I erm... went to get my hair chopped today. a good 3 inches or so. its now just brushing my shoulders (well most of it is.. its layered in this really unusual way.. side bits are really short but its still kinda long behind) and sticking out in all sorts of weird directions. AND i finally went to get my eyebrows done *sighs in contentment* i DID call Lianne to check if she was free, but she was.. uh.. still asleep when i called at noon so i went by myself. ALMOST went for a wax as well.. decided against it coz erm.. well, i had 2 bucks to my name. kinda. no QUITE enough for a wax and i didnt want to call Melvin and "borrow" his card. hee.

Just a personal note to my erm.. boyfriend. ( feels funny. that title. nvr called him "boyfriend", he's always been, well.. Mel.) I'm sorry. I dont know what's up with me. The mood swings have been horrid, i know. And you've been even yelled at for breathing too loud, or something like that. We're too young to make any serious promises. You're right. *shrug* You can't give me the stability i want and need now. *wrinkles nose* TOo bad now aint it? just a matter of who decides to give up first.

Pffft. ignore most of that. I dont even know half of what i'm typing. Am a terribly confused girl here.

My speakers are screwed up. The music sounds.. erm.. hollow and echo-ey. i dont know whats wrong but its pissing me off. something tells me i'll be buying new speakers soon. *looks around* anyone willing to erm.. donate to my speaker fund?

BAH. its ten plus am EDT. the DAOC servers should be up, but they're not *growl* i want to go play my bard... btw, i called my bard Alyrianne. i think its a LOVELY name.. french name for Lyre actually :) and I got myself a new hero. well... a heroine ( considering she's well, a girl) called Lrysha. my guild in the game is more or less dead.. i doubt i'll be returning to the game after the end of this month.. (mainly coz melvin's bank acct is gonna be closed... and well, he IS the one paying the monthly gaming fees....) BAH. well, maybe i'll play EQ2 when it comes out, if melvin plays. Or play Worlds of Warcraft, if eugene decides to play that. Since neithers' confirmed yet... hell... if neither of them are playing, i'm gonna play the SIMS2 with Lianne. then we can play sims online *beam*

To Urram and Finn and Noane, if you guys are reading this, i miss you guys terribly. keep in touch ;)

Desterately in need of

a) A diet

b) Exercise

c) Motivation

*pinches layer of fat on tummy* i've got bits that jiggle whenever i move.. *cough* Is that too much info darlings? *giggle*

I wish i could dig up enough energy to do things.. just been.. ~bleh.. you knoe.. that ~bleh feeling. like you dont feel like doing anything.. talk to anyone.. I havent even been logging into DAOC much. nor have i been reading any of your blogs. I apologize.

I'm mighty bored.. havent been doing anything much except watch movies. Caught shrek2, which was fantastic, and that harry potter show, which was.. alright. Ron remains my fave char. *giggle* Wonder what will be the next show i'll catch.

I wish I could talk to you guys the way I did before. I dont think this.. feeling will be permanant. this.. feeling of isolation. There's so much to say, yet.. it doesnt seem to matter. I miss you guys. all of you. lianne and jenny and etc. Should get back to being myself soon. i hope.

Eugene's gone to cambodia for volunteer work apparently. he came to pick me up for lunch on.. erm... ( cant even remember when).. erm.. sunday i think. and he left on.. uh.. monday. don't ask me.. some ppl just like to do volunteer work in some underdeveloped village.

I wish some of you would leave me alone. Dont you understand that when i refuse to answer your calls ( which come once every few weeks), and i only answer them when I forget to take note of who's calling.. dont you understand that it means i dont wish to talk to you. not now. not ever. nor do i appreciate the "so what are you doing now?".. "where are you"... "who are you with"... look DUDE. it NONE of YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS. ANd you seem to have forgotten that i told you last year to stop calling me and leave me alone damnit. not that you read this. but i just wanna yell to all.. YOU are a LOSER. i DONT want to be friends with you. i dont want to talk to you, much less be SEEN with you. AND i regret the day I first met you dude. you are the lamest. biggest. loser. I have ever met on this bloody miserable planet.

i.feel.fat

*whine* my feet hurt. they feel sandpapered and bruised... AND i seem to have lost my legs somewhere along 6th avenue... can't feel their presence at all.

went for a 'walk' with Lianne this afternoon.. we walked from her place, up to sunset way... past King albert's park and then up bukit timah... THEN to that gelato place at 6th avenue. Right now, i'm just about to keel over and die. we walked back to her place after a gelato treat.. up 6th ave. Blistered feet are not my kinda thing. I'm about 3 shades darker coz of the bloody sun.. but guess its all worth it *laugh* Li and I had a lovely time talking about various stuff.. and we burned some calories ( i would like to think)

I need a foot soak. fast.

went ice skating with Vyn today. *laugh* had lots of fun.. i did at least.. coz i've never gone ice skating prior to today *hides*. The skates felt really.. weird and heavy. heh. i went on the ice and immediately grabbed Vyn coz i almost lost my balance and the ground looked very cold and wet. In the end, i went round the rink with right hand on the railing and Vyn holding my left. *laugh* quite miserable. I was confident enough to let go of the railings after the first half an hour.. but the minute Vyn let go, i panicked. and fell. *shiver* cold! He had to haul me up.. *laugh* then i held on to him for dear life while whining that my hands felt numb coz it was too cold. He wanted to change gloves with me coz his were still dry and warm.. bah. i told him there was no need coz chances are i'll fall again and end up with wet gloves anyway.

was fine after an hour.. i actually moved a little instead of being dragged around.. heh. Was still very wobbly though. Then this guy came from behind and smashed into me.. *growl* I kinda went sideways right into Vyn. Thank goodness Vyn held on to me else i would have fallen. I was clinging onto him like a leech for the next few minutes though. *laugh* dont think he was very amused at all.

I left that place with wet jeans, aching legs and ankles and numb hands. But it was fun. *giggle* Vyn agreed I needed more practice.

After the ice-skating, we went for the LOTR exhibition, which i thought was a bloody waste of 20 bucks. Was alrite.. not too bad. The only interesting bit was the section on how special effects were done. Was shivering throughout coz my jeans and jacket were wet. *mutter*

The day went by really fast for some reason.

Time to go play games.. see ya.

Went to watch "Troy" today. *wrinkles nose* Brad Pitt has a nice perky looking butt. *collapses into peals of laughter* and Orlando Bloom's character is SUCH a dandy. Felt like reaching in to slap some sense into that peacock a few times. Honestly, that show was boring as hell. Lots of nice tanned buffed guys but that's about it. The fight scenes were unimpressive. Like slash, collapse, slash another one, that person falls to the floor. slash, die. slash, die. you get the picture. and there I was thinking," In other words, their plate armor is useless aint it? i mean, if you see your men falling with one slash of the knife, you'd figure its time you redesigned your armor."

oh, and every important bit of the story is squeezed in the last 10 mins of the 160min show. The Trojan horse didnt appear until the last 10 minutes.. Archilles managed to rescue the girl he loved, the girl he loved managed to kill the evil king, Paris ( orlando bloom) irritated me more coz he was an idiot right to the end - he killed archilles. I mean..after running around the whole city looking for her, Archilles found her at this place with the evil king. She plunges a knife into the evil king's neck, the evil dude dies.. Archilles kills the guards who were about to kill HER. Then while he's trying to carry the girl coz she was on the ground.. that Paris dude shoots arrows at him. i mean.. WTF? First Paris runs away from battle like a pansy. then he shoots the guy who rescued his cousin. I walked out of the cinema muttering to myself that Orlando Bloom's character should have died. that pansy.

Had to spend HALF an hour in Plaza Singapura's carpark after the show. WHY? coz my DEAR boyfriend forgot where he parked the CAR! we had to -search- the carpark from top to bottom. And i didnt know coz I went to PS by myself.. and why? coz he didnt come pick me up! instead he drove jeremy.. *pinches melvin's nose playfully* nah.. no biggie really. *giggle* considering melvin made up for the whole thing.. *giggle* lets leave it at that.. *sparkle*

*blinks blearily* i'm sleepy. goodness knows why.. Was in bed till 10am and had to force myself to get out of bed in case I fall back asleep and have weird nightmares. Currently more tired than usual.. *yawn* maybe i should head back to bed.

I swear I had something to blog about.. slipped my mind though. oh yeah.. I just recieved a call from Genecet asking me to head down for an interview on wednesday morning. And I suddenly find myself feeling very nervous. I mean come on, i've only been to 2 interviews so far and I didnt get through for both. And somehow, its just highly important that I get this job. Its not the money, its the damn experience I need. Any ideas on how to pass a goddamn interview?

Just got back from Dubs *sparkle* I caught a glimpse of adam (Lianne's latest.. uh.. obsession *wink*) .. heh. Was wondering what he looked like. It was dark and he was standing a lil far off so I didnt really catch what he looked like but well.. erm, I noted his hair. *wrinkles nose* Found out from jenny that alph was there so i called him to hug and say hi :)

Actually i wanted to head to dubs coz i wanted to see Li and Jen.. and i wanted a baileys. AND i wanted fries. heh. was all lovely. I had all i wanted AND i had an apricot brandy, which was very smooth. Melvin couldnt drink *MUAhahahaha*....*sparkle* so nice of his dad to let him have the car today. i DO love being driven around so. He had a mocktail.. a PINK mocktail called Pussy foot ( jenny's recommendation) - it looked like strawberry milk. The poor guy was whining coz he wanted a beer.. lol.

The drive wasnt too bad.. finding a carpark space was a bitch. He didnt get into any accidents.. the car only died twice in the middle of the damn road. heh. not too bad. He was asking what time Li and Jen knocked off coz if they knocked off early he'll drive us all back.. *laugh* pity. And no. we didnt make out in some dark carpark. The thought did cross his mind but.. uh.. no thank you.

I'm thinking maybe i shouldnt have had that apricot brandy. like you guys should know how bad my alcohol tolerance is. even now the words from the comp are a .. lil.. erm.. kinda jumping out at me.

alritey.. that pretty much sums up my day.. time for me to go play my elf.

*sniff* game servers will be down till 11pm. which explains why i'm here blogging. heh.

