Listening to: Hold Me Now - Wayne Wonder

damn. it took me more than 3 tries to type the "listening to" statement. Just came back from an outing with Jen, Tim and Shawn ( whom i met for the 1st time ).. pity Marcus didnt come.. we had lotsa fun laughing at Tim *beams* I had THREE bottles of hoegaarden. and I Luuuuurrrve hoegaarden now. *pause* well. actually i had 2.5.. coz tim shared the last one with me. Jen and I shared a bowl of noodles.. and we couldnt finish it so shawn volunteered to finish it for us. Tim finished one bowl ALL by himself.. *giggles at Tim* Good boy!

And know what.. i was woozy by the time i finished one miserable bottle of hoegaarden. and by the time i finished 3... well.. it wasn't THAT bad ( can't type straight ).. as in i wasnt drunk or anything. i just peed alot. and poor tim had to keep getting out of his seat so i could go pee.

Anyway. we played card games with Jen's huge cards.. talked about school alot. coz tim and shawn were both freshies *laugh* and they wanted to know which modules to take and which to avoid.

*yawn* sleepy.

Shawn's nice. except he kept saying i looked like and reminded him of his 13 year old niece *wrinkles nose* he said it like.. what,... 3 times? or 4? "you know.. you remind me alot of my niece.. you look just like her! and your demeanor.. so like her!" *mutters* right.

Then we all talked alot of rubbish. Jen and I kept laughing at the way Tim said the word "put" *nudges Jen* "do you want to put? or can i put?" *bursts into uncontrollable laughter* you dont get it? nevermind. private joke.

and tim's "glup" *laugh* AND his chocolate MOUSE! *giggles* I LOVE going out with tim. everytime jen and I head out with him, there're bound to be "make-fun-of-tim" sessions. *innocence* not MY fault he always says the weirdest stuff.'

I tried calling Melvin but he didnt answer.. think he fell asleep.. *hugs melvin* it's okaaayyy...

oh OH.. and after we left the pub, jen and shawn went home. i mean. not together. they went to their OWN homes. I didnt really see the point tho.. coz shawn and tim kinda live in the same area.. if tim was gonna take a cab.. the 2 could share.. but ah well.. shawn wanted to take a bus. so that's his call. Anyway. Jen and shawn went back and Tim and I walked to 7-11 to get chocolates coz he wanted some. ( i had to go with him.. he was supposed to send me home!)
Anyway.. he bought chocs.. and on the way to the bus-stop, we saw... SWENSENS. and being the devil's son, he was like "Oooo icecream.. Cath.. chocolate icecream.. nice.. cold.. sweet.. dont you want some?" i said no.. we walked past the doors.. for about like 100 metres... before i stopped and looked at him. then we turned and walked into swensens. I sobered up abit with the ice-cream *sparkle* we had the topless 5.. shared it coz i didnt want ALL that calories.. esp not after shawn's announcement that a beer had as many calories as a cha kuey tiao.
We talked alot. about our respective love lives. it was.. interesting :) there was something about how sometimes.. expectations are created unknowningly.. and uneccesarily. and etc etc.
Then we ended up taking a bus back to my place coz the bus came while we were waiting for a cab. I was telling him I could come back alone and he could just take the bus back to the hostel, but he insisted. Ah well.. i've no reason to object then *beams* So he walked me to my door. and he went back.
So... not only am I high from alcohol, i'm on sugar high as well. wodnernul. wondeul. w.o.n.d.e.r.f.u.l. yeah. like i said i'm not typing very straight and each sentence took me at least twice to complete. but yes i'm sober. esp after all that ice-cream.

*prances around* thanks tim!

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Listening to: Heaven - Nu Flavour

Something tells me I really need to update my songs.. anyone has any good mp3s to send my way?

I managed to stay awake during physio lecture today, which was good. Then i fell asleep for protein, which is bad. ah well. I dont know.. i leaned back, closed my eyes for 2 seconds to figure out what Prof Chung was saying about 2,4-dinitrochlorobenzene.. then next thing i knew, Joanne was nudging me and the lecture was over. It would have been less embarassing if the class had 200 students instead of 25.

Then i spent 3 hours waiting for Prof Teo to be free so I can ask about some stuff. Could have been worse.. at least I had company for 2 of the 3 hours. YJ happened to msg me at about 12.30 to complain about how he couldnt concentrate on studying and that he was in central lib.. and asked where i was. So I told him i was waiting for a prof at science.. he came over and we attempted to study together. *snorts* yeah RIGHT. He managed to do a whole of TWO tutorial questions and I manage to read ONE page of my physio notes. We weren't talking much.. I spent alot of the time staring into space.. and he spent alot of time talking ( I mean, i tried to listen to what he was saying.. really. ).

And i don't mean to be ungrateful for the company. I mean he was nice enough to come down to science to keep me company ( not that i asked him to.. i msged him that i was in science and he took the bus over without letting me know first. ) I know I'm being absolutely mean.. but thru the 2 hours.. it just struck me how.. annoying he could be. how.. i dont know.. sometimes the stuff he says makes me grit my teeth and try not to beat him up. *wrinkles nose* He's alrite half the time.. really. It's just the other half that makes me want to get up, and take a plane to the north pole just so i dont have to be next to him.

The talk with Prof Teo was.. enlightening to say the least. I'm beginning to see how bleak my future truely is. I was ready to just collapse and die while i walked out of his office. I mean, Prof Teo is a VERY nice lecturer. He explains the concepts clearly.. i love his notes.. very comprehensive. at the same time, he can be SO damn direct. If it's bad, don't count on him to mince his words and make you feel better. He's that kind of lecturer. And I honestly idolize him for that.

On the way back.. while waiting for the bus, i called Melvin. And somehow.. everything just seemed a lil better. *sparkle*

On the bus, I was just thinking about stuff. about graduation. it's scary you know. I mean.. I thought the transition from JC to Uni was bad. But at least i knew approximately what I'd be doing.. it was only a matter of whether I really belonged in the Uni.. coz i've never stopped feeling out of place in the establishment.
But now?.. what am I supposed to do with my life now? Is there anything to look forward to? Kevin was saying "yay, now you can get a job, work really hard, pray for a promotion, retire and then die" Is that all there is in life? it's depressing really. It's like.. I feel like.. I'm about to set sail on this tiny raft.. and i have no idea where i'm going.. no idea how to get to the nearest land mass.. i have no map.. no one with me.. and all i see is the damn ocean. and i'm just petrified about the whole job-finding thing. it's way out of my comfort zone.. and i just.. don't want to grow up anymore.. it's too terrible a thing.

Listening to: Rewind - Nas

I deleted the last post with the photographs.. it was annoying me for some reason or other... maybe coz the whole thing just seems so fake. It's almost like I'm pretending things are alrite btwn Melvin and I.. *blabbers on* *sighs* ah well. Like I've told him, we're like a totally cracked wall covered in Nippon paint and glaze. *bites lip* you have no idea what i'm talking about do you? it's alrite.. *laugh* he does and that's all that matters.

My old epson printer died on me so i "unwrapped" a lexmark one that had been sitting around in it's box for the past year or so. unopened.. brand new. just.. well.. had a really dusty box. I LOVE the prints it's done.. it's way better than the epson.. BUT it's an ink guzzler AND it's cartridges are 50 bucks each. *ponders* I wonder if i should just spend 9obucks and get a lousy canon/epson one and pay 20bucks for 3 catridges instead. sure would save me alot in the long run.. i mean.. 110 bucks would get me what.. 2 lexmark cartridges? *rolls eyes* But i DO like the lexmark one.. it looks pretty *beams*

If Laichun doesnt reply my mail by tomorrow, i'd be tempted to scream at her. I need her confirmation for calculations before i can proceed with the protein lab report. which is due next tuesday. Sounds like it's a long way from today aint it? NOT when I have a test on wed.. another assignment on thurs.. Projs on fri due and all.

To Jen: Think i should try to find my old self back?.. *sighs* after that conversation we had.. been feeling weird ever since.

To Tim: what do you mean i've been "nerdified"?! *thwarps timothy*

ah well.. can't be helped i guess.. i have to admit and apologize for cutting myself away from you guys.. i really cant afford much time out and stuff.. maybe i'll go for drinks with you lot on friday night k? just MAYBE.. it's on a "IF i can finish my physio readings" basis.

Okay.. the last sentence sounds totally nerdified. Crap. I need a un-makeover thing and find the "non-nerd" self i was.

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and he's left. again. *wails*

Listening to: Feeling this - Blink182

Well, I was half an hour late in meeting melvin yesterday.. AND I got there only to find out they weren't serving breakfast on weekdays anymore! *pout* We're planning to head there tomorrow.. *pause* Not sure if we would though.. I'm still undecided.

We were planning to take pictures tomorrow as well.. but.. that isnt really confirmed as yet. *ponders* we'll see.

Spent the afternoon walking around Simlim with Melvin and his parents. Reminded me how much i hate going to simlim with him. he takes -forever- to just BUY something. According to him, he was doing everything at speed record today.. ( yes.. speed record of 2 hours to get 4 items. ) Normally he would spend 6 hours there.. and end up getting nothing. Go back the next day.. to buy ONE item. Right Melvin?

Then we went back to his place. And finished off the thousand piece jigsaw we started on... erm.. yesterday? no.. not yesterday.. 2 days ago. Yesterday was spent at parkland playing games with Jeremy. We spent.. 10 hours there i think. playing games. very pricey. but fun *bounce* I've come to the conclusion that no other combi would do.. has to be Melvin, Jeremy and I playing together.. else it won't be fun. Half the time was spent on the LOTR game.. I kept getting hit *sulk* so much so that every 2 minutes or so, i would turn to melvin and whine "deeeaaarr.. help me already! ALL my troops are like gone and there is a TROLL in my base!"

Anyway. Melvin and I finished off a jigsaw puzzle. and we're gonna try and complete the other one ( yes he bought 2 ) tomorrow.

