I started dating. lianne started a lil later. but still.

anyway. i have been peering at the mirror every 5 mins to check out my hair.. think it's time for me to trot over and have another look *grin*

went to watch "bruce almighty" yesterday. and it really isn't such a bad show, despite the lousy rating straits times gave it. i laughed thru-out the movie. it was great :) and towards the end, things got really sweet *dreamy sigh*

anyway, it's june. and the great singapore sale is here. i wonder if i should buy all the presnets i have to buy at the sale.. like lianne's present, melvin's present, ruby's present etc. it IS cheaper to buy now. and i won't feel the stress when the birthdays approach only for me to realize that i can't seem to find a nice present. i would, you know. do all the shopping at one go. alas.. i'm broke. as usual. i have what.. ten bucks in my wallet now. and it'll be the max amount of money i have in my wallet until abt.. 2 weeks from now. under normal circumstances, Melvin would provide for me. *laugh* a lil too bad we have been spending too much the past 3 months so now HE is broke too. *sigh* ah well. i'll survive. it's no biggie.

i passed!! *bounce* I passed!!!! *bounce bounce bounce*

last sem, my highest grade was a C+.. this sem its a B+!! *bounce* my CAP is now.. 2.7.. *pout* well.. last sem it was 2.1.. this sem 3.3.. so it averages out to be 2.7.. *sparkle* i had expected worse..*sigh* i was in a good mood today until Edwin complained that he didn't do as well as last sem and he was disappointed. that moron got 4.2.. and he's complaining. i can kill that guy. i really can.

i dont like the fact that Lianne is seeing "Mr pink" again. i dont have a good impression of the guy.. and well..honestly, Lianne hon, i'm slighty disappointed that you can't seem to.. well.. keep away from him. in fact, i dislike him so much, i think i shall call him pinky from now on.

alrite.. it's time to try and type something again.. the last time i typed this really long post only to have it lost *sulk*

alrite.. so far, the telesurvey job is not going on very well.. i have idiots who think i'm trying to sell something.. the minute i say i'm from "so-and-so" company, they go," not interested" and the next thing i know, that moron hangs up. but some of the ppl i call are rather nice.. they even hang on the line to chat abit.

anyway.. results will be out tomorrow.. *panic*

anyway, jen just pointed out that melvin had a blog. yeah. in fact he had quite a few, just that he never managed to stick to one long enough to post more than 5 times. makes me wonder how long he can stick to this one. anyone wants to bet that he would give up by the third post? sounds mean, but i'm only trying to make a point here. *smirk*

*yawn* i feel decidedly sedated today.. let's see.. i woke up at 7 this morn, went back to bed at 8.. slept til 10,got out of bed and went back to bed at noon.. then i made myself go for lunch.. *stones* it's not lethargy.. it just feels like i'm..well.. sedated. it's a sloooooowwwww day.

hmm.. apparently there is a class outing this sunday.. for dinner. coz baoling is back.. i'm not sure if i should go. first coz i don't really know bao..and i don't really know who else is going. plus Vynnie is treating me to "bruce almighty" on sunday. and he can only make it at 4.. *shrug* tough choice.. *sigh* guess i'll go with vynnie.. why should i go out with a whole bunch of ppl that i don't really know when i can get a free movie with someone i've always hung out with? Lianne. we have to go out sometime. can't even remember the last time i SAW you.

Eric just emailed me.. which is a pleasant surprise.. coz we haven't talked since.. what.. sec 4.. *sigh* he apparently.. is now in..ermm.. navy?.. yeah navy :) according to leah, this pal of mine has grown to be.. hmm.. what was the term she used?.. I think she said "good-looking".. *laugh* *cough* it's weird having leah say such a thing,.. just that.. well.. i've never thought of him to be.. uh.. say.. hunky. *laugh* can't blame me.. he was like a big brother to me.. and i've never thought him in any other way.

kay.. i shall try and post this.. *crosses fingers*

i lost my post *growl* i spent an hour on it and it's lost *growl*

*frets* results will be out 31st may.. *frets* i'm gonna die.. mom will drag me home by the roots of my hair and i shall never see daylight again.. *frets*

*sigh* i've found a job. sorta. it's only for 6 weeks so it's alrite. just telesurvey.. but since it's a "work from home" thing, i don't earn much... but i DO get to attend a webpage design course for free *smirk* Melvin, of course, was screaming in jealousy coz i get to attend the course free *sticks tongue out* the "pay" of course is just enough to cover transport to the place where the course is held. I've done my calculations. Essentially, i'm not earning anything at all. But it's alrite.. i don't really have anything to do anyway.. may as well use the time to learn something.

Melvin is gonna start a blog too.. about time. i've been bugging to start one for abt 6 mths now. But i can't link him yet.. *pout* not until his blog is really ready yet.. Lol.. poor guy is complaining to me that he bumped his head.. *cough* nevermind.