The rings Melvin and I bought didn't turn out too bad.. my name looks sooooo pretty on the ring *happy bounce* I did mention to melvin that its a very good way to identify dead bodies.. *cringe* it's for our names on it and all.

Went to catch Van Helsing yesterday.. the show wasn't too bad, much better than hellboy. There was a true babe in the movie... even I was drooling. it was like, " Her figure! I want her figure! she looks so good in tight leather.. Ooo *drool*". The guy who acted as her brother was hot *grin* very hot. Dont ask me for names coz i really don't know.. but yeah. Catch the show for the babe if not for anything else ( I do realize that the sentence sounds like what a typical guy would say, but.. you get my point.)

Was at holland V with jenny and lianne just now. Had fries and ice-cream and salads ;) was lovely. Erm. went for baileys after.. that was alrite too. *sigh* getting poorer by the day. I'm seriously wondering if i should even watch 50 first dates with them on monday. SERIOUSLY very very poor now. i'll sit on it and let you girls know :)

Its been quite awhile since my last post.. at least, it sure feels like it.

I havent been going anywhere really. most of the time staying in to play games, or meeting Jeremy and Melvin at parklane to.. uh .. play games. heh. *grin*

maybe, just an aoology to all my friends out there. I know I havent been free for all of you. But I need the memories. I need to accumulate those memories to sustain me for the next few years. I miss you jen. And Lianne. And eugene. And vynnie. Excuse me for isolating myself for the next few weeks. Sometimes, I dont think I can even survive past mid-june. It's been putting a strain on me and for most, i dont even feel like i am myself. I havent been sleeping well. Even though I get off the games by 1am coz i'm really tired, I lie in bed till 3.. or 4.. before i drift off to a sleepless slumber. Then i wake up at 8am, and fail to sleep again even tho i try.

It's late. I should head out already. We're going shopping for rings today. hopefully that will be enough to sustain us.

For once, i didnt mind being caught in the rain.

*sparkle* It's hard to grumble when someone passes you a sweater and vainly attempts to cover your head with a comic book while walking in a slight drizzle to a far away bus-stop. ( it's a 10min walk with NO shelter mind you.) It's hard to mind the sudden downpour upon reaching the traffic junction, when all he does is to hold you with his free arm and try to keep you warm.

I think it's prolly coz I've nvr felt warmer. or safer. walking in the rain. At least I don't concentrate on the "#&@%&#! I'm Cold and Miserable coz of this (@*&#&$ rain." But yes, for once, I didn't mind being caught in the rain.

Watch

As my world collapses around me.

Watch

As the stars in my sky die one by one.

Watch

it's hard to carry on. esp when the guy you love is leaving for sydney in 6 weeks. And one of your oldest, bestest friends leaves in 2 months.

Watch

as i lose the 2 most impt ppl in my life.

If in the morning when you wake,
If the sun does not appear,
I will be here.
If in the dark we lose sight of love,
Hold my hand and have no fear,
I will be here.

I will be here,
When you feel like being quiet,
When you need to speak your mind I will listen.
Through the winning, losing, and trying we'll be together,
And I will be here.
If in the morning when you wake,
If the future is unclear,
I will be here.
As sure as seasons were made for change,
Our lifetimes were made for years,
I will be here. - I Will Be Here by Steven Curtis Chapman


Its been a boring day. can't wait for tomorrow.

exams are finally OVER!!!!

now.. i have to type very slowly coz i just got back from doing my nails *sparkle* Jen and I went for a french manicure and my nails look VERY nice *happy* i only hope they last long enough.. as in.. not scratch or anything.. till like maybe 2 weeks later.. after i'm done showing them off to everyone *bounce* Many thanks to Jenny for the subsidy, *beam* my nails look pretty *gush* And yes alph. Jen said you said it was porn star manicure. *snort* i think its nice though. I really hope it'll last. I've been looking at my nails for the past hour or so. they're so nice now *gush* and i hope they survive the suana coz i'm going to a steambath thingy on sunday morning.. if they spoil during the steambath or something, i'm SO gonna cry.

May be meeting vynnie on monday.. not sure as yet. *pause* i gotta get myself a DIY french manicure kit soon. even though i so suck at applying nail polish.. i gotta try at least.. its SO nice *gush* *pause* right, back to Monday. I may be going to catch a movie with vyn. would be nice.. been some time since i saw him. And i havent seen eugene in AGES. so i gotta arrange something with him too.. and Lianne! we GOTTA arrange something. OH wait. oh bother. i have to head down to science park to uh... look-see look-see coz i'm hoping to find an internship this hols. bother. maybe i'll drag vynnie with me. bah. we'll see.

*beam* i GOTTA show vynnie my nails. maybe i can convince him to get HIS buffed *grin* and Melvin too.. LOL. then again, I have to convince melvin to try waxing *snicker* one thing at a time. Sooner or later i'm gonna convince all my guy friends to go for manicures and spa treatments and stuff like that. *laugh* that WOULD be fantastic. *beam* *prod melvin* how about a facial dear? *hint*

I scored 92¼% on the classic 400 Point Purity Test!

Take the test here!

nicked from Lianne:

FIRSTS
First girl best friend: Calista. In Pri one. she was my best friend but i couldnt stand her. *wrinkles nose* complicated really. Doubt she even remembers me now.
First guy best friend: Eric, from secondary school. He was my best "big brother".
First date: *ponders* Uhhh.. yongjia? wait a sec.. maybe not.. BAH i can't remember.
First break-up: Yongjia. Dumped him in a fit of anger. long story. Let me retain some dignity and not go there.
First self purchased album: Backstreet cd i believe. was it a self titled album?.. i think so.
First funeral: One of my classmate's Father's funeral. I can't remember his name now.. but we were in secondary school. Oooo last time i saw him he was one of those ticket collecters at PS cinema.
First pets: I had.. a pet grasshopper! and turtle things.. terrapins, i think. AND a cat called jumpy who had to go *Cry* ooo and lots and lots of chicks which never did made it big enough to be eaten. thank god.
First piercing/tattoo: Ears. No tattoo. don't like pain much thanks.
First enemy: *ponders* Ting Ting. In primary six. i downright hated her. she's alrite now.
First play/musical/performance: Does Cinderella in primary school count? if it doesn't there always is the multitude of performances in secondary and JC....

CURRENT

Current girl best friend: *shrug*
Current guy best friend: Vyn and Eugene tied.
Current marital status: Attached. Not married. Not engaged. err.. semi-available? *giggle*
Current song playing: Unforgiven 2 - Metallica. Don't ask.
Current thoughts: *sigh* exams.. and little stuff here and there. Why do i always have problems letting go of things.. etc.. think i'm turning into my mom.. etc.
Current taste: Orange juice.
Current emotions: Hurt, confused, contradictory ( why? i dont want to need people. yet i do.), tired, hollow, defeated.
Current status online: i believe Justin just msged me on icq *frown* should i even reply?
Current fav. person: Melvin
Current wonder: Why am i still alive?..
Current instrument played: Eeek... i miss my piano... *cry*
Current need: Someone to be here. always.

LAST

Last cigarette: it makes me inordinately proud to be able to say never. haha.
Last kiss: this afternoon
Last good cry: Last night.
Last movie seen: Hellboy. the movie was really lame. but really sweet.
Last beverage drank: hot chocolate *grin*
Last food consumed: Some.. dessert. Ching erm.. tang? Ching tang? *mumbles*
Last crush: Oh god. erm. Vynnie? *ducks*
Last phone call: Melvin. Called me just to whisper sweet nothings. *gush* *cough* excuse me.

Last tv show watched: Oh dear.. when WAS the last time.. oh WAIT... i watched tv this afternoon! channel news asia i believe. while waiting for Melvin's turn for his x-ray *mutter*
Last time showered: this morning.
Last shoes worn: my ah-lian heels *prod lianne*
Last cd played: You know.. now that you mention it.. i left all my cds at mom's place *wails*
Last item bought: *blink* erm. Dinner? oh wait. Melvin paid for that. Erm. a cookie i believe.
Last annoyance: Alphonsus' nick on msn. it irritated me somehow. got him to change it tho *grin*
Last disappointment: About.. half an hour ago. I dont want to talk about it. Life just dishes shit out to me.
Last ice cream eaten: ABout 5 minutes ago.. cadbury chocolate chip icecream. *happy grin*
Last time wanting to die: this morning?
Last shirt worn: some black top.
Last website visited: Lianne's.

I thought the wave of depression would wash off this morning. It didn't. Excuse my absence from here until it does.

Every once in awhile.. the past comes and haunts me. It comes and leeches my strength away.. makes me wonder why i'm even alive. Then I wonder if things would have worked out differently if i had chosen another path. Death is an empty thing. At times, i'm glad that my many attempts to end my insignificant life have failed, for I would be unable to experience the many joys bestowed upon me. Yet, every once in awhile, it certainly feels as though Death didn't claim me so as to mock me, and let me continue my existence so i may suffer.

The choices I have made. The things I used to do. I wish I could undo, at least some of them.

All day I keep from falling apart
But at night when the sky gets dark

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
I reach for you
I reach in vain

Stop, Stop haunting me
It should be easy

Tears from the moon
Fall down like rain
but tears from the moon
can't wash away the pain

you are darkslateblue #483D8B

Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy. Your saturation level is medium - You're not the most decisive go-getter, but you can get a job done when it's required of you. You probably don't think the world can change for you and don't want to spend too much effort trying to force it. Your outlook on life can be bright or dark, depending on the situation. You are flexible and see things objectively.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

Heh. blue. how nice :)

Yesterday's chemistry paper was open book. I forgot to bring in the periodic table. Didn't knoe what the m.w of lithium was. I did 2.5 questions out of 4.

Today's Molecular Biology was 40 mcq questions. I could do 7. I didn't study Prof Low's notes ( can't STAND that guy) and concentrated on Prof Philippa's and Prof Chua's. Most of the questions came from Prof Low's section. The 7 I could answer came from Prof Philippa's. Prof Chua's questions were so confusing.. didnt know what she wanted.

*familiar "death" song plays in background*

Whats the worst time EVER to have a power trip? I can tell you when.