In the meantime, i'm trying to finish my protein lab report. ( so far.. only 1 sentence - "LSM 3231 Protein Structure and Function" )

*yawn*

talked to Guozhong on my way to meet Melvin today. Havent seen him around the past YEAR.. apparently he chose to do biology, which explains why I havent seen him around. Spent the bus ride whining about bleak job prospects.. then i met this other girl on the train.. ( for the life of me, i cant remember her name. ) I mean, we took the same lab last semester.. that's all i remember about her. Then we spent the train ride whining about bleak job prospects *laugh* honestly. that's all I ever talk about to my course mates now. *sigh* bleak job prospects.

Alright. I better err.. type a few more words for my report. else laichun ( my current lab partner ) will yell at me.. it is, after all.. due in 3 days or so.

Listening to: 21 questions - 50 cent

Watched "Hide and Seek" with Melvin yesterday.. i think i missed like 1/4 of the show coz my eyes were shut *laugh* Before the show, we spent what seemed like an eternity in PI.. well, it wasnt Soooo bad.. i like looking at the new games. Just.. well, melvin takes like an hour to look thru everything and I take like 15 minutes max. It's just like when we head to the library. I take 15.. 20 mins to pick out my books. And he takes FOREVER. I'd be standing there holding a stack of books waiting for him while he strolls around with just ONE book in his hand. Then I'd start the "are you DONE yet?.." and "*whine* deeaaarrr.. hurry uuuppp.." Different styles. Different habits. Different speeds.

Anyway, after the show we headed to parklane coz Melvin wanted to buy some jigsaw puzzles and i needed to use the loo rather urgently. I went into the toilet, then walked straight out without walking into any cubicle.. know why? the toilet was CREEPY. I went in.. my hairs stood on its ends.. I froze for a split second, then i turned and literally ran out. Then i stood outside and waited for Melvin.. he saw me standing there and was like "done so fast?!" then he said something about not understanding how I can be faster when all he did was unzip and etc. I didnt want to tell him.. i really didnt! so it went like this:

Me: *mumbles* I didnt go..
Melvin: *looks at me* what?
Me: *even softer* I didnt go..
Melvin: Why?!
Me: It's creepy in there *starts to get defensive*
Melvin: *laughs a little* WHat?
Me: It is! it was SO creepy in there i couldnt pee!
Melvin: *ruffles my hair* i'll wait for you outside..

Then he starts to steer me towards the ladies.. i simply refused to go in.. then he hugged me and said we'll find some other less creepy loo in another building. *giggles madly* The other toilet was def less creepy. I hate the toilets at parklane. THey freak me out for some reason.

oh crap. i'm supposed to meet melvin for breakfast at cafe cartel at 10am and its 9.20 and i havent showered. crap.. blog another day.. taaa!

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Listening to: Why Georgia - John Mayer

Mmm.. *purrs* yesterday's spa trip was lovely lovely lovely! I absolutely love back massages and scrubs.. the hand therapy was good too.. left the room feeling very moisturized.. very very err.. soft. I DID get a good laugh when I saw Melvin's face covered with pale pink globs of.. well.. stuff *laugh* I finished my facial first.. so i kinda took a peek after they removed the stuff on my face.. *giggles* he looked like his face had melted. It was So funny..

The jaccuzzi was alrite. Just a very noisy tub of water. what -was- funny was Mel's shorts ballooning up with all that water. He should have just worn swimtrunks like i told him to..

Physio assignment is due on friday.. BAH. i should get started on it. Then i have to do the protein lab reports ( which is due next week ) and the marketing report.. which is due the week after.WHY do i have so much to do this semester?.. WHY...

Listening to: Nothing

I posted early this morning.. at about 1am, but the post got lost.. so.. mm.. I'm going to try and recall what it was i typed. Brain's a lil dead due to a 8am class and the marketing tutorial.. *yawn* sleepy.

Am currently in central library trying to read the stuff for the 3pm tutorial.. *looks at colored notes* i did alot of highlighting.. the only problem now is understanding the stuff i highlighted. I should have just printed the stuff on blue paper and use a correction tape to get rid of a few words ( Just about the whole page is blue.. with pockets of white-unhighlighted words )

Skipped Physio lab yesterday to watch Constantine with Melvin. The show was not too bad.. The concept of the human realm being sandwiched between heaven and hell intrigues me. Plus the scene where John Constantine showed the finger to Lucifer was way funny.. *grin*

*pokes Melvin* Melvin should learn to stop scaring me. Right at the beginning of the show, he whispered "This bit is gruesome i heard.. very very horrifying.." then i shut my eyes in reflex. only to hear him snickering.. so I thwarp him. and he keeps doing that throughout the show.. making comments like "Ooo... loook dear.. look.. this is gonna be scary.. he's gonna get his arm chomped off" *glares at Melvin* I know you -enjoy- being thwarped.. *giggle* but was that neccessary?

We went to play games at parklane after the movie.. bah. Should have asked Jeremy along imo. Ah well.. we always have next week..

Oddly, yesterday was very satisfying. Movie.. dinner.. games.. the usual. But it brings me back to "how it used to be".. so it's good.

Wonder what we'll be doing tomorrow. *bounce* can't wait! maybe.. we'll do.. movie, dinner and games. LOL. the usual. not complaining. I like the stability. i do :)

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16 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Listening to: Remember when it rained - Josh Groban

Mel came back on sat nite.. what can i say.. the experience wasn't what i had expected. Found myself.. well.. distancing away from him. He tried to bring me back to the way it used to be ( and he failed miserably ) I don't know.. is it like, even normal? I had spent the first few weeks after he left feeling bereaved. No one to hold my hand while i walked along the roads.. No one to accompany me just to buy that lil item I wanted.. No one to like, be there for me always. shower me with love and affection.. blah blah.

Then i got used to it i guess. Coz now he's back, and I won't even let him hold my hand ( in fact when he tried I half went into panic ).
It's like.. look. He'll only be back for these 2 weeks.. Am i supposed to plummet back to the bleak moods after he leaves again? I don't want to get used to depending on him again.. not this time.

I know i'm supposed to "cherish the times together" but i -really- wouldn't want to experience all that pain all over again.

And him, being him, started to get paranoid.. blah blah.. long story.

it's Valentine's day.. I have a test in 7 hours. i'm -so- screwed.. coz the past few days have been spent fooling around, and reaching home early in the morning and stuff.

*dances around* Even though things are kinda weird out between the 2 of us, i'm happy he's back to be my personal chauffuer *grins* well, i am glad he's back.'

Except for one lil giltch. Havent been able to study ANYTHING since he came back.
Bah i'm gonna fail..

Listening to: whatever the neighbour is playing ( i hope his speakers explode )

My question is, "Why me?"

The last time I looked at the clock before i fell asleep was 6.20am..
The phone rang and woke me up at 8ish. and I haven't been able to go back to sleep since.

*Sigh* Why mE?

Listening to: Boys and Girls - Good Charlotte

It's 3a.m in the morning. I'm still awake. Because a certain somebody made extra coffee at 5pm.. assured me it was MILD coffee.. She took 2 mugs and said she couldnt finish. so I drank half a mug of her MILD coffee. *growls* MILD SHE SAYS! *gets all agitated* so WHY AM I STILL AWAKE?

*mutters darkly* I don't get it. How come she's totally knocked out and I'm like.. awake.

ARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! *pulls hair*

Listening to: Until the Time is Through - Five

Ya know what? I was pretty pleased with my CNY collections.. -until- the late night mahjong sessions. Lets just say i donated my red packets back to my relatives. I mean, that's prolly WHY they give me big red packets.. they KNOW they'll get it back ANYWAY. *laugh* My aunt kept hitting my hand though. Coz i would always get the "hua" she needed. hah!

Melvin's 3-presents-in-1 is ready *beams happily* I was so proud of myself that i cammed shimin JUST to show her what it was i got for him *laugh* and i even took a picture of it to send to jen. *giggles madly* Well i can't post the pic up yet.. i'll post it after he opens his present ya? or at least, if i don't get too lazy... i'll post it up.

Joanne highlighted her hair! so so surprising.. but it looks nice.. adds a lil texture to her.. err.. flat rebonded hair. But yes, the highlighting was very nicely done :)

I went overboard on spending today ( again ). Guess it is true.. when I go "yay! I have money!".. it becomes "had" in less than 24 hours. I don't know.. it's YJ's fault! The other day he reminded me about how we used to buy Mrs Field's cookies and brownies at Holland Village (before they did all that renovation ).. i mean, that was -years- ago. like 6 years? Geez i feel old. Anyway, ever since he brought it up, i've been having this craving for Mrs Fields..

So. I bought this whole tin of cookies. Honestly, I've never spent 30 over bucks on cookies.. but err.. yeah.. *looks at half empty tin* well, there is a first time for everything eh? I wanted to get the brownies too.. but mmm... decided against it when i remembered i was ahh.... supposed to be on a diet. *cough* well, a few hours break from the diet won't kill me. *goes on defensive*

Was contemplating if I should visit mother on CNY but decided against it. NOt interested in getting scolded on the first day of CNY. i WAS filial ( is that how you spell the word? Gee. )enough to send her an SMS from Singnet's site. *shrug* at least a "happy CNY mom".. wish i could see the annoyed look on her face tho. I love spoiling her day *beam*

Listening to: It must have been love - Roxette

I'm dead tired. Travelled to Kampong Glam and Kallang Bahru after lecture today. Needed to take a brief look at the facilities there, the demographics and stuff. Chances are, the group will choose to do the Kampong Glam area.. considering it's an old estate and we have issues like congregation of thai workers and the ever growing pigeon population there. I'm only worried about the imbalance of demographics there. Mostly old folks above 50.. just a few young families.. worried we might not get much in the 13-19 age group.. coz we have to survey 3 age groups..

Kallang Bahru has a more balanced community. It's recently been upgraded.. the CC is kinda new. But it's an average neightbourhood.. Don't think we would have much to write about if we did that area. I mean I would rather choose like Ghim Moh.. it's CLOSE to school. It's got all the ppl in diff age grps we need.. rather UNfortunately, it's considered a rather "well to do" estate - relative to Kampong Glam and Kallang Bahru. Something tells me i have to make a trip down to the Bouna Vista CC tomorrow to ask a few questions. They HAVE to have SOME problems.. no estate is perfect.

Right now, i have blistered feet. and fingers ( *grins at marcus* Shush. secret for now yah? )
and aching legs. and I just want to... lie down and do nothing. I dozed off on the bus just now.. only goes to show i was REALLY tired coz i don't normally fall asleep on buses ( unless there is someone with me and i feel safe enough to sleep...) Been paranoid since my gran fall asleep once and had her bag stolen.