*whine* Tim said we were supposed to have an outing this sunday.. but i have not received any details. Both YC and Jen have called to ask me.. but i don't KNOW coz i don't have the details *glares at tim*.. actually. can we just go out NEXt weekend *sheepish grin* *cough* well.. i'm NOT really THAT free this sunday. ah.. doesn't matter, if we ARE having an outing i will try to make time kay.. *cough* i just realized i promised to go on THREE outings on sunday.. heh.. there is the tim and jen and company.. and i promised amanada and dona ( pals from sec school).. and i promised another pal too.. ah.. well.. err.. looks like i have to cancel on one or two eh?.. heh.

*growl* i was in a relatively good mood until SOME annoying people decide to call me. first there was david. he's a nice guy for most but he managed to get on my nerves by going," why don't you dump your current guy and hang out with me?" yeah right. *snort* i will sooner date pond scum. then comes amy who msged to ask," are you still with that guy?" *growl* what is WRONG with those people? *fumes* are they having a bet on when i will enter singledom again or what? *snarl* i will NOT be single anytime soon thank you all for your concerns. And if i get asked again whether i'm sure i love my guy, i will PERSONALLY skin that curious person alive. *cries* and don't be tempted ck. just don't be tempted to ask.

Oh. i watched "matrix reloaded" yesterday with Melvin, Jeremy and Eugene.. The show was alright.. the fight scenes were a lil too draggy though. and there was this bit where the architect guy was talking to Neo.. and he was going on and on about something i do not understand.. yeah. i was totally like "huh?? what's HE going on about?" yes. then i realised that the particular feeling of confusion and uncomprehension is very familiar. in fact, it's the kind of feeling i get during my lectures and tutorials. *cough* oh well. *glares at phone* i wish amy would leave me alone. i'm just replying her sms-es out of courtesy now. *bristle*

oh.. and i ended up watching Xmen2 twice.. *sigh* watched it a second time with an old friend of mine who needed the company. i must say.. *grin* i didn't mind watching it again. *gush* bobby drake is soo.. *gush* *cough* well.. actually.. nah. he is not that cute. i can think of cuter guys. but hey. No one minds eyecandy *grin*

i cooked lunch today. and dinner. and guess what, it turned out pretty good.. at least, well, it's edible..*cough* don't forget to breathe ppl. *laugh*

went out to watch "bringing down the house" with Vynnie yesterday.. it wasn't a bad movie.. kinda funny.. but it was not fantastic. at least, it didn't live up to what I had expected it to be.

my eye hurts!.. *whine* The doctor says it some sort of an allergic reaction. allergic reaction to WHAT? *mutter* i have no idea. i only know my eye is swollen and it hurts. It's feeling a lil better after i took the medication.. but it's still a lil swollen.. i think i shall stay in for a few days.. i look like a freak. *mutter*

hmmm.. i tried to call ruby yesterday.. like.. i called what, 4 or 5 times i think. and she didn't answer. had wanted to tell her there was a job opening.. but *shrug* couldn't find her. too bad then. i didn't get THAT job either. It's this really annoying cycle.. i can't get any experience coz i can't get a job. and i can't get a job coz those ppl don't want ppl with no experience. this is great. so what.. am i doomed to have nil experince till i grad ( if i grad) or what?.. then the cycle will repeat itself.. it works for both perm and temp. can you imagine, a couple of years down the road, i grad and go a job interview?.. the VERY first question they would ask is "why the HELL didn't you work during your vacations?".. and i'll have to explain why and it will look real bad coz it will seem as though i'm making excuses and i won't get that job and it was happen over and over for every interview and i will never ever get a job. this is what is supposed to happen.. theoractically. realistically speaking, i'll prolly get so desperate i would try to get a job at Macs for 4 bucks an hour just to get some god damn experience.

*sigh* somewhere between my last post and now, i got depressed. don't even know why. maybe i'll go on a test taking rampage.. retail therapy is what i can't afford now..



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hmmm. the Animatrix turned out pretty bad. *cough* it was soooo boring that i started squirming in my seat and disturbing Melvin in less than.. 20 minutes into the show. i mean.. it would cause you to have second thoughts about watching Matrix Reloaded. really. it was that bad.

all in all.. yesterday was spent at Orchard.. had lunch at yoshinoya with Melvin, watched Animatrix ( Jeremy was LATE in meeting us), had dinner at yoshinoya *wrinkles nose* again. well.. Jeremy wanted to have yoshi.. *shrug* and i was not feeling particularly picky. for once. *smirk* then while Jeremy went to lose himself in Kino, Melvin and i went to coffee club.. i just love the Iced passion tea *beams* By the time i got back, it was what.. nine.. *blah blah blah* pretty much about it. *shrug* i have nothing to type. so i'm just "prattling".. that's pretty much what i do every night... babble nonsensical, insignificant stuff on the phone..

it's about time i went on a diet.. i'm getting fat.