I was in the shower. Got all lathered up when the lights flickered and went out. And suddenly I was all soaped up, stark naked and in total darkness. Told myself not the freak out.. flashes from all the horror shows i've watched didnt help i can tell you... I took a deep breath, shut my eyes and stepped under the running water to wash the soap off.. of COURSE... since it was a POWER TRIP.. the damn water turned cold in just about 2 seconds. That was when i screamed.

Papers start on tuesday. i'm barely halfdone for Molecular bio.. and just about 1/2 done for Psych. I havent even read through my chemistry. what went wrong this sem? Plus I just may fail my genetics coz of my screw up for the project. I actually finished that project early. But i handed it in late. Can u imagine that? *cry* I thought the lab closed at 6pm.. i got there at 5.30 to find it closed.. so i slid it under the doors and email my prof.. he replied that the lab report should have been handed up before 12noon.. *cry* Plus, if my report gets lost ( coz i just slid it underneath the door....).. yeah.. i'm gonna fail coz the proj is 30% of final. *sigh* I dont know if i should laugh or cry. I mean, it does seem a little funny in a weird way.. *sigh* just shoot me..

MAn. i'm SOoooo tired. Got the the library at 10am.. stayed there till 4.30pm.. finished one miserable chapter of psych and about 1/6 of molecular biology. i should finish 1/3 of molecular biology tomorrow.. plus one more chap of pysch. *cringe* that would leave me... 9 more chapters of pysch.. or 10. about there. I actually studied Prof Philippa's section of molecular bio so i would understand her tutorials. so i think that one would be a breeze ( after all, i DID pay attn during her lectures.. mostly anyway).. no matter how i look at it, i'm still screwed. i know u guys have no idea what i'm talking about.. but i'm trying to keep track here.. so bear with me.

and i have to find time to head down to science to hand in my project... *frown* probably on thursday? maybe Wednesday? oh wait. that's tomorrow. AAACK! today is TUESDAY?! already?! i have 6 days more? Nooooooooo...... *pulls hair* i can't finish it all in 6 days! AAACK!!!

i knoe this is gonna look really weird.. but i would like to announce that *drum roll*

I've Finished My Lsm2202 project Report! Woooohooooo!!

Went to watch "passion of the christ" just now. *cough* Like the minute I reached the cinema, i knew i had made a wrong choice deciding to watch it TODAY at suntec city.main reason being : this church booked 3 cinemas full for its members for the 5.30 show. I looked at the big crowd and shuddered. Went through with the ticket buying (even though they were lousy seats) before i chickened out at the thought of being surrounded by *snort* Christians. Went for the 5.15 show in the end. you knoe, i kept asking myself WHY the hell would i wanna watch it.. came up with a couple of reasons.. first being.. well.. everyone's talking about it.. Second, i know melvin wants to watch that damn show. I would honestly rather watch Hellboy.

Oh well. doesnt matter. i went in, watched it and managed to keep myself from snorting throughout the movie coz i was cringing behind Melvin's windbreaker. They didnt put it at M-18 for nothing ( i got asked for my ID again.. *rolls eyes*).. it was gory.. bloody.. ( which was WHY i spent half the show with my eyes shut ).. I think the best part of the show was the bit where the poor dude was carrying the big cross and he fell and his mom went to help him. Very nearly cried for that scene. Other than that.. it was pretty alrite. I raised eyebrows when i left the cinema and i saw this guy leaning against the wall dabbing tears.. *rolls eyes* then I turned to Melvin and saw that his eyes were puffy. *suffering sigh* come on GUYS. I didnt cry. I dont even see whats there to cry about. There weren't any scenes that rendered crying. the whole movie was just bloody and looked very painful. I'm gonna call Eugene and rant. what is WRONG with people nowadays?

Stolen from Lianne, who stole from Sarah ( i think ):

10 important things in my bag:
1. wallet
2. handphone
3. mascara
4. lip balm
5. Eyeliner
6. a few pictures
7. essential oil.. scent thingy.. dont ask. i use it as backup perfume.
8. eyelash curler!
9. Calculator ( yes i carry it around with me.)
10. a pen

9 things I really want right now:
1. my swollen eye to get well.
2. a spa treat!
3. money.cash.dough. u get the picture.
4. a make over
5. a manicure
6. good grades for the damn exams ( 11 days more till 1st paper)
7. i want to be able to concentrate on studying. i do! *looks at notes*
8. a new handphone
9. a gazillion million dollars! ( wait a sec. does that fall under cash?)

8 of my favourite foods:
1. chocolate!
2. chips
3. NICE pizza. not the pizza hut ones.
4. medium rare steak and the works.
5. Ice cream...
6. Fruits!
7. Cookies... chocolate chip cookies... like the subway ones.. heh.
8. Subway SAndwiches!! ^5 jen

7 of my closest friends:
1. Lianne
2. Jenny
3. Melvin
4. Eugene
5. Glenn
6. Lucas
7. Yewzhen

6 of my favourite movies:
1. LOTR
2. Thumbelina *grins at Lianne*
3. Butterfly effect
4. fifth element
5. Parent trap
6. Natural city

5 things in my room:
1. a bed?...
2. Mirror..
3. a dressing table of sorts
4. pillows? lots and lots of pillows!!
5. erm.. clothes?

4 things I ate/drank today:
1. noodles..
2. Yong tau foo things
3. tea
4. white fungus with red dates.. wasnt fantastic. Its those 7-eleven ones.

3 things I can't live without:
1. music
2. ( this is going to sound sappy.. ) Love
3. True laughter.. those that come along when you feel really happy. else life wont be worth living *prods Lianne* ( chocolates li? )
2 things I usually read:
1. currently, my damn notes
2. fantasy.

1 person I can't forget: ( i wont answer this.. mainly coz i can't and won't forget anyone that has made a difference in my life.. Lianne, Jenny, Melvin, Melvyn, Ruby, Fongky, etc etc etc )

was woken up at 5.30am when the person upstairs dropped something onto the floor...For some reason, i failed to slip back into slumber, so i just lazed in bed.. then at 6.30am, a blast of heavy metal flooded my room from downstairs.. *growl* I gave up trying to sleep just about 15 minutes into the screaming male vocals and guitars.

The world hates me.

no time to blog. not enough time to study. exams in 2 weeks. AAcccckkkkk!!!!!

*laugh* it's been just about 2 weeks and I have yet to print out the photos from dubs. *ponder* i HAVE to make my way down to some photo developing place soon..

I bought new jeans last night ( finally ).. the only drawback is that i won't be able to wear it if i put on more weight.. low waist jeans and a tummy do NOT go...Come to think of it. maybe buying it wasn't such a good idea after all.. i'll have to walk around holding my fat stomach in *cringe* and when i sit.. *shudder* oh well.. *shrug* who cares. i like the jeans.

i'm so proud of myself! Finished one whole lecture's worth of notes yesterday *beam* of course... if i continued at that rate i wont be done studying in time for the paper.. *wince* Maybe i'll be able to finish another one today. JUST maybe.

about time i did this.. up on Lianne's site and Jen's site as well. some.. duo quiz. where you describe both yourself and your dream guy apparently. here it goes..

Me/My Dream Guy

1. Hair color? black / slight highlights are fine... but i dont think i'll want one with a mopful of bleached blond hay that used to be his hair.

2. Eye color? black / No preference.

3. Height? 1.54m. Or 5'1". / gotta be taller than 1.70m for SURE.

4. Six pack? *pokes self* feels too soft. nope. no six pack. / *sparkle* yes please. well.. yeah but it really doesnt matter THAT much.

5. Long/short hair? Long. / short? medium? just not F4 locks. *shudder*

6. Glasses? nope / doesnt matter... i mean..glasses CAN look good sometimes. really depends on what kinda glasses

7. Piercings/Tattoos? on my ears. one piercing each. no more thank you./ *cringe* can he not? pls?
8. Chest hair? EEK! no! / Uh, hopefully, not excessive. A little's fine.
9. Buff or skinny? plumpish ( look i can console myself right?) / lean! i want my guy LEAN!

10. Straight teeth, gap, or braces? straight / straight. or at least if not straight, braces.. so they WILL be straight-er.

11. Punk/jock/emo/sXe/goth?.. where did casual go? / casual pls.

12. Funny or serious? erm.. half and half i suppose / i rather have a guy who knows when to joke and when not to. funny for most though.

13. Party or stay at home? stay at home. / stay at home..

14. Cook or bake? *cough* can't *cough* i'll set the.. kitchenonfire *cough* / Oooo yes pls.

15. Presence of a best friend? *rolls eyes* *points to Lianne and Jenny*/ Naturally.. just not an ex or anything..

16. A lot of opposite sex friends? not really.. i'm not a very.. social person / a few.. not too many.

17. Outgoing or shy? *sparkle* shy? look i CAN be shy mate. just LEAVE it! / shy. *grin* always have a soft spot for the shy ones.

18. Sarcastic or sincere? sincere! have i EVER been sarcastic *halo* / Sincere of course.

19. Watch chick flicks? duh. / he has to! with me!

20. Smoke? no! EEwwwww! / i will NOT have a smoker sit NEXT to me. bloody air polluters.

21. Drink? yes pls./ not too much, he has to drive. *crosses fingers*

22. Cuss? once in awhile.. normally when i physically hurt myself or do something really embarrasing / I don't mind. Just not when it's inappropriate.

23. Pay for dates? i've never paid on a date... / DUH.

24. Kiss on the first date? nope./ Nope

25. Where would you go to dinner? anywhere with aircon, alrite service and nice food / Ditto.

26. Flowers? never given anyone flowers... / a surprise once in awhile will be.. more sufficient. i dont want to hang dried flowers all over my room.

27. Lay under the stars? *gush* yes please! / of course!

28. Write poetry about him/you? errr.. not my kinda thing / will be sweet..

29. Call him/you honey, sweetie, dear or baby? erm.. yeah. i actually stop using his name and call him dear all the time. / ditto

30. About him: Would he hang out with you and your friends? why not.. i mean.. yeah. some at least.

31. About me: Would you hang out with him and his friends? SOME... yeah.

32. Play sports? SPORTS *spits* nope. / doesnt really matter as long as he aint some fat... blimp.

33. Skateboard? i cant... uh balance / Whatever flips his cookie, as long as he doens't make me sit and watch if he does.