And despite living close to school, i've broken ALL record and reached class only 90 mins after i left the house. spent an hour and fifteen minutes at the damn bus-stop. missed 2 PACKED buses. left the place at 11.15, got to class 12.45.. i may as well have been living in woodlands or changi *grumbles*

And i guess the disappointment of the night is coz he ain't calling tonight. After a long, tiring day.. i figured it would be nice to talk to him. ah well. pity then, coz he's too lazy to leave the house to call me ( long story that, dont ask ) Trying very hard not to blame him for it. thoughts like "what, i'm not WORTH that 5 min walk to the phone booth?" take too much energy. So it's more like a "oh. kay then. i'll talk to you tomorrow." Do i expect too much now?... It's just one night after all. I don't know why it ALWAYS leads to a "if he does it this once.. in future... it'll just BE a regular thing" i'm a paranoid person. It stems from my mom, i swear. BAh i'm not going to dwell on the subject. it's just a fucking phone call.

but yes, a certain kind of disappointment.

Listening to : My Confession - Josh Groban

*Moans* I just spent the last 12 hours trying to do a 12 page essay on Child abuse Schemes and Policies. I can't say I've succeeded, but I've made progress.. Got to about the second line of page 11 and my brain just blinked off. And I figured that was the end of my summary ( which was about 1 page long ) I had wanted a longer summary of course.. the aim was to do a 1 and 1/2 page summary but my brain cell couldnt make it. And since it was mid-sentence when my brain blinked off, I couldnt possibly leave it hanging there.. so I deleted that sentence and ended with a "thus, there is much more to be done." so much for a summary.

That summarizes my day. an 11 page.. well.. 10 page and a sentence essay. yes. Page 11 has ONE sentence. "Thus, there is much more to be done". I'm sure the prof will be VERY impressed *snorts*

It is true though. There IS much more to be done. not with regard to the essay topic. but i DO still have tons of stuff to do *sigh* First, i need juice. Second, I need to do my physio readings. and protein. AND study for the F-ing test on Vday. There does my weekend. And Chinese New year. And the NEXT weekend. *cries*

Listening to: Only One - Yellowcard

My stupidity is boundless.
I freaking forgot to file for graduation.. which means either

a) I go to the Dean's office tomorrow.. and tell them i simply forgot.. and they help me with it

or

b) I go the Dean's office, tell them i forgot. and they tell me the same thing they do every semester "I'm sorry there is nothing I can do to help you"

And since they have never been able to help me. not ONCE. i'm quite positive it will be option b.

*sigh* stupid stupid me.

On the better note.. if I DO grad one sem later due to this, i can get my chemistry minor.. heh.

Listening to: Melvin's voice ( talking on skype as i type )

*burps* excuse me.. *grin* had a really really full dinner. the company was lovely, the service sucked, but overall it was brillant.

I didnt plan to go for the "choir steamboat outing".. but Jenny insisted.. she and tim called, told me they were on the bus to my place.. so yeah. I kinda had a quick shower and left the place. and we took a cab down to Bugis and met up with irene, xinrong and Meng :) lotsa food.. "le-ame" jokes *giggle* and etc..

we even played a number guessing game.. the loser had to try and finish what was in the bowl.. *wrinkles nose* brain not functioning very well.. it's getting late, i'm talking to mel at the same time and i'm trying to read my notes and think abt how to write abt what happened this evening. all the same time. so pardon me if i don't sound very coherent.

Jen's hair looks alrite after re-bonding :)
Meng is a prawn-addict.
Xinrong.. *laugh* xinrong you didnt have to finish EVERY piece of meat in there ya know.
Irene you need to put on more weight.
Chuu.. err.. chuu.. *Silence* nothing to say abt chuu..
and thanks tim :)

Tim and Irene were sneaking food into my bowl the whole night..
It's like i finish eating.. i lean back and 10 mins later.. food appears IN my bowl. and it's HOT. why? coz i have ppl who determined to feed me. it's like i don't even notice it until i look at the bowl.. then i look up and ask "who put this in my bowl?"

Apparently Irene spent the night 'serving' food to chuu and i.. *laugh* coz we weren't exactly eating.. i mean we ate what was in our bowls.. but we weren't taking stuff from the pot.. so Irene.. being irene, had to feed us *beam*

Currently trying to coax mel to sleep coz it's like 3am over there and he's got class when the sun rises. *yawn* i'm sleepy too..

nite guys..

Listening to: Broken Vow - Josh Groban

I went to NYskin yesterday.. the experience was traumatizing to say the least. In summary, the facial itself was 30 mins. But I was in there for at least 3 hours, with the rest of the time listening to sales pitches... ( they tried to get me to sign up for this $360 facial.) and MIND YOU, it's 360 EACH time.. and you buy in tens. which makes it 3.6k...

The most traumatizing moment was the skin analysis. Where they zoom in on your skin using this machine.. except they didnt really zoom in on the SKIN.. they zoomed in on my zits and blackheads. My nose looks like it's got volcanic craters stuck on it. and my back looks ready to erupt in pus. *cries* Looking at your pimples at a 200x zoom is NOT something you want to experience.

Midway thru i was telling myself "STop.. stop! i'll pay! i'll pay the 3600 you want!.. just STOp.. i dont want to see anymore!...."

Talk about a huge blow to your self esteem.

Thanks for the beer and company Kudus *grin*

Listening to : Per Te - Josh Groban

Per te, per te, vivrò
L'amore vincerà
Con te, con te avrò
Mille giorni di felicità
Mille notti di serenità
Farò quello che mi chiederai
Andrò sempre dovunque tu andrai
Darò tutto l'amore che ho per te

Dimmi che tu già il futuro lo sai
Dimmi che questo non finirà mai
Senza di te non voglio esistere


I posted something this morning.. lost it though. I'm not going to try and retype what was written. In a totally different mood now.. and it does seem as though it isn't very impt anymore, that what i wrote must be posted.

The past week has been terribly numbing. I can sit here alone.. I can be crying.. I can be laughing.. but it's like.. i don't FEEL it.

I need to find a reason to be happy. I need a reason to live.

( at this pt, Kenneth's words come to mind. Something about being sick of caring.. *sighs*)

Of course to all those I talk to, it would seem like there is nothing wrong.. and well, good for you guys.. I'm sure talking to a walking corpse isnt something you would enjoy. I try to appear happy. I do. Unfortunately when it comes to melvin, I can't seem to act all chirpy so he's on the receiving end of all the shit. you guys should buy him a drink each for being SUCH a brave baby eh? *cries* I need a damn drink. I don't even know WHY I'm feeling the way I do. It's not logical. I don't HAVE anything to be upset about. Yet most of the time, i'm just.. SAD. not happy. numb. empty. why?

YJ and I were out on thurs.. For a few minutes there it was as though we returned to our secondary school days. He snuck kfc's mashed potato thing into the cinema.. i told him i didn't want any, but he bought a huge one anyway ( coz i'd end up changing my mind.. he says )
Yeah.. he kinda held this huge spoonful of nice gooey potato in front of me to tempt me.. and very naturally I leaned forward right?.. yeah except he did that "withdraw the spoon at the last minute" trick.. which got me sulking, so he tried to "baby" me. Then it became something like that:

"come on.."
"no!" *sulk*
"say ahhh..." *spoon zooms in*
"no!" *clamps mouth shut*
"caaaat... it's gonna drop on your shirt!"
*glares and eats*

Like I said.. for a minute there.. it was as if i was 16 again. heh.

*sighs* yeah.

DAmn i need a drink.

Listening to: I don't wanna fall in love - Tonya Mitchell

I need new songs in my playlist.

Tonya Mitchell is one of those that didn't manage to make it in the world of entertainment. I remember Lianne telling me about her songs.. how her album WAS going to be released "next year". And well, lets say she DID release an album, or at least i think she did.. then there was something abt the record label dropping her. yet even TODAY, i listen to her songs ( many thanks to Lianne for keeping her songs ). There were quite a few songs.. My fave at that time was this track called broken promises. Maybe coz i related to it, at that time. Gosh. how many years has it been.. Was I in secondary school or JC?.. man *feels old*

Anyhow if ya want, here's a link.. there're like sample clips of her only album.



Tonya

~I've seen the tears they cried, when its time for goodbye. i didnt wanna be the one who's asking why.. i dont wanna fall in love, till i fall in love with you ~

Sappy SAPPY night.

Listening to: Tangled up in me - skye

I'm don't have class todaaaayyy *dances around*

Finally got the picture taken at Shuqin's birthday party.. she sent me a hard copy tho.. Which is weird. Should i email her asking her for a soft copy?.. yeah.. i think i should.. after all, no one I know has a scanner to spare and i want to put the pic up.

Marketing lecture was painful and bloody :/Yewzhen said the module was alright ( of COURSE.. she got an A for it.. ).. yeah but it felt like pure slaughter/outright mass execution yesterday. Decided to come back to read the textbook.. hoping for a glimmer of light. *sigh* let's just say it was pitch black and empty in my head from 1pm to 1am. 12 hours on the damn CHAPTER and I STILL don't get it. Should i start panicking? maybe not. But you would have to consider that fact that it was chapter 1, introduction. So, should i panicking? Yes.

The social issues module is just as bad. I read the notes ( which consists of maybe 10 sentences, one sentence per slide ), then i read the assigned readings ( think a 60 page reading every week ). But I dont see the link btwn the assigned readings and the notes. Nor do i really understand the assigned readings. *sighs*

Haven't done any readings for the other 3 modules, so i really wouldnt know. But the notes are alrite. Then again, the notes are just the SKELETON of the damn thing. so they would have to be alrite... else i would just proceed to jump off the UOB building.

Major stress this semester to maintain/pull up my CAP so it doesnt fall from it's nice 3.21.. i mean you're talking abt a 0.2 diff here. drop by 0.2 and i won't get my merit. ARGH. STRESSED!

Listening to: Don't wanna lose you now - Backstreet Boys

Ever had so much to say, yet.. there isn't really anything to say?
This is one of those I guess. Been feeling all queer since my conversation with melvin this morning. I haven't had the guts to dissect my thoughts and feelings and all on the matter.. reckon i'd get to it soon. When i'm feeling less tired i guess..

Listening to: Behind Blue Eyes - Limp Bizkit

When the wrong thing seems so right, do you go with your heart?

Or just listen to what everyone else is saying?

What happens if the path you want to take is so uncertain? When there are bound to be many falls? and a 75% chance of failure. What if.. despite all that, it just SEEMS right at this point in time. What if you are sure you will regret not following that uncertain path right in front of you?

Forked roads. I hate those.

And i took another test that said only 6% who have taken the test are more spoilt than i am. I resent that! didnt put it up coz they didnt have that "copy and paste" and i was lazy. On another pt, i'm barely done with the first week of school and i'm dying. There is a test at 4pm on VALENTINE'S. The school is sadistic. happens every year. And there're extra lectures scheduled for this human diseases module. And marketing looks scary. and Physio looks horrid. And Protein's gonna take up alot of brain space. And the social issues module URGH... let's say, i'm gonna die this sem. why does everything seem so difficult? why are there suddenly 3 projs and more than 5 assigments and 4 lab reports lined up? this has never happened. this is BAD.

I'm gonna Diieeeeeeee..

Listening to: Hole in the head - Sugababes

Well.. lookie.. class starts today *sighs* At noon to be exact.. and of all days, my comp has to screw on me today. My microsoft office suddenly upped and disappeared. Programs that have been in my computer for the past year. Programs that I've just used 2 days ago, decided to disappear. I'm serious.. for I suddenly cant open ANY of my files. my computer tells me I have not installed the program. How can that be when i've used it 2 days ago to draw my timetable?
Like i said.. of ALL days to screw on me....

My microsoft office has abandoned me.

I need the office disc. coz i dont have one ( coz i think someone threw it away quite by accident ) but.. the result is still - i need the damn disc. ANyone? help? i need to print my notes.. soon.

Listening to: nothing.. my ear is burning

Spent the last 4 hours talking to melvin. 2 on msn.. 2 on the phone. my right ear is burning and sore coz i had the phone pressed to my ear for too long. and my right arm has that pins and needles feeling from holding the phone for too long ( which brings to mind.. how did my chatting stamina fall so bad?.. i mean i used to talk to DAYBREAK and i wouldnt even feel tired. )

We spent the first 2 hours ironing out what happened this morning. or, what i did this morning. You see.. 2 Months back, the subject of him having to find a new place to live cropped up. Melvin was thinking of moving in with Meili. And naturally I objected. I mean which girl would allow her boyfriend to move in with another girl. And he was stupid enough to even consider it and ask me. so that was that. end of issue coz he wasnt going to move in with her after all. And so her dad found her some place to stay on her own, i think. and we were talking about it again after she found a place.. and i was thinking, "compared to preetam, maybe moving in with meili isnt SO bad... " and i told him so. And he daftly took it to mean I was ok with that. And since Meili doesnt like the place her dad got for her.. she is thinking of moving out. And ONCE again.. he had the option of moving in with her. I mean.. here i am thinking, "why are they 2 of them so keen on living together?" I mean you ask once.. fine. just coz i seemed alrite with it for 5 minutes doesnt mean you go "oh that means i can move in with her now?" The minute he said "or i could rent a 2 room apartment with Meili", i logged off without letting him say another word.

And i dont care. It still seems like you WANT to move in with her. why the fuck else would you keep ASKING ME. dont you have anyone else to stay with? doesnt SHE? And even tho it "seemed alrite with me".. i dont know.. *sigh* Dont you get it? you asked once.. i take it that u were daft. You ask the 2nd time.. it's like you really really want to stay with her, ya know.

Put yourself in my shoes. If i keep asking you whether I can hang out with this guy.. it's just gonna mean i WANT to hang out with him. Else why the fuck would i tell you.

And i think you were so intent on picking on the fact that i'm self centered and that i only cared about how I feel to really see the issue here. can you see it from my point of view?

And to tell me that it was because of me? now wtf is that? what makes you think i'd be comfortable with meili anyway? I mean.. i'm alrite hanging out with her.. but staying with her? knowing that you are staying with her? alone? *snorts* I've got nothing against Meili.. really. I think she's a really nice person, i do. but YOU. Nvm. i dont want to say anymore. We're done with that topic. It just seems as though now u're not moving in with her coz i'm kicking up a bitch fuss. and i guess it just hurts that you were considering it in the first place. Can't think of a decent guy who would ask his girlfriend if he could move in with some other girl. I really cannot.

So i was wrong to log on ya. *shrug* technically speaking. EMotionally speaking. i didnt do the wrong thing. coz if you do such a thing agaim, my reaction would be exactly the same.

Now everyone reading my blog is gonna think u're some big jerk. And i suppose that's a bad thing. I dont know. How did the conversation become a "let's point out all the things I have to put up with" and "all of catherine's shortcomings" talk. I'm self-centered. I'm proud. I'm not understanding enough. I'm too impatient. I'm not loving enough. I'm not giving in enough. I dont love you enough. And what?.. should i be grateful "that you love me despite?" And Dont tell me that's not what you meant. Coz those were the exact words you said.

I'm not pissed. I'm hurt. very very hurt. *wails*

Listening to: The rock show - Blink 182

Last night proved to be very interesting *grin*

I was tired and didnt feel like meeting up with the following people: Tim, Irene, Jen, Ck, Eugene and Yuchen. I went in the end coz Jen and Tim took turns to call and msg me ( until a point whereby "alright alright i'm going!".. )

So i went. TOok a cab down to Shaw Tower no less.. Didnt think I would survive the bus or train. Ck wasnt there when i got there.. but they waited for me to start dinner so it was good. We has this weird turkish thing... Yuchen and Eugene ordered this yogurt drink that was nothing short of soured milk. *screws face* Anyhow.. food was alrite.. Tim, Jen and I were talking about games ( which annoyed Yuchen.. ). We were talking about Maplestory to be exact. Honestly it's not a great game. I'm just playing coz Jen and Tim are.

We met CK at suntec... walked to Harry's at the esplanade... tried to get him drunk.. Unsuccessfully *sigh* he had drinks. we each bought him a shooter. I got him a flaming Lambo. WHY didnt he get drunk? all he did was get a lil woozy. then he was alrite by the time we took a bus to chimes. *grumble* looks like our wallets gave out before he did.

Yuchen left early tho. I wuold LOVE to tell you more about what happened last night.. but well.. there isnt anything to tell.. we all had a great time ( pity eugene didnt seem to be enjoying himself until CK got high.. lol.. ).. we hung out.. dinner.. drinks.. spent money. *ponders* that was about it.

Listening to: Caruso - Russel Watson

Today is supposed to be a very special day.. and I guess it would only be right if i posted something about it.

The past year with you has been full of ups and downs ( of course, i mean DUH ).. and our phone conversations have dwindled nothing much ( content wise ). Let's have an example of a typical phone conversation between us ( esp for the past 6 mths ).

Me: so.. how was your day?
You: OH.. today we *blah blah*
Me: Uh huh.. Uh huh...
After 2 minutes of silence..
Me: erm.. so.. how was your day?
You: ( In all exasperation ) but i just TOLD you! ( spends the next few minutes repeating )

Further on into the conversation

Me: Aaanddd... you'd never guess what happened today.. *blah blah*
You: Uh huh..
Me: *blathers on somemore*
You: Mmmm
Me: .. so what do you think?
You: *Silence*
Me: dear?
You: *silence*
Me: DEAR?! dear you wake up this instant! *fumes*
You: Huh?.. oh sorry.. you were saying?...

Like i said, our phone conversations have dwindled down to nothing

Still.. all it takes is for one guy in that ugly green army garb to walk past and I get reminded of you. of our times together. Of how we would call each other and all to arrange to get on the same train coz i dont want to travel alone. And how your mom keeps telling you to keep your hands off me *giggles* and how she scolds you for bullying me *sticks tongue out* ( and this is totally out of point, but i miss your mom's cooking! ) And of course.. much more memories.. too many to post. too long and mushy for people to read so.. i'll cut it short.

Happy Third Year Anniversary, Melvin Chong. And I do love you, even tho you behave like an idiot sometimes most of the time *beams*

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You have the Vermeer girl look. A Vermeer girl
appealed mostly to the old masters of the Dutch
school, who painted pictures of everyday life
as they knew it. With her fine, fair skin, she
suited a light, natural, dewy make-up. The
Vermeer Girl loved homely things, such as
homemade soaps and candles. The following
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Here I am, all alone,
its New Year's Eve,
and no one's home.
You're not here
to help bring in the New Year,
there is no cheer tonight,
because you can't be here to hold me tight.

It's bad enough
you weren't home for Christmas,
but New Years you must miss, too.
I must spend it with someone else,
but I wish with all my might
that I could spend this night with you.

There was no kiss under mistletoe,
there wont be any kiss at the chime of midnight,
all alone watching the ball drop
on the TV screen, wishing I
could be somewhere else, where ever you are, would suit me best.
But wishes come and wishes go,
and deep down, I've always known
that wishes never really do come true,
that's why I'm not spending tonight with you.

Listening to: Mickey Mouse singing a christmas song. Do not ask.

WEeeellll... Merry Christmas everyone..

Got my results last evening.. and well. For those who are curious at to whether I passed my chemistry, here they are:

Basic Inorganic Chemistry B-
Problem Solving and Computation B+
Fundamental Pharmacology B+
Immunology B
Developmental Biology B+

And my CAP is FINALLY at 3.21, so it's good yes?

*bounce*

I had this reaaaallly funny dream last night. I dreamt Mom was telling me she wrote a 8 thousand dollar cash cheque and she asked me if i had gotten it in my mail. I woke up.. thought about it.. and laughed. *snorts*

Listening to: Boulevard Of Broken Dreams - Green Day

Well darlings, I have half day off on christmas day.. whoever wants to hang out after lunch can just give me a call ya? I distinctly remember jeremy promising to spend either christmas or its eve with me. But I think he's forgotten about it, so the day's open to the rest of you ya? just gimme a call.