34. Snowboard? it looks fun... could be worth a try. / why not..

35. Play guitar? Nope / doesnt matter

36. Play piano? yesh. terribly.. but yes. / doesnt matter

37. Play drums? erm... no. / doesnt matter.

38. Clean your/his room? *cringe* *looks around at mess* / He'd better.

39. Paint, draw, sculpt? nope / doesnt matter

41. Would you/he sing for him/you? why not? / ditto

42. Use the word dude? Sometimes. / Why not?

43. Use the word tight? Hardly. / Does it matter?

44. What kind of car would you/he drive? i cant drive / as long as it moves and it aint TOO shabby...

45. Would you/he put you/his arm around him/you or hold his/your hands? Yeah. / Yeah.

46. Would you/he dance? cannot.dance. / doesnt matter.. i mean.. if he wants to learn salsa or something it'll be cool. i'll go with him.

47. How often would you/he see him/you? three times a week or something.. at least. / Same goes.

48. About me: Would you want him to get you jewelry? if its platinum/white gold.. real diamonds.. why not?

49. Stay up and talk all night long? yes / as long as its with me.. and not some other girl

50. Say I love you? not very often.. / everyday baby.

thanks lianne. for talk and lunch today *hugs*

helpless.

I can't escape what's going to happen eventually. yet that's what i want to do. escape. and wish that I could lose the ability to feel.. dread, pain, guilt etc.. the bombardment of all those at once is more than anyone can take. I told myself after a night's cry and talking to friends, i'll feel all better today. I woke up just now with swollen eyes and told myself I would not cry, that it was no big deal. People have survived.. why not the 2 of us?.. and the minute I heard his voice on the phone, i started crying again.

After awhile, the reality that melvin may be leaving for australia sinks in. and it sinks in hard. he says maybe this july. but he isnt sure. I should be happy for him. he's going to study after all.. it's for his future. And i should be able to trust him. that he wouldn't stray. that he would go there, and come back to me after 4 years.. and not change too much. *snort* yeah RIGHT. Everyone around me is changing on me and I can't do anything about it. Chances are when he comes back during his hols, i won't be able to recognize him anymore. He'll be some stranger in the body of someone i used to know. netmeet, he says. it doesnt change a thing. it doesnt change the fact that long-distance relationships don't last. it doesn't change the fact that he'll be gone. it doesnt change the fact that i'm not confident at all.It doesnt change the fact that half the time, i'll be wondering what he's doing.. if he's busy dating someone else. If he's got some other girl in his room. No. it doesnt change a thing. I should trust him more. yes. but such is the reality of life.. you cannot expect anyone to stay for you. to remain unchanged and wait for you. I just wish I could tell the tears to stop coming. i'm too tired to cry.. but my tear ducts seem to be hyperactive. i'm running out of tissues. i need to study. i need a pillar of strength. I need.. what i cannot have.

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according to them, i'm not a very emotionally stable person *laugh* maybe there this test IS accurate afterall

I've noticed that the songs i like tend to drive people in the same room as me up the wall. *ponders* i think its because i would always have that few songs on repeat for the *cough* whole day. erm.. day after day. I think this is the 7th time i hear "El Tango De Roxanne" from the Moulin Rouge OST. *sheepish grin* I'm sure Lianne remembers there was this time I played that thumbelina song EVERYtime i was over at her place ( which was practically.. uh.. everyday) and everytime she heard the starting of the song, she would sigh and mumble an "oh no... again?!" *laugh*

My right eye is all swollen up. *sigh* getting worse everyday. oh well.. doesnt really matter. No one's looking at me anyway. btw, i've been dressing really sloppily to class lately. too lazy to pick something nice to wear. Sides, the nice ones crumple the easiest. So i just wear an unironed T-shirt ( borrowed of course.. the bigger the better ).. and dump it in the wash when i'm done. my dress code has gone down the drain along with my predicted exam grades *sulk* i'm just too lazy to even dress up, ya know.

I wish there was someone who could explain the genetics stuff to me.. coz i've no idea whats going on and the next test in coming up next week i think. and the week after is the metabolism test.. which i havent started on. *cringe* and i missed like 3 lectures on lipid metabolism coz i can't wake up. And even when i did wake up in time to drag myself there ( Melvin gives me morning calls for most ).. i would fall asleep in the lecture hall. *wince* 8am classes are NOT my kinda thing. Enuff said... i think i shall go read one lecture's worth tonight. you know, i'm typing whatever i plan to study day-by-day so i can keep track. else I would only discover that i've missed out some chapters the DAY before the paper. or the hour before the paper. trust me. it's happened before.

Exams start on the 13th of <:edit:>march april.. ( why the hell did i type march? pardon the error) <:/edit:>. I realized i have papers on the 13th, 14th, 15th and 23rd. which means, i'll have a ton of time left for the last paper ( about a week).. and no time to study in between the first 3 papers. *frown* Then there is the little problem that by the time i finish the 3rd paper i'll be in such a holiday mood that i wont exactly be concentrating for that week. Have more or less planned out the study timetable. And i've fallen behind already believe it or not. *rolls eyes* anyway, i've decided to try a different study strategy this sem. shall leave the old topics to the last. At least make sure i know the new stuff first. maybe working backwards will help. maybe it won't. we'll know when the results come out. either way, i'm behind time. really seriously behind time.

I had a rather.. long talk with Melvin yesterday about him going overseas to study, or rather, the probability of it. He said something about me going with him. *wrinkles nose* i'm sure that will freak my parents out if nothing else will. But since they get freaked out in reaction to everything i do, i can just imagine the furniture flinging that will result if i told them. I mean, they are my parents.. and I feel obliged to let them know at least.. if i'll be going overseas for a few years. Anyhow, it's only a probability not an eventuality. and i may not go with him ( though he says something about it being standard. whatever that means ). Feels weird thinking about it somehow. Its like, a situation i've never thought about before. *ponders* Pffftt, it's way off anyway.. i mean, by that time i'd already have graduated. I told that silly guy not to think about it coz it's too soon to plan anything. So.. we'll see... about.. maybe a year and half from now? we'll see.

*hugs jen* you really need to chill and meet up with me to study in the library or something. We need each other *grin* and i miss studying with you. Can't imagine how i would pass without our usual 12noon to 11pm study-cum-bingeing sessions *grin* tell Adrienne you have exams in a month and you need some slack. i'm afraid i won't be free on thurs and fridays anymore for the next 2 weeks though. its the only day the whole bench can go to lab and do the lsm2202 project. so i'll be stuck in a white lab coat for those 2 days each week. you can borrow a lab coat and come in if u want though. it'll be fun! i mean, it's open lab and no one is taking attendence anyway... *giggle* and u can help me with my pcr *laugh* just kidding. it's a silly idea... you'll be bored outta ur shoes there.

btw, i've finished that chapter i was working on and doing the next! yay! *cough* of course.. there are like 10 chapters.. and thats only for one module. If i study one chapter a week i'm still screwed. trying!... trying!

Dubs today was GREAT *gush*

we took pics at the studio, which WASN'T great for me coz i looked weird in all of them. Some of the pics at Dubs turned out alrite though. Looked rather oily in most of them. And my eyes look weird coz they're all swollen. rather badly now. They weren't so bad in the morning.. but as the day progressed, they just got more swollen. Jen looked great and usual. and So did Lianne. Will put the link up once Lianne compiles all the photos.. coz there was 3 cameras... *laugh*

We were on the bus, and I suddenly went, "guess what i brought?" And i whipped out my camera.. Thenn Jen dug into her bag and waved her camera around.. then we looked at Lianne ( who fumbled with her bag )... but her camera was whipped out too. *laugh* for some reason we found that vastly amusing.

Sunday Roast was great. I had an iced tea, believe it or not. at a pub. *snort* highly unbelievable, but yesh, i had an iced tea. The hamburger was HUGE. u'll understand when u see the pics.. Jen took a picture with the food... *laugh* my idea actually. I wanted to take a picture of the food... then jen posed. So i just took it, ya knoe.

I had nice hair today. pity the pictures didnt turn out right. Bah. oh well. doesnt matter i guess.. it's not terribly impt. Not as impt as my half read notes on the table ( which i've been at since last week by the way.. the SAME chapter ).

I spent 60 bucks on my hair yesterday. *cough* for a person who is terribly broke... it's quite an amount to spend on hair. *ponders* well.. technically speaking, I did not spend 60 bucks on my hair. Technically speaking I spent about 35 and the rest was topped up by Melvin ( who else, right?) Well, it's all his fault. HE wanted to get a haircut and insisted that i get one too ( to keep him company, he says).. anyhow, i walked in and my eyes were riveted to the "treatment for 45 bucks" column of price listings. I swear all i wanted was a haircut *cringe* then Melvin was like, " if you want it I could subsidise." So i fell for temptation *sigh* It was quite an experience though. The hair cut turned out really nice. And the big steamer thing that was placed over my head for 15 minutes was.. well. hot. but my hair was shiny and nice and I had great hair for about .... oh... 2 hours maybe. before it started curling all over the place again. But at least the hair is still soft now. So i reckon the treatment still works. The curling is just due to the damn stubborness of my hair. I -like- the hairdresser. Her name's Fiona.. and the hairdressing place is really far off. like bedok central. Not too bad overall ( Jenny: cognitive dissonance? it IS 60 bucks and i've never spent this much on my hair..)

Will be headed down to Dub's later with Jen and Lianne. Was tempted to ask Vynnie along.. it IS his birthday today. Ooooo btw, Happy Birthday Vyn!Anyway, was tempted to ask him, but i dont think he'll be keen in hanging out today. methinks he would rather spend time with... a special someone else *laugh* i'm not saying anything coz i dont know for sure. that guy never tells me about his girlfriends.

I went marketing this morning. *waits for the shock to register with u guys* well, I went not because i'm gonna cook u knoe.. i went to get some stuff in HOPE that someone will cook for me *hint hint* you know who u are. A few problems this morning in the market though. First off, i wasn't really sure what i wanted. Second, it was SO crowded. SO hot. and SO wet. I DID discover things in the market were pretty cheap.. the only problem is converting the raw to something edible. *wrinkles nose* we'll see.. we'll see.