Glenn's birthday's tomorrow. *wrinkles nose* i havent bought him a birthday pressie yet. what the hell am i supposed to get for him?.. shaving cream? but he doesnt shave.. yet. he's 17 this year.. oh wait. erm. 16. yeah. 16 tomorrow. what can you get for a 16 yr old boy? i feel ooooollldddd... if 16 seems young, i'm definately OLD. *sniffs* Anyway. bah.. what am i supposed to get for him? can't wait for him to turn 18.. then we can go pubbing together or something.

I miss jeremy. Just a tad.

THanks for the mini baileys, rene

I miss Lianne. In more ways than one.

I miss Melvin. Naturally.

And i should stop myself else this will be a very long post.

Tired. Cant think straight. Spent the whole day facing numbers and wondering why i can't match the amounts.. *sigh* long story.

Listening to: Lies - Evanescence

I managed to spend all my pay over the weekend. Well.. I only have like 50 bucks left. out of 800. do.not.ask.

And my headphones are screwing up on me again. Looks like i'd need to buy another pair.. *sigh* that would make it the 3rd set of gear in half a year.

The weekend was busy.. Shuqin's lil party at Fishermans' village.. spent sunday afternoon playing mahjong and sunday night shopping.. ( which explains the "i spent all my pay" sentence )

*sighs*

Listening to: Some chinese song. I really don't know what it's called

The past few days have been toturous. My baby came down with a terrible terrible illness. There wasn't any response to my probing and poking and I really freaked out. I yelled for my uncle to have a look and i was panicking.. And he took my baby to Sim lim Hospital for diagnosis and meds.

I've missed my baby *Hugs the CPU* Glad it's back home.

Anyway. it turned out to be a power pack failure or something like that. which explains why I havent been posting.. The "ambulance" is a tad slow. my uncle couldnt find time to go down :) he finally did.. so yeah.. my baby *hugs CPU*

I was happily high on alcohol last night. Many thanks to irene and tim *giggle* Poor poor tim.. he didnt want to drink but Irene made him try wine.. ( cant believe he doesnt drink wine ) - Irene was the mastermind k.. I just went along and well.. helped irene with her schemes *grin* Aaaanyway, I told Tim to take a white.. coz well, I hate reds *screws face up* i think red wines are icky. The ones i've tried anyway. Whites are SOOooo much nicer. And Tim agrees! He compared my glass of white, with his glass.. then he tried Irene's red wine. and since he can taste the diff btwn the 2 white wines, I would say he's passed his second lesson. First lesson was the tell the diff in taste btwn the red and white. And in my opinion, since he prefers white, he scores full marks for that lesson. *bounce* So yeah. And since it was happy hour I got a martini paradise and Irene went for a margarita. and tim. *sigh* went for a tiger beer. I kept on telling him it was sewage ( I did take a huge gulp of it tho. dont ask why. )
And me, being a lousy drinker was.. honestly.. high by then. Anyway. we got sick of Tango's.. so we went over to Siam Reap. and I had 3 shooters there.. it was really funny coz i was looking at the menu.. trying to convince tim to have somemore drinks.. coz he was like "it's enough.. i'm not having anymore".. so i was like "no no.. lets try sex on the beach!" And i started laughing coz it sounded wrong. sex on the beach as in the drink, silly. I ordered SOTB anyway. Tim drank in the end coz the boss of the place gave him 2 shots on the house. Wonder why.. ANyway. tim had 2.. i had 2.. Irene had her cocktail.. what was it?.. Graveyard? no.. no.. Zombie. yeah. zombie. ANd i finished off with another shooter called a blowjob. you can pretty much imagine what our conversation was like. I couldnt stop laughing coz tim ordered it for me.. and it just sounded WRONG when he said "can I have a blowjob?" *laugh* The waiter was a guy. *laugh* *cough* sorry. I love making fun of tim. poor guy.. oui Jen.. here's another sentence to add to tim's history of weird sayings. "can I have a blowjob?" *laugh* in addition to his "My waterbag is bursting!" - He was trying to say his BLADDER was bursting.. we were at Yoshi's i think. and it was HILAROUS. Jen and i are still laughing over it and it's been years now.

Bleh. see what happens if i dont post for too long.. I have an ultra long post and i babble everything out. I'm gonna stop here and try to have fun at shuqin's birthday party later on this evening.

Listening to: Shiver - Maroon 5

Well.. this weekend was most enjoyable *grin* Yesterday was facial with jen.. we shopped a lil too.. and lunch with irene.. and today.. I went to catch "The incredibles" for the 2nd time with jeremy. I love jack jack.. he's SOooooo adorable! And as usual, i felt super pampered by jer *beams happily* he's such a wonderful wonderful person to hang out with. I've never met anyone else who takes care of me so well when we head out. ( yes melvin my dear, he's on par with you. ) and it's a plus Jer is cuddly! ( dont get jealous now melvin. i know what you're thinking. it's alrite i love you anyway *beams* )

Aaaanyway.. Jer and I bumped into Yongjia and Herc at coffee bean after the show.. and since Jer had to go home for dinner, i went to join YJ and Herc. Actually, i said bye to the 2 guys and Jer was walking me to the busstop.. when YJ msged me and all.. so we U-turned and I joined YJ and Herc, and Jer went home.

We walked around after dinner and headed to top shop where I was eyeing this 70 buck skirt.. it was some wrap around, but really really cool.. YJ didnt think it was a good idea coz well.. when the winds blow.. yeah. I dont want to flash to the world, that kinda thing. Then we headed down to the guys' section and looked at some T-shirts. Found a few really nice ones which he would look fantastic in ( coz he has a new hair-do and all. and it's VERY nice. I loved it..)

Walked around somemore and saw this Tommy Jeans top from the window. He was like "oh that IS nice. lets go in.".. so i went in to try.. and it was really really nice... navy blue.. long sleeve.. but not thick. it was comfy and something i could wear anytime, that kinda thing. only it was $80. But they were having a storewide 20%.. Ooohh yes.. Jen and Irene, there is a 20% storewide discount at Taka's Tommy Jeans! WHere was i? yeah. I really want that top *whines a lil* but it's sooo expensive! Something tells me I'll be thinking abt that top for DAYS.

The three of us got bored walking around so decided to head home.

Bumped into Ruby and CW at the bus-stop. LOL.. it was SO weird. I thought it was coincidental enough seeing YJ and Herc. Then now Ruby and CW. heh.. Apparently Ruby got some really good deals at Taka. 3 bucks for a Tshirt, i think. Didnt think Taka would ever sell anything that's single digit, ya know. It was interesting ;)

I'm tired *rubs eyes* i think i'll have an early night and actually sleep before midnight *bounce*

Yes Melvin, I miss you too. Don't you start thinking that I've forgotten about you now. *hug* btw you dont have to wait for Jer to call you.. why dont you call him..since he's already discharged. And Jer. you promised to call him! so be nice. and we all know i'm tired and i'm starting to blabber.. coz it's honestly not my prob if Jer calls Melvin or not.

I'm gonna go sleep.

I wish I had more to type.. but err.. lately it's been.. wake up, go 'omg i'm gonna be late', rush to work with hair dripping, write cheques till hand cramps ( and all other health hazards associated with work ), come back, sit in front of the comp, play sims2, and head to bed when i realize it's 1am. Rinse and repeat.

really.boring.

Listening: Heaven is a halfpipe - OPM

The exams are done with. I'm done for.

To you: thank you for your patience the past few weeks. and for.. mm.. understanding.

Poor jeremy is in hospital with dengue fever.. no wonder he didn't reply my smses the past 2 days. BAH. JER.. *whine* we were supposed to go watch a movie today.. how dare you fall sick *sulks* ah well.. *comforts jeremy* poor thing. help you get well soon. then we can go catch movies again *beam*

I start work tomorrow. Geez.

Listening: Heaven is a halfpipe - OPM

The exams are done with. I'm done for.

To you: thank you for your patience the past few weeks. and for.. mm.. understanding.

Poor jeremy is in hospital with dengue fever.. no wonder he didn't reply my smses the past 2 days. BAH. JER.. *whine* we were supposed to go watch a movie today.. how dare you fall sick *sulks* ah well.. *comforts jeremy* poor thing. help you get well soon. then we can go catch movies again *beam*

I start work tomorrow. Geez.

! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
deep
beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
the
limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the
deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not
big-headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.


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Oh PLEASE. my intelligence? I wasn't even aware i had any. deep beauty? *snorts alot*

9am today: Problem solving and computation.

Didnt finish the last question. Wrote the main function only. missed out 3 other functions. no time.. no time..

Verdict: B-

1pm today: Pharmacology

For the first time in my life, I wrote 2 pages for an exam essay question. Also, probably got whole of section B wrong.

Verdict: C+

You are 27% Leo

How much do you match your zodiac sign?

9am today: developmental biology

Spent too much time on the stupid module. concentrated on all the wrong stuff.

Verdict: C+ if i'm lucky.

Exam starts in 3 days. i'm not even midway thru studying. should I apologize for disappearing from this blog for awhile? I think not. BAH. You get what i mean.

*does corny Terminator impersonation* I'll be back.

Listening to:Nothing.

The LAST PERSON

Who/Whom

x. Slept in your Bed : Myself?
x. Saw you cry : *shrug*
x. You last shared drinks with : Jeremy
x. You went to movies with : Jeremy
x. You went to the mall with : Jeremy
x. Yelled at you : I can't remember.. prolly Mom.
x. Sent you an e-mail : Lianne. I dont get much mail.


HAVE YOU EVER

x. Said "I Love You" and meant it : Yup
x. Gotten in fight with ur pet : No..
x. Been to California : Nope. like Jen, i'm looking for someone who would pay
x. Been to China : Nope.
x. Been to Canada : Nope.. dang i'm starting to feel really isolated here.
x. Danced naked : *blink*
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day : Not the next day exactly.. but yeah you get what i mean.
x. Wished you were the opposite sex: *shudder* eeww.
x. Had an imaginary friend : *denial* She was not someone I conjured up mind you! just happens I'm the only one who can see her!
x. Do you have a crush on someone? : Did. well.. do.. if you count that hunk from the office.. *drool*
x. What book are you reading now : Chemistry text book. someone shoot me please.
x. Worst feeling in the world : Being alone, imo
x. Future son's name : Son? what son? eww. kids.
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal : Nono! my puppy! mine!
x. What's under your bed : Mmm.. the floor. of that i am certain.
x. Siblings : Younger brother. who's wwwaaaayyyy taller than I am right now so i can't beat him up like i used to..
x. Location : School.
x. College plans : To get teh damn degree and get out. that's the gist of it.
x. Piercings/tattoos : ears? no tattoos.. no.. pain *squirm*

EXTRA STUFF

x. Do you do drugs : Strictly medicinal
x. Do you drink : DUH
x. Who are your best friends : Jen, Li, Eugene.
x. What clothes do you sleep in : T shirts and stuff. man. stupid question.
x. Where do you want to get married : do i even WANT to... i mean, hey.. i don't mind the honeymoon tho..
x. Who do you really hate : Beats me. I could hate alot of ppl, trust me. but REALLY hate.. no one. not even mom.
x. Are you for world peace : Oh puh-lease. Hasn't everyone learnt that it's just NOT possible?

STUFF

x. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with : Mmm i guess :)
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did : Isn't always over that?..
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after : I'm not too sure. Eugene says he's noticed a trend.. I beg to differ.
x. Want someone you don't have right now : Mmm not really..
x. Are you lonely right now : Always. somehow or other.
x. Song that's stuck in your head : Lalalalalalalalal elmo song!
x. do you want to get married : We'll see.
x. do you want kids : If i ever want to challenge my already fraying sanity.. yeah.

FAVORITE

x. Room in house : Kitchen. Lol.. chocolate~
x. Type(s) of music : Just about anything really.. not Jazz. so not jazz tho.
x. Band(s) : Maroon 5, Linkin park, Atomic kitten, Black eyed peas, Simple plan, Matchbox20 blah blah blah
x. Color : blue, pink, black, white, deep reds
x. Perfume or cologne : Elizabeth arden's true love ( nothing can beat it), Drakkar Nore thingy.. can't remember how you spell the word..
x. Brand : Body shop, Levi's, Elizabeth Arden blah blah
x. Season : Fall?

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...

x. Cried : I'm a damn tap. yeah i cried.
x. Bought something : Mmm.. food? Oh yes. and funky single lined paper.
x. Gotten sick : Nose. blocked. ewww.
x. Missed someone : *shrug*
x. Hugged someone : *shrug*

If i EVER attempt to consume a LARGE spinelli's coffee again. EVER. Please just take the drink and dump it in the nearest bin.

I had ONE. one MISERABLE large cup of cookie spin during lunch. it's now 3am and i'm still AWAKE. not for long, i should think. considering I just took one of those weird pills which put me to sleep like that *snaps fingers* not a sleeping pill mind you. a flu tab. coz i've actually got a blocked nose to boot. *curses*

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You are a cupcake! Innocent and sweet more than every one else. Everyone loves someone like you!

Oh yuck. cupcake. *shudder*

Listening to:Sing - travis

I'm gonna fail. i'm gonna fail.

Went with Eugene to munchie monkeys last night.. It's nice there. Big projection screen with Mtv.. nice comfy sofa sets.. lighting not too bright.. I love the tiramisu.. Mmm.. yeah. Had a pretty good time with Eugene there. He was telling me about Shark tale. and yeah.. Pity I won't be catching the show. Nice to know the whole story though. Eugene was very good at telling the story ;) I was looking at the menu when my eyes fell upon the 'drink' list. and i was like thinking "Ooooo they have beer.. in a school cafe.. " Then at that point, Eugene said "cat, no alcohol. " drats. *laugh* i'll keep the rest of my thoughts to myself now.

Oh dangit. I have to go. else i'll prolly reach the library late afternoon or something.

Listening to:the guy next to me talking on the phone.

I simply do not understand it. I slept well last night. yet I'm feeling more drained than I was yesterday. *sigh* Currently in the comp lab.. another hour before the start of immuno lab. I really should be studying instead of coming here to waste that hour. But I'm way too tired :(

The day started off badly. As usual, the bus went off just as I was across the road. To my surprise, another one came soon enough. I didn't get up that bus. Not because it was too packed ( as in,... the norm) but because it was at that point that I realized i had forgotten ( of all things) to bring my file. I wanted to just forget about the file and copy notes all the way, but I couldnt coz there was a report I had to hand in today *sigh* so I cursed and swore all the way home, muttering uncomplimentary phrases about myself all the way. So. right. FILE. I got that, left the house.. and guess what? I left my BAG this time. trudged back to get the stupid bag wondering if the class would be over by the time i actually GET to school. SO right. got both of the stuff and left ONCE more to the bus-stop. Of course, i HAD to start wondering if i had forgotten to lock the door. U-turned and walked back to check. If there was someone waiting at that bus-stop all this time.. you can imagine what he/she would be observing. Girl walks to bus-stop. bus comes. She walks off suddenly, muttering to herself. Then she appears again, at the bridge. Turns and walks off. And appears at the bridge once more, turning back again at midpoint. *sigh* not a good day i can tell you. By the time i got to class, i was half an hour late for a 60min tutorial.

Oh, and jen I got the chem quiz one for you. we did equally bad. kinda like a "we could have failed the stupid thing". Meet up with me. so i can pass it to you.

Headed to the Co-op before i came to the comp lab. Wanted to buy a blue pen coz i was out of ball-point pens. Ended up with 2 bars of chocolate, 2 packs of soupy snax, a highlighter and a black gel pen. And err.. no blue ball point. Which prolly means I have to make another trip down before i head to immuno lab.

Got to talk to Finn ( kevin) the other day. Well, the other.. MORNING. specifically about 1am.. ( kindly refer to previous post). It was.. well.. cool, i guess. Coz he doesnt log onto msn much. I would say it was the 2nd time i actually saw him on. and he wasnt even using his own. He was on lyndon's msn. Was mildly surprised when I saw lyndon's name pop up coz we don't really talk anymore. Then i found out it was Finn over at lyndon's place. *grin* Finn's cool.

Many Many thanks to Shimin who solved the 2 questions I had to hand in today.

And probably eternal gratefulness to Jeremy who has been doing my C-programming homework for me. Let's just hope I dont fail the stupid final eh? *grin*

1. Collapse in bed at 2am, utterly exhausted.

2. Body refuses to cooperate. Toss and turn. Fail to sleep.

3. Switch on the comp at 4am to watch webcast lectures in hope of falling asleep ( like one normally does, in class. )

4. Finally tired enough to head back to bed at 6am.

5. Fall asleep.

6. Got woken up by **insert choice of foul words** at 6.45.. 7am.

7.Toss and turn in bed. Too bright. Fail to sleep.

8. Currently almost 8am. Leaving the house in 90minutes.

9. Disturb at your own risk.

Listening to: Starry Starry Night - Josh Groban

Just got home from the Vienna Boys' Choir concert.

Weellll the concert was alrite. What can I say.. it's a world renowned choir. I expected no less. They did surprise the audience by singing 'chan mali chan' for the encore.. Did a good job with it tho. But then again, that song has been butchered by most primary and secondary schools.. so anything would sound good by comparison. I'm not sounding very coherent aint i? Having problem typing in fact.. Must be the chardonnay. After the concert ( took me 6 times to type this correctly.), uncle sam and I went for dinner. i had chardonnay with my fish. i'm not drunk. no one gets drunk on one miserable glass of wine. but err.. I can't seem to type straight. Uncle sam had that.. thingy.. what's it called? That red one. can't remember. I'm sleepy. But his face was close to mm.. maroon.. after that glass. I asked him if he was gonna fail that breathalyzer or whatever thing.. oh bum. I really shouldnt be posting right now. Cant think straight. I have a headache. been bugging me since the.. err.. what's that break called?.. Inter..mission? intermediate? well.. since midway thru the concert. *Whine* I can't think/type straight! need sleep. yeah. good idea. I'll go sleep.

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It's Tuesday morning (technically speaking). I have yet to do my C programming lab and tutorial. I havent got a clue how to do my chemistry report. AND at the rate of my study speed, i'm gonna fail my damn exams.

AM.so.screwed.

Listening to: Unwell - Matchbox20

Let's see. I have the following due next week.
1) C programming tutorial by wednesday (already half done)
2) C programming lab by wednesday as well ( no idea how/what to do)
3) Animal development report on myoD expression in zebrafish.( half done)
4)Chemistry lab report (by friday)

And what am I doing? Blogging. Pfft. And I have yet to reply Lianne's mail. Maybe I'll do it tomorrow. If I can find the time, that is. Don't even know I can spare the time to watch the concert on the 2nd. *mutters to self*

Today's lab was mildly interesting, maybe because it was gross and morbid. We dealt with drosophila larvae for the first part of lab. We were supposed to stain polytene chromosomes found in the salivary glands of the larvae. So.. the first part, naturally, required us to obtain ( or rather.. FIND ) the salivary glands. Not that easy. I put one of those things under the light microscope, looked at it for 2 seconds, looked up and asked,"Which end is the arse man?" Coz honestly, I couldnt quite tell which end was which. Shuqin ( she was sitting on my right ) said to look for weird short protrusions sticking out. So i took another look, and well, both ends had weird short protrusions. I looked at Shuqin, and she was already poking at her worm. I simply HAD to figure out which end was which. So i asked the tutor ( Leon ), who said," DUH. Look at the direction in which the larvae is moving." Right. Except the larva was happily swimming in circles on my slide. It was clockwise, then anti clockwise. and clockwise again. And I thought perhaps the poor thing didnt know which end was which as well. I managed to figure out which was arse and which was head after a lil while. And it's only because it decided to take a crap. Then I impaled it right in the center with one needle. It squirmed and wriggled around alot, so I stuck another needle near the head. And ripped the worm apart. *evil laugh* It stopped moving after a few sporadic twitches. Then i started to tear it into tiny pieces.. attempting to look for the salivary glands. Couldnt find it. I think it got lost with all the intestines in the way. So? rinse and repeat with a new worm. I got the salivary glands I wanted after the 5th worm.

Then we worked on C elegans. Which are really tiny worms. can't be seen unless under the microscope. Was so worried I'd get some in my hair or something. I mean you can't really SEE a worm that is about 100 to 200 cells big.. What we did was.. transfer some worms on molten agar, wait for the agar to become semi-solid, then dump bleach on them. For some reason or other, bleach induces egg laying. I mean.. Hey, whatever works for them.. *laugh* I didnt get to see the eggs though. The worms I had on my slide refused to lay :( BAH.