*yawn* i -am- terribly exhausted. From what i do not know. i mean, i planned to study one chapter of lsm2202 coz the test is coming up... i ended up just staring at the comp.. with my brain numb beyond belief. As it is, i didnt get any studying done. think i only managed to read ONE page, which is really sad. It's one of those times where I dont feel like doing anything at all.. so its really bad. I can't afford to start feeling like this.. esp not with the exams round the corner.

you know it's relly weird how i keep telling myself that the exams are in a month, yet i can't bring myself to even READ the notes.. JENNY I NEED YOU! when are we headed to subs or the library to study?!

*sigh* and i really have to take note of what we've been doing in lab. the mini project has not exactly been going on smooth. In yesterday's lab, my grp's DNA band refused to show while the other grps have nice bright 800bp bands on the gels *sulk*. AND today, we were supposed to get cDNA from rna (reverse-transcriptase).. and we all thought that the sterile water was "DEPC water", but it was not. and we didnt realise the error UNTIL we transcripted that mRNA and spent an hour incubating it. anyway, we had to redo the whole thing from the start. *growl* and this time, we use DEPC water.. but we had no time to put it in the PCR machine with our first primer... and other benches were already doing their gel electrophoresis.. which is a good hour and half ahead of us *sigh* anyway, we're headed back to the lab next thurs. I really =HOPE= we get at least 2 primers done. *yawn*

really tired now.. if all that i've typed doesnt make sense, just ignore it. i'm not very happy with the miniproj now so whatever i say may not make sense at all.

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*exasperated sigh* I'm over the flu.. but guess what? now i have a cough. A damn freaking Cough. just as i recovered from my cold. Ain't this lovely? *mutter*

*wince* *Rubs bruised arm* you can never guess what happened to me yesterday. As all of you know, the whole of Monday was.. cold and wet.. rainy and all. I didnt have class yesterday yet i had to make a trip down to arts to hand in a survey ( and get paid 10 bucks for it.. like.. i need cash man.).. Anyway, I'm not quite sure how it happened, but my heel got caught in something.. and i kinda fell sideways.. onto the wet ground. Let's see, I was at the Central bus-stop and ALOT of people saw me slip to the floor and drop everything I was holding ( Including my umbrella), so much for trying to keep dry. My hands weren't quick enough to cushion my fall, so I basically sprawled.. right there. next to a bus-stop full of people. and yes, my head conked the ground too. I got up cursing and swearing... *cringe* this guy did help me pick up my file ( and a very soaked stack of paper formerly known as a survey).. i thanked him. i did!.. just not sure if he heard it among the cursing and swearing. So, i walked dripping wet into the cold cold office.. and held up the wet sopping stack of survey questions and apologized to the guy in charge.. The poor guy looked very shocked. he kinda looked at the paper.. then to me.. then back at the.. erm.. dripping wet paper. I watched as he placed the survey next to his printer and turn a fan on to dry it.. *cringe* terribly embarrassing.

After which, I went to Subway at holland for lunch with Jen. *grin* LOVE the steak and cheese man.

Oh.. by the way, that stack of wet paper is still by his printer. I went to his office with yewzhen today and it was still there, with a fan blowing in its direction. For some reason, yewzhen found it very amusing. *raises eyebrow*

I just got back from watching "Butterfly effect". *fans self* LOVELY show! Ashton kutcher ( i think that's his name) did a very good job with that role. The script was great too. I went into the cinema thinking it would be a little like " time machine" but turned out to be otherwise. A show not to be missed!

*sigh* Exams are in 5 weeks.. It's time to start printing out all the stuff i need to study.

Here I go again
Standing in your arms crying
Here you go again
Make me forget everything
You keep me smiling

They say our love is just a phase
That it's just for some days
But I'm going so far
I wanna be where you are
He loves me
He loves me

Here I go again
Calling you every day
Here you go again
Make me forget the longing
I love everything that you say

They say our love is just a phase

Who believes that anyway?
But I'm going so far
I wanna be where you are
He loves me
He loves me

Here I go again

Standing in your arms crying
It starts all over again
Baby, I love you
I wanna be where you are
-- M2M "Wanna be where you are"

I made myself go to the clinic this afternoon. Primarily because i have a 9am test tomorrow and I really cannot afford to be kept up all night by a blocked nose. The doctor gave me some tablets and nose drops. The drawback about those tablets is that they make me act dopey. it says on the label , " may cause drowsiness".. not "dopeyness".. so why do i find myself acting all dopey after taking the pills? perhaps those 2 are related in someway. you think so? like they both start with a D and stuff.. *frown* k.. i must warn you that I took another dopey nose clearing pill just 10 minutes ago, so the effects should kick in soon ( if it hasn't already). So i shall make my blog short in case i say things that .. that... *blank* oh dear. pill definately kicked in.

shall stop blogging here for safety reasons *wink*

I had planned to attend the 8am lecture today.

Unfortunately, my sinus chose to give me problems last night, which deprived me of much needed sleep.

I only fell asleep at 4am.

And that resulted me in having to choose between
a) sleeping for 3 hours and going to class ( and fall asleep anyway)
b)getting enough sleep but missing 4 hours of class

I chose (b)

As it is, i just woke up and i'm very annoyed with myself coz i really need to stop missing classes.

*growl*

I missed psych lecture again.

Melvin passed his flu to me =( As a result I was sniffing the whole day and sneezing and moaning about how sick i felt. I managed to force myself to attend the 8am lecture.. and take the molecular bio test at 10am. The test was 1.5 hours long.. during which, i used up all of yewzhen's tissues. *wince* By the time Pysch lecture started I was groggy and.. well, sick. And buried under a mountain of tissues. I left the lecture hall halfway thru the lecture coz i couldn't take it anymore.. Came back, popped a pill and knocked out. Now that i'm awake, i'm -still- groggy. and my nose is STILL blocked. AND i'm still running a temperature. what's worse, my voice is sounding so nasal and hoarse that if i called you now, you'd mistake me for a guy.

I'm supposed to meet tim on saturday to pass him some notes. Figured i could just meet him to pass him notes... then he called today and asked if i wanted to watch "big fish" *wrinkles nose* i'm not really interested.. and his next sentence was, " i'll ask shan shan along.." well, that just put me off the idea of watching the show... like HONESTLY. i don't wanna play gooseberry ( though i just heard from yewzhen that shan shan has a rather cute boyfriend.. Siewmin saw them i think. but you can never be sure abt these rumors.. that guy may just be a pal, and tim's really her boyfriend, you get what i mean?) *sniffs and reaches for a tissue* damn flu. anyhow, i really don't wanna play gooseberry and melvin's not free on sat to accompany me, ya knoe. i'm tempted to ask eugene to keep me company - but i went out with him just.. less than 10 days ago. and i can't ask vynnie coz.. well.. he doesnt know shan and tim. i -could- intro.. but it'll be very awkward. like i said, i think i shall beg to be let off. Shall just meet tim to pass him the notes and scram so he can enjoy shan's company. *wink*

*sniff* damn flu *rubs already red nose*

Well, *sigh* the next test is in a few days time.. i'm not really sure what's wrong this semester.. i have at least one test every week.. ( at least it seems that way).. it's.. week 8 into school term. or week 9. and i've had 5 tests.. not inclusive of this sat's test and another online one due next tue. what's worse, i've only passed ONE fraeking test. got 50% for the metab test. *wince* think i'm gonna fail this semester. *moan* damn flu. * reaches for tissue* this is ALL YOUR fault Melvin! you hear?! YOUR FAULT. *sulk* you owe me a bagel *mutter* *sniff* *whine* DAMN FLU!

"something's gotta give" is a wonderful show *laugh* you guys should go catch it.

hmm.. and i went to the gym today.. heh. according to the figures on the thread mill, i ran walked 3km in 40 mins and burned 100 calories. that amt of calories burnt was immediately put back on after i had a box of rochers though. ~bleh.

been in a perculiar mood lately ( so whats new eh?). i'm not gonna talk about it here.. coz there is no point in talking about it. jenny knows... melvin knows. maybe lianne will understand if i tell her. but for now, i'll keep mum n head to bed..

And welcome to another adventure of " the girl who cannot cook!"

*wrinkles nose* I'm all tired out from cleaning up the kitchen..

see, I was reading my notes and i had this craving for wedges.. and none was to be found. I -did- remember seeing frozen fries in the freezer though, so i figured," hey... can't be THAT hard to fry potatoes!" RIGHT. Being on a diet, i figured i could do my own fries w/o using too much oil, ya knoe. So i went in serach of a frying pan thing ( which i found very quickly, so i took this to be a good sign). I had wanted to coat the pan with oil.. erm.. i kinda poured too fast and the pan was covered in 1cm of oil. then i figured, " what the hell... those were meant to be deep fried anyway..".. so i took this handful of frozen fries and dumped them on a plate before I put the rest back in the freezer. Right. So far so good. I was waiting for the oil to heat up and figured as soon as it does, i'll just dump the fries into the pan and flip them around. NOthing to it. RIGHT. What i did not anticipate was the flurry of oil spurting ALL over the place *sigh* the minute the fries went in, i heard a sizzle, then a crackling sound... and i backed off from the pan.. THEN things got out of control. I was standing in the corner.. not knowing what to do.. i mean, it was HOT oil! i certainly didnt want to walk near that party of dancing hot oil and flip the fries... after the sizzling went down, i ran to the stove and turned off the heat. then i ran back to my corner and stood there for another few seconds to make sure there weren't gonna be any surprises. Surprisingly, the fries turned out alrite. all the time i stood there watching, they kinda turned cripsy golden brown. Which was good. what was bad was the state of the kitchen.. there was.. erm.. oil all over the stove.. oil on the walls.. oil on the floor... on the table.. yep. so i spent like one hour cleaning the place up. had to clean the whole place quite a few times coz it was SO oily. Anyway, i gotta go take a bath now.. wash my hair and all. Don't fancy going to the choir concert tonight with oil in my hair.

And If i EVER mention about wanting to do fries on my own again, shoot me.

*bounce* Just got back from attending the BlaSt! concert. *grin* it was LOVELY. *laugh* of course, i went there just to see Jen perform. To think I almost didn't go coz I couldn't find anyone to go with me. I was telling Jen in the afternoon that I wasn't going because no one would be free to accompany me there and stuff, and she said I should check with Vyn. So i msged him and asked him if he was free.. He didn't sound too enthusiastic about it tho, but i got my way eventually *smirk*

anyway, Jen said to be there at 6pm coz the doors opened at 6.30pm.. so I met Vyn at UCC for dinner at 5.30... Look, all i -wanted- for dinner was a salad.. which was what i got. a garden salad and tropical passion tea ( a whole pot which vyn and i shared).. Vyn had a spaghetti. I think it was teriyaki chicken spag. it was then we realized that the dome at UCC is a lovely place to chill.. *smile* anyway, he was still hungry after the spag so he went to get dessert while i munched on the salad. Then he came back with TWO plates of brownie and ice-cream. I glared at him before whining that i was on diet... and after he coaxed me into having a bite, i was gone. all the time while i was enjoying that warm and moist brownie *drool* and the ice cream... yeah. I was eating and muttering at the same time. In fact, i was reluctant to admit I was in brownie heaven. Honestly, i don't know to love him or to hate him for ruining my diet. I told him so and he smirked and told me to just enjoy it. And we talked about how he was on a mission to make me the fattest girl alive and that he should change his target and try to make jenny fat instead coz i havent lost ANY of that weight i gained over the hols. it IS true you knoe. Whenever I go out with Vyn, he never NEVER fails to tempt me with the sinful food ( which i take - hook, line and sinker).

The doors opened at 6.45pm. At that point, i warned Vyn that it would be cold. He grumbled, of course.. like " why tell me NOW? why not wait till AFTER the concert? Just about as useful anyway. you should have told me -earlier- before i met you. *grumble* no jacket *grumble*" so i offered him my jacket. he refused rather violently and asked if i was trying to spoil his image.. *snort* his words, i quote " what would others think if i was huddled in a jacket and you're shivering there?.. i'd rather freeze man." so i let him freeze. and everytime my hands went icy-cold, i would cling onto his arm. my personal hand-warmer for the nite. *laugh* Once, I got uncomfortable holding his arm and i complained to him that it wasn't comfy. and he leaned to me and asked me, " so how would u like to hold me?" *mutter* i pinched him and said that didnt sound right at all.

Anyway, the performance was great. Think it would have been a great loss if i had missed it. Had to whisper to Vyn that he should stop drooling at the girls in short skirts ( that "intoxicated" one, i think). I liked that one. it's very.. *fans self* HOT. The first dance number was nice too. I can't remember what it's called, but it was based on martial arts or something. very.. interesting. I thought one of the guys was cute. *smirk* i'm not saying which one. The dances were all very well choreographed.. even Vyn, who was reluctant to come, was impressed and he told me so.

After the concert, Vyn and I waited for Jen outside the theatre and.. guess who i saw?! JEREMY~! Never did think he was the kind to watch .. erm. performances.. i mean, yeah. anyway, he said that he had a few friends in blast.. so he went to give support.. he went late though so he was standing throughout. i made him stay near me to intro him to jenny tho. heh. and now.. well.. i'm back. and tired.. was practically falling asleep on Vyn at the bus-stop. guess I should head to bed.. nitez all~

I did a survey yesterday. One of the parts required me to answer a question I was supposed to ask myself -- " Who am I?" and I was supposed to list down 20 answers as quickly as possible and not bother if the answers really made sense. So i did. Then i flipped to the next page and it said to circle 5 statements that would upset me most terribly if I found that that statement I wrote was not true. My first statement was , " i'm a girl." well, i figured I would be VERY upset if i suddenly realized I was a *shudder* GUY or something. so i circled that. A few other very weird statements I wrote that required circling include " I'm a living thing." hmmm. Don't think the people compling the answers would be very pleased with me at all.

*rubs eyes* i'm sleepy...

Went to watch this korean show with Eugene yesterday. Think it's called "natural city". yeah. turned out pretty cool.. i went in not knowing what it was about. heh. then it turned out to be sci-fi.. too much blood and gore for my tastes but the love story behind it was really sweet *grin* of course, eugene thought the director should have concentrated more on the "big picture" instead of the lovey-dovey couple... *snort* guys. but the whole bit abt a cyborg and human in love was -way- cool.. and the stuff the guy did to keep the cyborg girl alive.. *sniff* that was really sweet too.. ending was lousy though. they both died.. but they kinda died at the same time.. and that was sweet too. they died and it was sweet. oh gosh. what am i saying? but yes.. *gush* so.. *gush* i'm speechless. but i love the way the director did the way they died. or the scriptwriters. whatever.

Ooo and i've completed what i'm supposed to do for the lab report..*cheers*

Spent the whole of today with Melvin ( so what's new eh?) Well, at least now his comp has a whole lot of songs now.. I kinda burned 2 CDs over. Currently erasing the stuff on the CDs so i can re-use the damn things. We watched "paycheck" too. Been feeling guilty since i watched it with Vynnie, knowing full well he wanted to catch the show, ya knoe. So i went to D/L it and we watched it today. And i'm gonna remove that show from the comp.. it's taking up space. and for some reason, my right eye swelled up real bad early evening. it itched and i rubbed and the whole eye puffed up so bad the whole eye was nearly closed up.. ya knoe. The swelling's gone down after I was made to put eyedrops ( all that fuss made... not that i mind, but still... *giggle*)

*rubs eye* i can just picture melvin slapping my hand away. *rubs eye* but it itches.. Oohhh... *whine* it's swelling up again! *sulk* how am i supposed to go to school tomorrow?

I've been downloading CHINESE songs! *gasp* *faint* heh. i think i have maybe 5 or 6 chinese songs now.. ROFL. It must be the conversation i had with jenny.. went to get 2 erm.. "grasshopper" songs.. and what's his name.. Jackie cheung? yeah.. 2 of his songs too. and this jap one.. don't ask. Please. just don't ask. it's only a few songs.. as long as i don't start having a huge collection of them ( or start singing along..), i'm still.. uh.. normal. As it is, i realized i dont understand half the lyrics to the chinese songs. Eep!... all those years of studying mandarin down the drain ( hey!~ it rhymes!) . I managed to get some M2M songs and Bananarama and Brian Mcknight and all. So my D/Ling session today wasn't too bad.

*ponders* meeting Eugene tomorrow. just for the afternoon though, coz i have something else on at night - i.e. a date with my halfdone genetics lab report. *beams* i like listening to M2M.. it soothes me. *gush* *cough* pardon the digression.

Went to subway with jenny ( again). you know, she was telling me about this guy she knew. About how his girlfriend would be pissed even if he just talks to another girl. about how.. "possessive" she was. Yet, she expected him to let her go out with whomever she wished.. and all the while i was thinking, " that sounds familiar!" i told jen just that and she thought about it, gave me a worried look and went, " I do that?!" to which my reply was, " no, I do." it's true.. i do. but before you go pitying melvin, i should let u knoe i have my.. uh, unreasonable reasons. *sparkle* i'm not gonna blog about it to the whole world though. my close pals knoe ( and they always tell me one thing which i shall not mention here either.) all in all, there's nothing wrong in being a jealous, possessive girl. In fact, the guy should be worried if his girl didnt even CARE if he was smooching with another. *shrug* depends on how you look at it i guess. ~bleh. what on EARTH am i blathering about?

snitched this survey from Lianne's blog.. oh btw, i got to class on time.. heh. today's lab was horrible though. everyone just pissed me off..
1) my lab partner and I were doing our OD at the comp, we diluted our DNA stuff so our reading was skewed. Wasn't supposed to dilute it apparently. but hell, that tutor told me to. then when i got there, the reading was skewed, so naturally i asked that guy over to clarify.. there was this one other group waiting to use the comp.. and this ASShole labtech was like," hurry up, next grp!" and he was coming in to move all our stuff.. and i was like, " we've only done OD for one. havent gotten to the blue colony sample yet." At that time, my tutor came over and said," oh.. you weren't supposed to dilute it.. try the second one.." then i said, " you JUST told me to dilute it barely 5 minutes ago.." then that ASShole labtech behind was like," Dont do your discussions here... just do it and go." and i was like thinking," WTF? not like we've been hogging the damn thing for 20 mins or half an hour. sides my readings are skewed. FUcking moron. not as if there's a long line of people waiting. bloody moron." of course i manged to grab hold of my senses and not say what i was thinking.. i DID glare at him and as i walked away i muttered something really mean. somewhere along the lines of "rushing for reincarnation aren't you?" .. in Chinese of course. fucking chinaboy.

2) Kay, then we were supposed to prepare 150mL of agarose gel for the electropherosis. So i did. and i used all 150mL for the cast.. then the tutor told me it was too thick.. at that point, i was like, " you told me LAST week to use all 150mL....." coz last week i only used 100mL and he said it was too thin.. sides, the instructions SAID 150mL... *mutters darkly* anyhow, after that, the girls in the other grp were loading the stuff into the wells ( like 2 groups to a gel...) and while they were doing it, they kept on complaining that it was too thick. i just got SO mad after that. i was telling them the instructions said 150mL and i only used all 150mL coz YOU guys complained last week that 100 wasn't enuff. If they wanted to use 100.999mL that's their bloody problem and THEY can do the gel next time, not like i ENJOY casting the agarose gel. i HATE it when people complain over nothing. ALL the other grps used the same volume, concentration etc.. so why aren't THEIRS too thick, ya knoe? why is mine too thick when i do the same as everyone else?

anyhow, as i was saying, the survey is right below.

Last time you cried? can't really remember.. last week.. 2 weeks ago. over something i lost and can never find again.

Last time you laughed damn hard? I cannot remember.. I laughed on Vday while watching that polly show.. but laughed damn hard.. must have been ages ago.

Last time you were pissed? Pissed... how about TODAY? *growl*

Last time you were touched? errr.. too sappy. i shall not talk abt that here..

Last time you had $50 in your wallet? how about the question " last time you had money in your wallet?" THAT one i can answer.. *mutter* the last time i had money in my wallet has to be last week... *sigh*

Last time you did sports? i had my kickboxing aerobicy thingami today.