Aaanyway... it's time for me to get back to my report. Ta ta!

Listening to: God must hate me - simple plan

I'm not sure if I should apologize for not posting for such a long period of time. I don't think any of you are THAT big a fan of this blog *grin*

I have been pretty busy, of course. With nothing in particular. I was supposed to have been at least midway through my zebrafish report thing.. Mmm.. well.. supposed to. I haven't really started. I DID attempt to though.. typed in "zebrafish in situ hybridization" in google search.. just never got around to clicking on the links the search came up with :p I can't remember what it was that distracted me at that point in time, but I'm hoping I'll actually get started on it by this thursday.

I got to school way early today. Which was something totally unexpected. I DID miss the stupid bus again. It happens every single morning without fail. I would be on the other side of the road, waiting to cross.. and my bus would ALWAYS choose to appear at that time. And I would NEVER catch that bus. Then, it would be long wait at the bus-stop for the next bus.. but guess what, the next bus would be too packed for me to get up. so i wait again. I normally get on the third or fourth bus. There was once I got on the FIFTH bus.. ( And that was when I was in a mad rush for the pharmacology test too. Was 15 minutes late for a 30 minute quiz. you can see how bad the situation is ).. Anyway, i digress. yeah. i missed that bus, as usual. then I got to the bus-stop and Heeeeyyy... an empty bus pulls into the bus-stop. must be my lucky day. *mumble* I got to school 30 mins early for class.

Gave Jen her present today ( yeah she finally decided to come for chemistry lecture ) She seemed pleased with it at least. I should have gotten her a golfball. Wonder why I didn't think of that *beams at jen*

Oooo and I got stuck in the lift today.. which was.. erm.. well, i've never been trapped in the lift for such a long time. Was on my way to the comp lab. Took the lift at S15.. only to have it stop somewhere between the 3rd and 4th floor. Was thankful that lights and vent fan were working. This guy was muttering that it was the 2nd time he was stuck in the stupid lift. Another dude was... frantic, to say the least. kept pressing the alarm.. calling ppl here and there.. 2 other girls whipped out their notes and started to study. *rolls eyes* i mean.. PUH-LEASE.. I plopped myself down on the floor.. msged jen and melvin, plugged in my earphones and proceeded to feel bored. We did get out.. after 45 minutes to an hour of waiting. If it was possible to die from boredom, you'd be attending my funeral by now. I can't believe those 2 girls! *snorts*

I protest.. i'm not THAT organized..

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,p>BAH. Princess. How disgusting.

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Listening to:I Hate Everything About You - 3 days grace

What should one do when one cannot deal with the realities of life? Ignore it? Pretend nothing is wrong? Face up to it and fail once more?
Maybe you can come up with a post abt that Jer :)

Caught "sky captain and the world of tomorrow" with Jeremy today. Show was.. alrite.. Isn't the kinda show i would normally catch. But it was alrite. Must apologize to Jer for a rather 'dead' me today. Ooo right, managed to buy Jen's present. Figured I may as well go present hunting today. *beam* I'll pass you the pressies next time i see you.. Dont even know if i'll see you on your Bdae itself.. May be a good idea to pass it to you in advance.

Anyway, the trip to the hospital was, as usual, a waste of time and money. Did another urine test only to find that the blood count per volume of urine has doubled ( as compared to the one taken 2 years ago ).. AND they STILL don't know what's wrong with me. I violently protested to more tests. Kept telling the doctor I felt fine.. Conversation went something like this.
Doc: so is there any pain in your lower back?
Me: no.
Doc: any burning...
me: no. no. no! I dont feel any discomfort. I dont feel any pain. There isnt any apparent kind of symptom of any disease or whatever. And i dont want to do ANY more tests. esp those which involves needles. The blood is just.. there!
Doc: *looks a lil stunned* well.. in that case, we'll give you and open date.. Just come back if any problems surface..

2 years. 2 freaking years and they still cant figure out whats wrong. Jesus.

Listening to: Why does it always rain on me - Travis

I attempted to post something 2 nights ago, only to have it lost in cyber-wilderness. It was a long post too.. *sulks*

Ooo Joel's online. It's been the longest time since I last talked to him. Probably a whole year now. I wonder if any of you actually remember him. My GP tutor from JC year 1. He came to sub for 3 months or so. And he's the coolest ever. Last I heard he had completed his education in Stanford Uni and was back to complete his bond as a national slave (NS). Maybe I'll send him a msg later.

I went off the comp in a fit of fustration.. was irritated.. and mildly miffed.. calmed down somewhat.. no prizes for guessing who ruffled my feathers. But.. on hindsight.. maybe it was a little too.. I don't know. I lose my temper much too easily I guess. I get impatient. Irritated. Paranoid. Suspicious. And a multitude of other emotions that bombard my system. It's like a parasympathetic nervous system overload due to latrotoxin where explosive amounts of acetylcholine is released. The diaphram collapses and death by asphyxiation will result. *reads what I just wrote* Something tells me i've overdone my pharmacology studying today. I really don't know why.. its like.. I dont just feel ONE emotion. Its just one whole MESS. It's either I feel so numb.. so empty.. and so zombified, or everything just floods. It's horrible. It's messy.

Have to make a trip down to NUH tomorrow afternoon.. follow-up appt. Am chugging ice water right now.. will be chugging ice water tomorrow. I dont want them to drag me back time after time coz they keep finding horrifying amounts of blood in my urine ( and they STILL cant figure out what's wrong.) Come on.. its been 2 years already. Am attempting to dilute the rbc/ml of urine somewhat.. *drinks some more*

May be headed to watch a movie with jeremy on tuesday. He'll confirm with me come monday night I think. I think I should try and sleep now.. It's 11.30.. and well.. I don't think it'll be a good idea to be late for tomorrow morning's pharmacology test.

Another one of these weird things. check this out.

http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php ( copy and paste lar. i'm too lazy to make it a link)

You are Orange Koala, who tends to give an impression of being too sensitive and nervous.

But you have thorough insight and can work efficiently.

You are cheerful and very forthright.

Your short temper may cause your advantages to diminish.

When the positive side of you comes out, you will try hard to go beyond the person you do not want to loose against.( have no idea what its trying to say here..)

You are suited to academic and artistic areas, where you can seek your insight.

Your soul never gets old, and you will keep coming up with new ideas.

The occupations you will be good at are those works where you can use your natural sense of creativity.

You may come up with new and innovative idea while relaxing.

This make you suited to jobs concerning planning events or entertaining.

Areas of arts may also bring good luck.

You are precise with money, and do not spend money easily. ( omg.. ya see that?! )

You will save up rather than use it, and although you don't show, you are sensitive with interests between personal relationships.

You don't buy things impulsively. ( this is getting so inaccurate )

Socially, you are very open person.

You seem to be very sociable person, but really you are extremely cautious, and will not easily tell your true feelings.

Balancing this kind of your bilateral character will be your task.

You can fall in love many times, but once married, you will take charge of the household, and control it efficiently.

Mmm quick blog before I run off to school.

'White chicks' was alrite. It had its funny moments.. yet, well.. it wasnt fantastic or anything. rather, it was a lil disappointing. I had found Jeremy's guffaws more amusing than the show for most *laugh* I like going out with Jeremy *beams happily* I feel sooo.. err.. pampered. *bounce* We talked alot about *smirk* melvin. Well, not about him really. Just his name kept on popping up.. then we would end up talking abt him a little bit each time.

Speaking of melvin. He fell asleep before i got home last night. I had to call him numerous times to wake him up *pouts* Then i kept him up and prattled on about how sweet his cousin was *grin*

*yawns* Man.. i feel like going back to bed.. I mean it doesnt really make a diff whether I go to CZ lab.. not like i get anything done there.. *looks longingly at the bed* ah well.. if i go back to sleep, chances are i'll get nightmares again. or 'day-mares' *snort* Been having them the whole morning. so am particularly drained. *sigh* time to head to school.. its gonna be a looooong day...

Mmmm well, Jeremy called and we postphoned the movie to today. *wrinkles nose* I feel really bad for dragging him out all the time. I mean he seems really busy and all. and he literally has to squeeze time out for me. and its not like he'll ever be done watching movies with me.. coz trust me. there are alot of movies that i want to catch.. the list is never ending. he's supposed to call me when he's done in school.. expected to be about 3pm. I feel like dragging him for a drink. I need alcohol in my system. Bad. Need my vodkas.

I think the current problem btwn mel and i.. is that we simply dont want to tell each other stuff anymore. The following conversation says it all:
me: have you settled the visa thing yet?
melvin: filled in the form.
me: filled in the form. duh. so what?.. have you sent it? ( i mean who cares if you've already filled it in.. you can fill it in and have it sitting on your table for years and it'll still be no use.)
melvin: no
Me: are you gonna take one day to fill it then 2 days to send?.. why cant you do it after lunch.. you're free anyway. are you waiting for your hols to be over?
Melvin: i'm not replying. you assume to know what i'm doing. so assume.

See my point? instead of telling me "oh i'l be doing it at whatever time.. ".. he comes up with rubbish like this. Fine dear. you do your stuff whichever way you like. I'll stop caring.

*yawn* i don't know why i've been so.. tired recently. It seems as tho i wake up more tired than before. Then when night falls, I practically collapse into bed. It's not like I've been doing anything exhausting.. In fact.. I haven't headed to the pool or gym for about 3 weeks now. Mainly coz Yewzhen is too busy to keep me company and i hate going alone :(

Looking forward for the movie with Jeremy tomorrow though. ARGh.. right. i still have one program left to do. I told myself i'll try to do this one without bugging jeremy :(

I can't believe Tim is still playing gunbound.. *laugh* its such an old game! am tempted to join him in it coz I dont have anything to play right now.. though i must say, the thought of playing with locals is a huge turn-off. Most of the "gamers" here are such.. noobs. well, i'm a noob too, but i'm a nice noob. unlike -some- i've seen in GB. *snort*

I don't care.. Melvin you must send me the ragnarok cd in december.. save my sanity. please. *gets a little desperate* I can't head back to daoc for obvious reasons so you have to get me another game k? *flutters eyelashes at melvin*

well, or you could get me sims2 *beam*

I think i'm gonna have to cut down on the frequency of my posts.. simply because there isnt anything much to type. I havent really been doing anything.. go to class.. come home.. read my notes and desperately try to understand whats been going on in class.. give up after 10 minutes or so and sit on front of the comp. it happens everyday.. I wonder when i'll learn not to waste that 10 minutes on trying and come on the comp straight.

Having the CZ test tomorrow. If there really is a god and if he is really as merciful as the bible claims he is, he should end my torture and lemme die in my sleep. Though chances are i'll still be alive and kicking tomorrow, cursing and swearing that god is nothing but a myth.

Man i'm exhausted.

I got my wish to look at the ocean. *smile* There wasnt really much peace considering the crowd. And there wasn't anyone to cuddle with. But I was lost for a few minutes.. just looking out. Then we looked at the kites up in the sky.. lots of people flying kites. and we talked about stuff.. mostly about nothing important. Spent one whole hour there. looking out at the ocean. talking. pondering. Then he said something which truely surprised me. Seems like.. he knows me better than I thought he did.

I bumped into someone from secondary school. Whom i've never really talked to.. some junior prefect. She saw me and she was like, "Were you from New town? prefect right?" and i immediately went,"oh my.. " .. For once someone recognized me out of school..

After it got too warm at the beach, we headed to Cine to watch this french show called err.. "the choir". Is a fantastic show! highly recommended. Lead boy's voice was.. *shudders in delight* and there's this lil one called pipetos or something. and he SOooooo adorable, in that lil boy way. Go catch it if ya have the time.

And erm. thanks eugene. Been a wonderful night *beams*

Immuno test was horrible, to say the least. Its going to be one of those "i'll pass but everyone will get 90%" kind of test. I heard some guy only left one question blank. and he only shaded the answers of which he was sure of *snort* So he'll only get 99 out of the hundred questions correct. *gags* What is wrong with all these people? At least I can confidently say I'm normal. I left like 40% blank.

*sigh* I feel like.. I feel like heading to the beach. or the jetty. with a few bottles of vokda cocktails in hand. I want to feel the sea breeze.. without the heat of the day. I want to go alone. or with someone who knows that he has to keep quiet. yeah a guy. makes cuddling more convenient. I dont want to listen to someone chatter away, so he has to be real quiet. I need that feeling again. The peace.. the feeling that its just him. just me. just the open sea. Then i want to fall asleep in his arms...wake up.. and watch as the sun rises.

*reality check* chances are i'll be bled dry by the mosquitoes, be real cranky coz i'm itching from the insect bites and the guy's arm would fall off due to the cut in blood supply to his arm. *snort*

*Sigh* then why does it feel that the beach is what i need right now?

I'm mighty pissed at this point. And it seems like the only dickhead who can piss me off this often is one of melvin's housemates called preetam. For some reason, he insists on heading onto skype and stuff whenever he knows melvin and are talking on it. I mean if they were on cable, i wouldnt care. Thing is, there are 4 ppl sharing a lousy 256k adsl.. and having both on skype at once gets really laggy. I can only hear melvin about 6 or 7 seconds after he speaks. and its not like melvin hasnt spoken to him about this. He didnt do it once. nor twice. countless times.. he's either d/ling or talking to skype. while i do know that he has to speak to his family.. must it really coincide with my talktime with melvin? I swear he does this on purpose. its like, ya know someone will be online. and getting online to talk will not only lag his conversation, but lags yours as well, and you do it anyway.. well, that's why i say he's a dickhead. and melvin and I always fight over this particular moron. simply coz melvin is too "nice" to do anything about it. If only he had put me on skype with preetam. i swear i will yell preetam's ears off. that dickhead.

Which brings me to the pt, Melvin seems to like being trampled all over by his housemate. I've asked time and again. why isnt he doing anything about it? and he can't come up with a good reason. If talking doesnt work, he should just rap that moron on the head. real hard. but Nooooo... he wants to bear with it. *mutters under breath* and all melvin tells me is " get your temper in check". well. I dont see why we have to resort to using msn to talk just coz you have an inconsiderate housemate. I'll talk to you when i "get my temper in check" then. And before i do, I shall not bother calling you or talking to you. after all. you dont want to be on the receiving end of all the abuse now do you?

That doesnt mean I didnt spend the whole damn day wishing you were here. I hate this. I really do.

*burps* excuse me *beams* Had a very.. Mmmm.. satisfying day.

Let's see.. I went for a buffet lunch. Had abalone salad, budhha jump over the wall ( which i didnt think was very impressive), the most wonderful steamed carrot cake, spring rolls and all the deep fried stuff, Yam paste, Sesame paste, Ice cream - strawberry, chocolate, cookies and cream, yam, vanilla and one more flavor which i can't recall at the moment ( yes, i had all six of them. ), ginseng chicken soup, sharksfin dumplings ( which i didnt think was fantastic ), all the dim sum stuff, the regular vegs and whatever dishes they have, prawn salad, tofu salad etc etc etc. and yes, that was lunch alone.

OOooo *bounces* I've got tickets for the one night only performance by the Vienna Boys' choir! *bubbles over with excitement* AND i just -may- get tickets to watch "Mama Mia".. ya know, that ABBA musical thing. It looks good. Then again, I may be getting tickets for the comedy directed by Hung. or Heng. Or somebody like that. Adrian Heng. I think. anyway, show's called "Visit of the tai tai".. that one looks good too. so.. maybe.. just maybe.

Right now, it just feels as though I may throw up anytime. Coz i had err... more to eat for dinner. plus strawberries and mooncakes for dessert. *burps* excuse me.

This is the most inaccurate test i've ever taken. Got the link from jen's blog.
Relationship quiz
eXpressive: 7/10
Practical: 4/10
Physical: 3/10
Giver: 10/10

You are a XSIG--Expressive Sentimental Intellectual Giver. This makes you a Teddy Bear.

Hee! I just want to give you a big squeeze. You are tender, honest, generous and fair. You are an excellent kisser and a sensitive, communicative lover, and you know it. You would never intentionally hurt someone's feelings or overstep his/her boundaries. You have beautiful eyes.(*snorts* beautiful eyes?.. puh-lease)

Most people take your laid-back attitude, blazing wit ( i do not have blazing wit) and subtle sexiness and stick you in "friend." But some see your extreme hotness for what it is and latch on. This means you have a few members of your target sex in the bank at all times -- I call this "money in the sex bank" -- but you're too sensitive and thoughtful to exploit them. More than once.(well, true. i normally exploit ppl only once.)

You are so rational (melvin would beg to differ) and deliberate in an argument that it can frustrate and exhaust your partner. Your fights can take forever (tell me about it), but you press on with them until they are completely resolved and both you and your partner are satisfied. If your partner is weak of will, s/he may just give in -- be wary of this!(woah mel.. is that a hint for you to not give in too much?) An emotional or passive-aggressive outburst later will hurt and horrify you.

It is *critically important* that you are able to respect your partner. The moment you lose respect for him/her, you lose everything.

When you make friends, you make them for life -- you can go without speaking to a friend for years and pick up right where you left off.( that's a blatant lie. I've nvr been able to do this even tho i've tried) You are completely faithful, both physically and emotionally. You are the second best (to XPIG) parent of any type.

If you are male, you have a huge shlong. Just saying.

Of the 103073 people who have taken this quiz, 8.2 % are this type.

I woke up at 7.30 this morning.. *growl* Why wasnt i informed that the 9am lab was cancelled? I even went there EARLY to photocopy a few things.. only to find the lab empty. I even had to ask the lab tech to make sure.. she was like "oh.. no we dont have lab today. it's next week." great. so i msged meishan to tell her there was no lab. and i gave jen a call as well.. Apparently, meishan was in the canteen rushing the pre-lab assignment *snicker* and well, Jen was in a cab on the way to school. Anyway, i joined Meishan for breakfast and we spent a good hour bitching about the various modules we're taking.

Which leaves me in a lil rut. I'm supposed to have tutorial NEXT friday morning at 9am. Not sure if that is postphoned to the week after or... now i have clashing lab and tutorial slots. AGAIN. *mutters under breath*

Anyway, i finished my plant developmental lab report *bounce* spent like 6 or 7 hours on the dreaded thing. at least its done, yes? Sooo.. now the only thing i have left to do, is to study for the immuno test next saturday *mumble* which can be a problem. I borrowed yewzhen's notes.. *looks at her notes* well.. she.. uh.. really packed the page full of info, i must say. *looks at my notes* I wonder how come my notes are so.. clean. *cough* nevermind.

'Dodgeball' was mmm... nice *grin* Ben Stiller was fantastic. Jeremy was laughing very loudly. *laugh* but yeah.. good show, all in all. Nice guys vs brainless, weird villians.. usual plot. but was good. better than 'harold and kumar' at any rate.

The following conversation took place this afternoon:
Me: Ooooo I haven't taken pictures in one of those booth things in a long time! lets go take one!
Jeremy: Uhhh now? *looks a lil scared*
Me: yep! now.. come on..
Jeremy: Now?! *prepares to run off* But i always look fat in pictures!
Me: *whines* no you won't.. we can look fat together.
Jeremy: *takes a step back and looks positively panicked*
Me: *whines* Pllleeeeeaaaaaasssseee? *tugs on Jer's sleeves*
Jeremy: *mumbles and shuffles into the shop*

MUahahahaha.

i'll keep it for blackmail if need be *evil gleam in eyes*

Well, i finally got to catch 'harold and kumar go to white castle' this afternoon. it was.. lame to say the least. easy on the brain. just laugh at how stupid a show can get. it was lame. I did laugh. All in all a horrible show, but for some weird and unexplainable reason, i enjoyed it.

Lets hope Dodgeball will prove a better show. catching it with Jeremy tomorrow.

Thanks for link Kenneth. Now i know where to get trustworthy movie reviews.

*pause*

brain went dead on me. bah. blog another day.

Melvin wants me to write something nice about him. so here it is: melvin is nice. there. *smirk*

Other than that, i dont really have anything to type. I read the intro lecture notes for immuno today and that was enough to fry my brain cell. so.. Mm.. yeah.