Last time you won something ? oh god.. erm.. does that SYF comp during JC count? i mean, choir and all.. we got silver i think. totally broke the record of many many years of straight gold *wince* i think our batch was the first to get a silver ( instead of a gold) for.. erm.. 16 years? eep.

Last time you had a lot of fun? i have fun. LOTS of fun? i doubt it.. oh wait. i have LOTS of fun making melvin squeal like a girl. been too long since i did that.. *wicked grin* i'll be sure to make him squeal next time i see him.

Last time you badly needed sleep? erm. you see, i seldom deprive myself of sleep... i think that answers your question.

Last movie you rented? erm.. this one about witches ( in fact this is the ONLY movie i've ever rented) practical magic i think.. yeah.. think that's that title. the one with sandra bullock.

Last movie you bought? Hmmm.. no money to buy them..

Last movie you hated ? carrie2. i swear. that one left a LASTING impression..

Last serial you bought? i don't.

Last cd you bought? cant remember.. ack!


Last song you downloaded? M2M - Pretty boy

Last tv show you watched? moulin rouge..

Last song that was stuck in your head? erm.. soon. that song from thumbelina called soon.

Last magazine you bought? Cleo

Last person you talked to? on the phone with melvin now in fact.

Last person you went to eat out with? Jenny.. subway!

Last person you slow danced with? errr... in sec school.. eric.. or maybe douglas? or maybe.. vynnie?.. nah. ~gee one of those guys who were in my sec school damnit! it's miserable. oh WAIT. heh. i forgot melvin. we had a brief one. didnt last half the song before we got bored. so that doesnt -really- count.

Last person you yelled at? Melvin. he's my verbal punching bag.

Last person you called? Jenny.. at least, attempted to.. her phone was not on..

Last person you saw? errrr... my kickboxing instructor.

Last person who called you? erm. melvin.

Last person who said they loved you? melvin. DAMNIT. sick of typing his name over and over.

Last thing you ate? i had.. a springroll! woot!

Last time you drank alcohol? that time at dubliner's.. oh wait. Nooo... on Vday at cable car. not much tho.. really really mild stuff.

Last thing on your mind? dAMN LAB REPORT!

Last webbie you visited? Lianne's.. where i got THIS from...

Last sms u received from? erm. Joan.

Last sms u sent out to? Joan.

if you've managed to read this far, CONGRATS. coz i got bored typing the damn thing. woot! you made it! *pats you on the back* heh.

Today's goal: to leave the place in 20 minutes so i can get to class on time.

For some reason or other, i've been playing 911 songs lately. Not sure if you guys remember them. Lee, Spike and jimmy.. *wrinkles nose* Jenny thought they were in code red or 98 degrees for some reason. *prods jen* its 911 jen! yeah.. Boybands i used to listen to.. in fact, i really DID like 911 alot. Just that i didnt find anyone to share my enthusiasm with... i mean, Lianne was still totally big on backstreet at that time.. and the environment i was in during my secondary school days.. *shudder* barely one out of twenty could speak proper english, much less listen to english songs. Anyway, Jenny and I were talking about bands/singers we used to listen to.. names that came up were 98degrees, 911, backstreet, emil chau (?), erm.. this chinese boyband "The little tigers" or something like that ( i was in primary school! it's forgivable..), Jimmy lin, code red, mariah carey ( i mean, she was cool, before she went mental..), and some others whose names i cannot remember right now. Ooooo.. right. anyone remember the Echoboys?! *laugh* our "tried and failed" local boyband. I think they released ONE single before they died and fizzled. I remember thinking ( at that time ) that they weren't TOO bad.. raw but not TOO bad, ya knoe. And i actually recorded that one song they coughed up - on cassette - yes, it was THAT long ago. a pity i have no idea where that cassette has gone to.. coz jen's never heard their song and well, yeah. i wanna see if she can listen to the whole thing without gagging. CHeesy sappy lyrics and all.

BAH. now i have TEN minutes to leave else i'll be late for lab. BAH. and my playlist still has 5 more songs.. maybe i should stay until the playlist is done.. then again, if i do, i'll be late. ( for some reason, that reminds me I really should buy a hands free kit soon.).. *throws hands up in air* i GIVE up! *deletes 3 songs from playlist* there. now i can be DONE with my playlist AND be there on time...

it's all psychological, i swear

it's been a pretty productive day ( for once).. i finished my chemistry lab report.. well yeah, like five minutes ago. and i got myself started on utopia once more.. *laugh* it's a silly game which i'm not exactly good at, but i play it when i get bored.

Let's see.. i have 2 concerts to go to next week apparently. Jen's dance gig next wed and the choir one next fri.. hmmm. Well, i can't back out of the friday one coz i've already done the ticket confirmation. i just dont have the cash to pay up as yet. heh. now... lemme try and find someone who would pay for it first.. and i'll return as soon as i get some cash. i mean, yeah, i have 20 bucks in my pocket and i dont get more cash till next erm... month. *wrinkles nose* anyone rich enough to loan me $32 first? ACK! Meng just told me she saw Prof Ali ( in bright orange jersey) and Prof lehming playing soccer with a huge bunch of profs. *shudder* i mean, i can imagine prof ali playing soccer.. but LEHMING? in a BRIGHT orange jersey number 7? oh GOD. *shudder* BAD image. BAD nightmare-inducing image.

I really should read up on my 2102 module.. hmm... yeah. i should. the test is in two weeks and i'm not even entirely sure what topics are being tested on. i'm midway thru chapter 1 of a very thick textbook... maybe i'll even FINISH that chapter today. *snort* i figured if i actually did half a chapter a day, i'll be prepared for the test when it comes on.. erm. 2nd march i think. then again, each chapter is VERY long.. 50pages approx, and there are MANY chapters... lets see.. there should be no less than 10. BAH. i'll go pack the room and continue with my downloading. and read that damn text, of course. I was talking to gary yesterday, and well, he said something that really made sense ( like DUH.. i've never heard him say anything that DOESN'T make sense ). so i better read up abit while i'm still motivated. *reaches for textbook* OOoomph.. heavy.....

The new layout will be up later today i believe. *grin* many thanks to Jenny for all her work on it. yes people, she did the page. i dont get any credit.. *laugh*

*sigh* had another horrible test today. So much so that it totally spoiled my mood for the whole day and I'm not even gonna attend class today. I really should though.. wonder if i should make a run to psych class.. i mean, it's at 2pm.. i still have time.. bah. but i've already arranged to meet Jen.. thing is i dont knoe when she's gonna be done with her stuff.. and if she wont be able to be done till 4, i may as well go for class.. i dont knoe. for some reason, i'm just.. *sulk* not in a very good mood. but then again, i'm seldom in a good mood. *sulk*

today's test was.. weird. i'll pass no doubt.. but it wont be a nice one, ya knoe.

went to watch "along came polly" just now.. melvin and i booked tickets for the 4.30 show.. we were about 15 mins late for the show because of this massive human jam outside of starshots at cine. the management of cine really screwed up by placing that cafe on the 2nd floor and forcing people to walk one big round.. anyway, massive crowd. massive jam. took us 15 to 20 minutes to get pass that stretch outside starshots, so by the time we got up to the cinema, we missed a lil bit of the show.

the show was great *Laugh* i LOVE the ferret! the scene at the end where that guy.. erm.. "Ruben" ate nuts off the floor was gross tho. VERY.

We didnt go anywhere fancy for dinner. hell... we just bought the jappy noodle thingy and the tako-pachi balls at taka and sat on the steps. somehow, i find that much more satisfying then the dinner at some fancy restaurant. all in all, we had a lovely time.. until like.. 8pm coz somehow i started getting moody. dont even knoe WHY. i just -get- moody. Melvin says its coz i LET myself get moody. *shrug* however he sees it, i just can't help it. anyway, STILL overall, it was nice. anyhow, it's like.. 9.45 and i'm back. LOL. well, i'm tired. and so is he. in fact, that dude's fallen asleep already.

i had to tell him several times not to even -think- about getting me flowers. why? coz those ppl jack the price up and weeellll... what's the point of paying 60 over bucks for something that will be rotting and all in less than a week? i mean, flowers are nice. just not on Vday. i DID see this girl carry a HUGE bouquet of ferrero's tho.. at that point, i just nudge and went "hint hint"... *laugh* not seriously of course. putting on weight is NOT what i have in mind. ( so says the girl who just had fries coz of a craving )...

anyway, happy Vday you all. and thanks to those who sent me Vday msges.. sorry i did not reply to most of you.. There is no excuse. just i dont really see the point... its like replying to those CNY or Christmas msges. i just dont see the point

i'm gonna go.. erm.. do something else now. the comp is boring me tremendously for some reason.

*frown* for some reason, i'm actually feeling a lil... giddy right now. not sure why... but i cant seem to breathe properly and everything is blurring up. actually, i didnt come in here to. erm. tell u this.. heh. the page was loading when i had this giddy spike. *takes a deep breath* ok.. much better now, i think.

Currently waiting for genetics lab to start.. this is horrible... i have a test on sat ( which i -can- finish studying for)... but IF i study for sat's test, i wont have enough time to study for TUES test. I figured i would start on the tuesday's test tonight.. and i'll have the whole night tomorrow to complete reading for sat's.. that leaves me... sunday to finish up tue's test. COZ i'm not free on sat and mon. to study of course.

Shumin is.. erm.. well. going off to the lab. i may as well leave with her. another time guys

i spent the whole afternoon at simlim square today. *rolls eyes* melvin wanted to look at stuff there, so i tagged along. it wasnt as boring as i had expected it to be however. maybe it's coz we stopped by a game shop after every few "equipment" shops so i actually have some stuff to look at. so that's one whole afternoon gone.

melvin was on a path of destruction today. destruction of my things *wrinkles nose* I lent him my only -pink- ballpoint pen at the train station, only to have him click the pen so hard that the top bit of the pen came off and it fell onto the tracks. First, i dont normally like pink stuff. so that fact that i own a pink thing means that it really must be nice enough for me to keep it with me. Second, its a ballpoint. Numerous ballpoints have died in my hands only to be revived by other ppl. Meaning, i'll write 3 sentences and the pen dies on me. but when someone else uses that pen, it works. I take it that the angle i hold the pen at is all wrong. but THAT pink pen worked very well for me. it's very hard to find a ballpoint that works for me. so i liked that pen. now it's in the trash coz the top clicky bit has been mangled on the train tracks.

THEN, i saw this really really nice pink handphone cover. ( i knoe.. u guys must be thinking what's with the pink color today...).. i dont normally like pink. Jenny can testify. Irene can too. but that particular shade was nice. So melvin subsidised 40% and i got myself a new handphone cover. then i handed him the original phone cover while i fiddled with the new cover. Next thing i know, he drops the original cover. and that phone pad fell apart. the number bits came out and One number pad became 3. so even if i didnt like the new number pad, there is no way i can change it back now.

we came to the conclusion that pink was his jinxed color. i think i shld be grateful that he didnt drop my phone when its new "clothes" were on. anyhow, i now have a pink phone. very nice. *grin*

bah. tests next week. i'm not a happy person. as it is, i have my notes beside me. and i'm trying to convince myself to study.. well, time to spend more time convincing myself i really should get down to it.. hey wait. did i mention Lianne sent me some of my FAVE songs yesterday? my old fave's from the thumbelina soundtrack and tonya mitchell songs. *bounce* happy now. thanks a HUGE bunch Li.

*pout* Vyn just asked me out to watch a play on Vday... of all days! i mean.. i have to go out with melvin.. *pout* then i was like... "How about the 15th then?" then he said that it was only on 12th, 13th and 14th... but i can't go on the 12th coz my kick-boxing will so drain me that day. plus Thurs is a long day with lab the whole afternoon and all. and 13th (friday) is no good... coz i have a psych test early morning on the 14th ( of all days).. and well.. *sigh* no more play for me.. but he -did- promise that when a good one comes out he'll bring me there..

as for thur's morning apparent distress, it's over now. more or less. i still feel.. a lil achy at times but it's getting better.

Jen, my blog is naked. pls help.

Jen and i went to chinatown.. for curry chicken. only to find the store closed when we got there.. *mutter*

Li!!!! when's our bailey's stayover hun?

*sigh* dont feel like going to school today.. my eyes look puffy and i'm in a lousy mood. you could say i had a bad night last night. old wounds.. were reopened and all. as it is i dont really feel like myself this morning. i have another 2 hours till class and all i want to do is get back in bed and sleep till everything goes away... Oddly, the first person i wanted to call last night was Eugene. but it was what.. 2am and i didnt think he would appreciate a weepy female calling him at that time in the morning. so i didnt. and i had to make myself stop crying coz my nose was stuffed up and i was disturbing the other person in the room.

hmm.. phone call.. don't feel like answering.. sigh..

Yuchen just sent me this via icq. which is weird coz i dont talk to him much in the first place. but its funny. have a read

Yesterday, University scientists released the results of a recent analysis that revealed the presence of female hormones in beer. Men should take a concerned look at their beer consumption. The theory is that beer contains female hormones (hops contain phytoestrogens) and by drinking enough beer, men turn into women. To test the theory, 100 men were fed 8 pints of beer each within a 1 hour period.

It was then observed that 100% of the test subjects:
1) Gained weight.
2) Talked excessively without making sense.
3 Became overly emotional.
4) Couldn't drive.
5) Failed to think rationally.
6) Argued over nothing.
7) Had to sit down while urinating.
8) Refused to apologize when obviously wrong.
No further testing was considered necessary.

you knoe.. there are bound to be differences between people. If there are no differences, we wouldnt be individuals ( which is a scary thought).. some people can tolerate certain things better than others. while others like stuff which people hate or find.. queer. like the guy in my Pysch class, Anthony, who likes erm.. BBQed grasshoppers. dont ask me why. *shudder*

one of the things i absolutely cant stand is walking in the rain. i get all grouchy.. snarly and i bare fangs and claws and all ( while walking in the rain. and AFTER the walk when i'm still wet).. i'll cool down when i get dry. but during that "wet" period, i exhibit the worst side of me. some people cant seem to understand why.. to them.. "its just a bit of rain.. you wont melt".. true. but hell, i CAN have a preference to stay dry right? -and- just coz you can stand it doesnt mean I can. And you cant expect me to not hate the rain. Its like.. if you are serious about something which i'm not, i cant possibly force you to take that matter lightly. Nor can you make me take the matter seriously. not unless you have a bloody good reason and stuff, ya know. debating about it is fine.. but dont expect me to change my preferences. it's like.. like.. forcing a non-believer to attend church.. that poor dude will be like, " what the FUCK am i doing here?... if you exert enuff force, he'll attend church regularly, but it wont make him a believer.

dont know what i'm talking about? its alrite. half the time I dont know what i'm talking about either. anyway, i'm just typing this coz i'm pissed that some ppl are trying me make me the way they want me to be.

just got back from Dubliner

surprisingly not high after 2 drinks and a shooter

weird

was at erm.. that indochine bar yesterday. got giggly after 2 drinks. and half a shooter. dont ask why. ppl always go "half? how do u get half a shooter?" like DUH. u drink half. and have another person drink the other half. like DUH.

hmm.. my images have disappeared.. time to find a new template.. and image host :) until then adios! this may take a month or so.. so.. check back then ;)

found this really really nice article by the cynical tyrant.. to read.. click here

*curses* damn computer. there is something terribly wrong with the comp. I cant seem to attach any files to my mails. ANY file. dangit. my lab partner sent me the draft of the lab report ( which was 90% done.. *wince* ) and i finished it off.. adding things here and there -- which i've found is what i do best. you pass me a half done report and i'll happily finish it. just dont ask me to start one from scratch. anyway. yeah. i attempted to mail it back to her so she can take a look at it and see if it's alrite already.. and i remembered that i can't. *curses* to think i took time off my gaming during PEAK playing hours mind you!.. PEAK playing hours! which is from 9am to 3pm. but PEAK PLAYING HOURS *pulls hair* i should have just played away. damn computer.

and yeah, i'm fine already ( for those who are actually concerned *snort* doubt there are any).. no more fever.. no more sorethroat and no more shivering.

hmm. well. my brains pretty much died doing that last bit of lab report coz she did the result compiling and left the result discussion to me.. *wince* which are not really difficult i think. its the "discuss restriction enzyme sequences and consequences" bit that got me. i was like," what the...?" i still dont know why we have to add reagents in that specified order.. bluffed my wya thru... lol.. hope it makes sense coz i just put in some crap abt enzymes degrading rapidly under mild heat so they have to be added last etc.

*wince* the lab report is not gonna be pretty.

Chinese New Year passed rather uneventfully.. except for the fact i managed to fall sick yesterday.. my whole body just ached and i was freezing despite the warm weather.. so i sat in front of the comp wrapped in a blanket, shivering away. I took my temperature then.. it was just about 38.3 degrees C. Popped 2 panadols and woke up groggy this morning. i guess i'm feeling better already.. but i'm still a lil.. achy. THAT one is prolly due to me sleeping for 12 hours.. heh. slept early last nite, and i managed to wake up only 5 minutes ago.

BAh.. there is a genetic lab report due on thursday and i havent even started on it.. i really should. but all the info is with my lab partner ( who incidently has the same chinese name as i do.. heh).

You knoe.. i just recalled that i was supposed to go out with jen yesterday.. lol. weeellll, i suppose even if i was feeling well we really wouldnt have anywhere to go.. its CNY and most of the shops are closed.

Spent CNY eve afternoon with Vyn.. guess we had a lil catching up to do.. coz i havent talked to him for awhile. prolly a month.. wait.. maybe 2 weeks. oh.. about there. so much stuff can happen in 2 weeks ya knoe. oh right. there is buakua in the room right now.. *drool* but i cant have any coz i'm still a little sick *sulk* OH the temptation! *glares at the bua kua* BAD temptation! Ooooooo.... i want the buakua.. suppose ONE lil piece wont hurt right?.. yeah.. just one..

DAngit. i want another piece of buakua.. erm.. since i already had one.. *take another one*

hm.. had 2 already.. i really should stop.. *takes another piece*

Heh.

isnt it weird.. you listen to a song.. one you havent heard in years.. and u remember stuff. Some happy, some not-so-great. And as you listen to the song, you get this feeling of emptiness. And the chocolates are not helping. now i feel bloated AND empty. the stomach's bloated but the soul is empty. i'd rather it was the other way round.

*sigh* where am i to go this chinese new year?.. go home and visit? bloody unlikely. *snort* i -could- but i'm not extremely interested in getting yelled at. maybe i'll send a new year card home or something. I wonder if i'll end up going out with meng and rene for yu sheng. We were out the other day and rene saw an ad for yu sheng and somewhere along the lines, we were convinced we absolutely had to have one soon. *wry smile*

its barely the mid of jan and i've spent three hundred bucks. help me!.. *sigh* can't be helped.. had to buy lots of stuff.. esp ink. was cheap tho. the printer ink. like 32 bucks for 6 cartridges. 3 color, 3 black. Joanne wanted to get some too. unfortch, they didnt have her printer model. the guy said for Joanne's printer, she can only use those refills.. and that there wasnt any cartridges for her model. and in case you guys were wondering, i didnt spend 300 on ink.. *grin* there were tons of stuff to buy.. clothes.. toiletries.. chocolates ( my only indulgance).. had to pay for the aerobics class.. etc etc. i'm gonna be a really poor student this semester.

1. You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is straight-forward, just tell you he/she loves you.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is stylish.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married, you'll treasure it and your partner very much.

8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as something you can get and trash anytime you want.

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love test

I had my first day of school today. *sigh* No lectures on Mondays at least.. but today was horrible. Psychology.. which is supposed to be the most interesting module.. weeeellll... i fell asleep. AND i brought the wrong notes to the first lecture today. AND the molecular Bio lecturer speaks like a machine gun. seriously. He speaks really really fast for a while ( imagine a machine gun shooting and bullets flying everywhere but none actually hit u - i.e. catch no ball) THEN, he drones for a short while ( think machine gun ran out of bullets.. in process of reloading).. and this cycles continues THROUGHOUT the 2 hr lecture. oh god. save me.